Month: April 2020

Silent Spring

The roadside in spring is full of flowers
Wisteria blooms even when no one is looking

I haven't been on a train for a month and a half.。Museums and libraries are closed.、Maybe it's because I have nowhere to go、It's also because I'm busy。Universities will also be offering online classes.、Editing videos etc. for that purpose、10 hours or more every day、I can't leave my computer。

I was thinking, "I want to be able to edit videos this year."、I was suddenly forced to do it.。Far from being a “crossing boat”、I was suddenly dragged into a boat from the shore.、Suddenly rowing alone at the helm、I feel like that's what I was told。And there's a rapid in front of me、I told him to get to the shore before that.。That's so reckless、I thought, but it's already on the water.。I have no choice but to watch and imitate.、Although I thought about it、I'm not good at it after all。A small thing every day will stop you from going to Niche or Sacchi.。But for some reason、When I sleep for one night、Oh, that's strange、What was that about yesterday?。But、The rapids are coming closer and closer。I need to do something soon、I can't sleep when I start thinking about it.。

At times like that、The countryside is nice。10 minutes by bicycle、There are already fields and rice fields。There were no people to pass by, so I kept my mask under my chin.。Spring wildflowers on the roadside、The flowers are in full bloom。I also learned about “Caterpillar oxalis” for the first time.。If you look at it, you can definitely see the shape of an oxalis leaf.。The flower of the legume family is "Yahazunopea"、Another name is crow's pea.。I also learned the goldenrod.。Of course dandelions、Irises and wisteria are in full bloom。But、There's no one to love it。Suddenly、Reminds me of Rachel Carson's "Silent Spring"。

she、Silent death of the natural world due to DDT poisoning、Even the birds don't sing、A world without insects、Using the keyword "silence" to denounce the horror of environmental destruction。Now that we are scared due to the coronavirus、There are also birds、I see butterflies everywhere。I also saw carp jumping in the river.。But、There are no people。I thought it was “Silent Spring” in a different sense.。Corona can't be helped。But、What is this abnormal commotion?。In fact, isn't it increasing the number of man-made disasters?。Probably in Japan、Death due to coronavirus infection、I'm worried that more people will commit suicide due to economic hardship.。Income during April、Since I became a member of society、became zero for the first time。

Thoughts of "indecisiveness"

「 Yellow apple 」 2020 F120 tempera,alkyd

“Ideology” is an exaggeration.、It is said that "early to bed and early to rise" is also a great idea.、Then、Is active “indecisiveness” even more admirable?、That's how I feel。Recently, I sometimes hear the term "negative capability."。Ability to withstand negative moods、It seems to mean the ability to maintain a state of limbo.。That's it、There is, right?、is。

Still、quick decision。I won't give up no matter what happens。unwavering will。look forward。Those words、It still has a positive image on the street.。The words "do your best"、Originally, it meant "to stand up for myself"、Apparently it wasn't a very good image.、With the trend of the times、People who put themselves out there started to get promoted.、I guess that's what people are aiming for.。

But、Making decisions quickly and getting good results are not the same thing.。“If the results are the same、There are quite a few people who say, "It's better to make decisions quickly."。It's a sly way of saying that it arbitrarily assumes that "if the result is the same"、In the first place, how do we determine that the results are the same?、It's a statement that lacks that level of thought process.。“No matter what happens, I won’t give up.”、Isn't he more of a machine than a human? "Unwavering will"。Certainly the stubborn father next door、It's the unwaveringness of never admitting one's mistakes.。Speaking of "looking forward"、In World War II, the Japanese military always looked forward.、Emphasizing the spirit of never looking back。With a secluded way of thinking, like replacing withdrawal with ``transition.''、Didn't he let tens of thousands of young soldiers die?。Why is it still a positive image?。

I hate words like "guts"、If I had to dare to say it, I think it's because the people who use their "guts" around don't have the same "guts."。There are many things that cannot be overcome with "guts" etc.。Its causes and processes、prediction of results etc.、carefully、There are many things that are possible but will not become possible if you don't think carefully.。the length of the thought process、I couldn't stand the detailed thought process and said,、I give up on everything, thinking, ``It's a make or break.''。It's not something that's good or bad.、just an idiot。to hide that stupidity、He brazenly blurts out things like “guts.”、I think。Someone says、``The inability to make decisions is something that only humans can think about.''。but、If you think about it carefully、I feel like I'm one of the idiots, at least a third of the time.。

I'm busy killing time

"I think I should draw watercolors like this."

I'm bored so I draw videos every day、いやいやそうじゃない。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、I guess so after all。To draw a video、It takes longer than I thought。So it's perfect for killing time、No, that's not it、But maybe that's true。If it's a video like this, it's fine to "shoot video" from the beginning.。But、That's that。

The number of new coronavirus cases in Tokyo today is apparently 189.。More than yesterday's 144。The infection is spreading。So we have to "self-restraint" more strictly? but、It looks tiny from the perspective of 14 million people in Tokyo.。

As of April 10th, the number of PCR tests conducted in Tokyo is、1Approximately 300 cases per day。This means that the maximum number of infected people will not exceed 300 per day.、300After testing, 189 people were positive.、It also shows a certain probability。Only people with symptoms are tested、In this case, you need to be careful about the meaning of the word "probability."、At least, the number of infected people has increased by 189 in Tokyo.、That doesn't mean。

"Number of infected people 189"。How many more or less has increased since yesterday?、Actually, it doesn't mean much、The essence is that "I tested 300 people who complained of symptoms and 189 people tested positive."。Even if you complain of symptoms, only 300 people will be tested.、Even if the test is positive, none of the other 189 people are counted.。If we increase the number of tests, the number of infected people should definitely increase.、You can also say that。I'm not saying that the news reports are lying、(I don't know if it's intentional or not) I don't think they are necessarily trying to convey the essential meaning.。。142、144、189 or、300What does "numbers" mean?、How does this involve the "request" in this "state of emergency"?。It's a good idea to think about that, but also kill time。