Is the Platonic lifestyle back?

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From around September, when I had been enjoying good health until then,、For some reason, my lower back started to hurt.。back of buttocks and thighs、Pain specific to sciatica in the opposite shin etc.。10When the moon comes、There are days when I can't straighten my hips anymore.、I also tend to take breaks from walking.。The exhibition began under such circumstances.、On the last day (October 16th), I bent down and reached the gallery.、The situation has reached such a point that。The day after it ended, I had difficulty walking.。a little bit、I overdid it。―I was sketching and sketching while sleeping all day.。

Sketching while you sleep? -Nowadays, anyone can draw while lying down - using a tablet device such as an iPad - There are people with disabilities who can't even raise their upper bodies.、Attach the color box to the bed、I once saw a video of someone painting in oil with the help of a family member.。Unless it absolutely has to be oil paint、Nowadays, it is easy to draw pictures using tablets etc.。myself too、Even if my lower limbs were to fail, I have no doubt that I would be able to continue drawing.。Even with just one pencil, a picture is a picture.、Not to mention, even the color is ``still sleeping''.、If you could paint it in an instant。

Even sculptors can't create works using 3D printers.。There are also examples of architects creating real buildings using printers.、Build a real tank and drive it around on the streets、There are even some disturbing people who have been arrested.。This is an era when terrorist groups can secretly mass-produce machine guns using printers.。Why 3D printers are no longer a hot topic these days、That's not uncommon anymore、I guess that means。Are you grateful for the conveniences of civilization? is。

Draw while lying on your stomach on the bed。Doesn't put a strain on your lower back、I'm not used to using my hanging arms, so my shoulders start to hurt after an hour or two.、I can't continue。Watch a movie while facing the opposite direction。After watching、I also sketch and draw pictures.。If it's about the level of Squis、In the past, there have been situations where I would lie on my stomach and draw in a sketchbook, such as when my lower back hurt.、by corona、It was confirmed that such scenes (eras) will become commonplace in the future.。in ancient greece、Citizens eat while sleeping、study while sleeping、It seems like they had an argument (let the slave do the work).。It is an "ancient Greek/Platonic (academia)" lifestyle that I had never imagined before the coronavirus pandemic (however,、In any case, slave! Not there)。

The end of the exhibition and the end of the art exhibition

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銀座・ギャルリー志門でのグループ展「風土に生きるⅧ」展が16日終了しました。コロナ下、わざわざおいで下さった方ありがとうございます。わざわざお電話、お葉書など下さった方、thank you。

展覧会の期間中、六本木の国立新美術館で二紀展、独立展や前々回紹介した個展など、いくつかの個展、グループ展も廻ってみた。どれも力いっぱい頑張っている。そこに注がれる膨大なエネルギー、素材の量、資金。そして多くのあらゆる種類の犠牲。そして得られる小さな自己満足程度の喜びと、僥倖のような、ほとんど社会性の無い内輪だけの称賛。「健気」という以上にふさわしい言葉があるだろうか。

「わたしの個人的美術史では、美術の歴史はすでに終わっている」とずっと前に書いた。あらためてそのことを確認した。誰もが絵を描かなくなるという意味ではない。それどころか10年後には絵を描くことはもっと手軽になり、誰もが暇つぶしに描くようにも思う。終わっている、のは「もう付け加えることがない」つまり、美術史的には巻末まで来たということと、（少なくとも現代の日本的な）美術展という形式のこと。

少なくとも現代日本の美術展には個人的な犠牲（負担ではなく、あえて「犠牲」というほどそれ）が大きすぎる。日本独自の団体展という制度は、その犠牲の量を人数で割って小さくするための方法論であり、作家どうしが互いの傷を舐めあって生きる美術長屋もである。作家がのびのびと作りたいものを作り、自由に発表するという理想からは遠すぎる。作家になるということは社会から逸脱するという覚悟、社会的自殺の覚悟が要る、といっても過言ではない。家族まで巻き添えにして、たまさか運よく流行作家になれた人だけを見て、その犠牲的精神を格好いいと思うのは時代錯誤であり、それを強いる似たような社会的抑圧（たとえば女性の社会的地位）の風土と通底する。

いまはインターネットがある。インターネットがそれらの問題を一挙に解決するなどという妄想は、さすがに妄想家を自認するわたしも持たないが、最低でもその一部を軽減してくれる程度の力はすでに持っている。創作の厳しさ（努力）と身体的、社会的犠牲とを混同してはならない。創作の厳しさは、自分自身が解放される場所からでなけれ乗り越えられないと思うからである。

YouTube

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On the 5th of last month (September), the YouTube channel “Blue Seagull Painting Class” was opened.。A place for members of the “Blue Seagull Exhibition” to interact、place of study、I would like to use it for individual member presentations, etc.、While inflating my hopes,。

Almost 1 month since opening。For now, I watch YouTube with the intention of making it myself.。Until it opened, it was someone else's business.、When you start looking at it with those eyes、My hope dwindles every time I look at it。The quality of the channels that are attracting a lot of views is as expected.、High level in both quantity、The feeling of not being able to reach the goal even if it takes 100 years grows。

It goes without saying that YouTubers have the ability to use computers.、Great speaking skills too。Professional knowledge and actual work such as cameras and lighting。Editing ability and sense、And above all, a strong desire to “communicate”。Everything feels so far away that I can't reach it.。Among them、Perhaps the most important thing is a strong desire to "communicate and share"、that's what I'm missing。I can't connect with anyone、I don't feel lonely at all when I have time alone、Because I feel like that's the most fun.。

But、Then it ends up being just pretend drawing.。It may be true that a picture is like that.、I can't help but feel a little unsatisfied.。I want to expand the world outside of myself a little more.。I chose "Blue Seagull..."、It is also a burden on me for that purpose.。A little tough、By imposing a slight sense of obligation on myself, who tend to run away when something difficult happens.、I'm thinking of staying here without running away.。