Month: December 2016

心苦しいが / Under stress

Sweets
Sweets

It's not that I have free time。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、All I do is what people with free time do。I have been reading since early morning this morning.。Actually a few days ago、I started reading it with the intention of finishing it quickly.、unable to read through、It took me until noon today to finally finish reading it.。meanwhile、My butt feels like it's on fire, and it's tingling.、make a copy。Last night was last night、I watched all the foreign dramas I didn't have time to watch all at once.。Throughout the day, a voice in my heart kept telling me, ``I don't have time for this.''、I continued to draw several drawings.。Speaking of home、10I just took care of a few potted plants.。I know I'm in a hurry because it's this time of year.。

I'm bored。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、I don't have time。I'm busy because I have a lot to do.、In the end, it just doesn't do anything。that's stress。I only do standard ways to relieve stress.。While munching on sweets、ダイエット本を読んでいるようなものか。

For the time being、絵に描いた餅ならぬ、絵に描いたスイーツをどうぞ。

 

年の瀬だ

朝食兼昼食
朝食兼昼食

In the blink of an eye、time passes。The end of the year ended with all I had to do to deal with the work that had been postponed due to my hospitalization.。Year-end errands are piling up.。

But for some reason I start to miss alcohol at the end of the year.。It is often said that alcohol is a double-edged sword.。I feel happy when I'm drinking、I can't sleep at night。It's like drinking relaxation and stress together.。Although not specifically discouraged by doctors,、There is no choice between sleep and alcohol.。

I went out for early morning coffee this morning.、11 o'clock after returning home、lunch cum lunch。I find it troublesome to cook rice、I bought a curry donut near the station.。Just yogurt and maple syrup、coffee。

 

お菓子 / Sweets

sweets sweets
お菓子 sweets

In no time at all、1 week after discharge。I didn't force myself though、ブラブラすることもなく、結構忙しい１週間が過ぎた。

退院後に備え、手術翌日から準備しておいたことが現実的には役にたった。But、今から考えてみるともっと深く入院を味わうべきだったようにも思う。年齢を考えると、これから何度か入院を繰り返すことになるだろうし、いろんな視点から（自己）観察できる良い機会を、普段の生活からの視点だけで過ごしてしまった。But、良い機会だったと思う。

手術翌日、下の階の売店でチョコレートを一箱買った。病院食だけでは脳の栄養が足りないと思ったから。それを時々舐めながら、ベッド脇でパソコンに向かっていた。結局その一箱だけで満足し、追加はしなかったが、甘い飲料は何度か買った。

間食は殆どしない。あっても食べないが、何故かお菓子を見るのは好きである。綺麗な包み紙や洒落たデザイン、安っぽい高級感など、私にとってお菓子は、食べるというよりはデザインやイメージの原材料になりつつある。お菓子一つごとに、甘い夢を見ることができる。気分が向けば、食べてもみる。何だか市場調査みたいな食べ方だが、けれど面白いと思ったものは、ちょっとだけでも、必ず食べてみたい気持になる。