Month: August 2024

cold coffee

I did it

I may have written it before、The world record for sniping with a rifle (albeit an abominable one) is 3800m.。The ongoing war in Ukraine、Ukrainian sniper uses Ukrainian rifle、The Security Service of Ukraine (SBU) claims that a Russian soldier was shot at.、already known all over the world。

military and military personnel、For weapon manufacturers and others, this is a record of actual combat.、This is definitely a much more useful record than the world record for the 100m dash at the Olympics.。What I imagine is、I wonder what the Russian soldier who was shot was thinking at the time.、This person is building his "own" snowboard "road"。Because it's war、Even though some members of the family were able to leave behind the preparedness of not knowing when or where they would be shot.、From such a distance that the word "resolve" has no meaning to him.、Real death must have come。

I'm also sorry to hear about the topic of the Ukraine war.、F16 fighter jet given to Ukraine crashes。There was an official announcement that the fire was caused by an ally's accidental fire.。This pilot was apparently an extremely talented and well-liked person.、President Zelensky was furious about this.、The Air Force commander was fired on the same day.。

few days ago、My uncle died of illness in his hometown.。With a Russian soldier who had no way of knowing what happened to him.、At least with the pilot who must have taken off thinking that he might not necessarily come back alive.、With my uncle who passed away while being cared for by his family、The meaning of each death、I don't understand。Death has no meaning、I guess it's just "death"、That's what I'm thinking at this moment。
in the family、Even though I live far away from you、For some reason I'm the only grandparent、Only one person was present at the death of his parents.。mysterious edge of death。

gain confidence sometimes

I was able to draw one today too.

Hello everyone。This fucking hot summer too、By the time you hear the news about the typhoon、It's almost over、The corners of his mouth turned up involuntarily.。

with the years、Everyone loses confidence in various things.。physical strength、memory、imagination etc.。Is “The Power of the Elderly” a bestseller? There will be a book about、Oh dear、In short, I would say, ``Be disappointed in moderation.''。Being confident even in old age、The market price is fixed as someone who is stupid or not good.。

But、Sometimes I regain my confidence、It is necessary to gain confidence。Even if I get so depressed that I commit suicide、No one is happy (and、Let's think about it)。Confidence too、Distrust too、Overconfidence can be summed up in one word.、Close to one's own "conceptions"。Maybe you're a little faster than the person walking next to you.、Regain your confidence and be happy that your legs haven't weakened yet。That person、Even if it's just slower than others、Self-confidence comes back automatically。I need a handy head like that.。

A person who lacks self-confidence in every sense of the word.、I don't think that exists in this world.、perceived self-confidence、Sometimes they can exert explosive power、Things that are often said especially in sports。It's natural that your level of confidence will change depending on where your goals are.。Saying things like "I'm not confident that I can win"、I imagine that these words were probably forced to be said by pressure that other people cannot imagine.、I feel like this is an unfortunate direction.。``If it's like this,、I feel confident that I'll be able to manage tomorrow as well.、Let's turn it on from time to time.。most、This is not confidence but “hope”、It makes me a little sad though。

Twip,twip. We are summer

緑のざくろのためのエスキース

Twip,twip. We are. どんな意味ですか？実はこれ、英語じゃありません。わたしの部屋の窓の下で啼く、蝉の声です。一階の窓の下、つまり花壇の植え込みの中。だからてっきり虫の声だと思っていた。あー、もう秋だなーなんて。

そうしたら散歩道、今度は頭の上から聞こえてくる。あれっ？同じ声じゃない？見あげれば銀杏の木にとまっている、蝉さんじゃあありませんか。異名オーシンチョコともいう、それはヒグラシ？わたしのようなその日暮らしより、もっと短い人生、ならぬ蝉生を生きる蝉なんです。その啼き声がTwip,twip. We are.とわたしには聞こえてしまうんです。

小中学生の夏休みはどうやら終わったらしいが、わたしの夏休みはもう少し続く。今年の夏は例年に比べると、イイコト、悪いこと、結構大きなアップダウンがあった（まだ終わってないけど）。イイコトのうち、YouTube絡みでひとついうと、チャンネル登録者が1000人を越えたことはすでにお知らせしてしまいました（隠しておけず）が、夏休み中のチャンネルの視聴時間が1000時間を超えたこと。月1000時間は半年前は想像もしないほど遠い目標でした。

長く続けることで得られることもあり、切り替えができずに失うものもある。何が良くて、何が悪いのかは、その時その場では判断できないことだらけ。残された時間はどんどん短くなっていく、なんて考えるとじりじりと心が灼けてくるが、宇宙や自然に目を向ければ、偉くなろうが、金持ちになろうが、人の一生など虫けら同然にも見える。長い地下生活から地上に出て、2週間だけの残された時間を蝉はどう感じているんだろうか。Twip,twip. We are. 明日は明日の風が吹く。