Month: February 2021

aurora

"Aurora" Watercolor 2021.2

The person who became my model is currently a 4th year university student.。4Become a member of society in the true sense from the moon。After finding a job、While preparing before joining the company and studying for the qualifications required after joining the company.、I spend each day with a little bit of anxiety and a lot of hope (though I didn't say so).、He told me。

I think, "It's beautiful."。Of course the face、The very fact that we are living in this very moment with youth and hope、I think it's beautiful。drawing a picture is、There is joy in always encountering this beauty.、It also means。Let me tell you this early so there is no misunderstanding.、This joy also comes from facing "youth" directly.、To put it more frankly, “Now、Living in this moment.”、And it lies in touching that “sense of fulfillment.”。
It's not limited to young people.、Not limited to humans。whether it's an animal or a plant、The contentment of being alive in this moment is the essence of being alive (in my own sense)、Even if it is a stone, the ``meaning of being right now'' is not much different.)。And、(the amount of energy) that it naturally radiates outward、when you touch it、I feel that time and space are “beautiful.”。That (drawing) gives me the power to change myself too.、I think that's the content of "what I want to draw"。by drawing、I feel like I too am being reborn.。

Can you feel that in this sketch?。While drawing、Shape and light and dark without care、I think I'm just chasing the colors、My five senses (unconscious) are probably trying to show other things on the screen as well.、to expect without permission。next year、Or in a few years、She doesn't even know what she's actually doing right now.。Getting a job is just the first step、have already taken the step。She decides the "second step" herself.。Please、Everyone takes a step for themselves、I just hope that you take the second step firmly.。

Lately, I've been practicing drawing on my computer.、I was neglecting to draw with actual materials.。It’s been a while since I drew with real wood.、After all, I feel a different person than when I'm at the computer.。from paper、from pencil、from water、From the brush、I can feel the response that I don't have on a computer.。"That touch、It is said that it can already be achieved with a computer.、Fortunately or unfortunately、Currently, I need two dimensions: a computer and real materials.、I can't enjoy the goodness of each.。It's up to me whether I think this is an inconvenience or an option.。

My real face ② - Boy T

Tulip (CG)

Although the boy T was timid,、It was also cruel。When I played with friends, I sometimes got a little shy and fidgeted behind my back.、I get bolder when I'm alone、Surprisingly, he had no problem killing living things.。
Most of his prey are small animals、The most common one was frogs.。When the snow melts、Frogs are wriggling everywhere out of nowhere.。Shoot it with a handmade bow。The arrow is a stem of pampas grass、There were many around。それをナイフで鋭角に切り取り、緩んできた地面に突き刺すと茎のなかの空洞に泥が入り、先端部だけ適当に重くなる。矢は先が重くないとうまく飛ばないのだ。

不思議なことに、カエルを殺しているという意識は、彼の中に全然浮かばなかった。むしろ正確に矢を射ることだけに意識が集中していた。カエルには恐ろしい敵だが、彼にとってはカエルは動きの遅いただの標的に過ぎなかった。しかもそれは彼だけの遊びではなかった。友達もみな自分で作った弓を持っていて、同じようにカエルを練習台に、熱心に弓の腕を競い合っていたのだった。やがて暖かくなり、カエルの声が田んぼから聞こえるころには、弓のことも射られたカエルのこともきれいさっぱり忘れて、小魚を追うのに夢中になった。
　小魚もまた彼の遊び道具の一つに過ぎず、彼にとってそれは「生き物」ではなく「さかな」という「動くモノ」であった。カエルと少し違うのは、時々は家に持ち帰って食べることもあることくらい。たいていはさかなを捕まえるところまでしか、彼の興味はなかった。捕まえたあと、その小魚をどうしたかさえ覚えてはいなかった。ただひたすら捕まえること。よりすばしこく、捕えることが難しければ難しいほど、小さなさかなたちは彼の興味を駆り立てた。捕まえた小魚の、手の中でぴちぴちと激しくくねる、くすぐったい感触は彼を有頂天にさせた。そしてぬめりの中に光る極小の鱗、うっすらと浮かび上がる斑点の美しさを、美しいという言葉さえ思い浮かべずに感じてもいた。

もう少し大きくなってからは、狙う獲物も大きくなった。もうカエルや小魚は卒業していた。素潜りと魚釣りの時期を過ぎ、アケビや山葡萄も終わって冬になると、T たちは野ウサギを狙うようになった。それは肉も毛皮も確かに有用であり、それを目的に彼の友人たちも雪の中を歩きまわっていたが、彼の興味の中心はやはりそれを捕まえるまでであった。獲物の生態を調べ、その能力を上回る方法で捕まえること。それが T の願いであり、理想だった。ほかの少年たちがウサギ狩りにも飽きて山へ行かなくなるころ、とうとう狐が彼の対象になった。

狐は、彼の相手にふさわしい警戒心と周到さ、そして知力とパワーを持っていた。すぐに彼は狐の能力に驚嘆し、一種の憧れにも近い感情を持ちはじめた。この美しくも優れた獲物を自分だけの力で捕らえたい、その一方でどうか自分が仕掛けた罠を凌ぎ、生き延びてほしい。そんな矛盾した感情を狐に対して持つようになっていった。
　「罠にかかったらどうしようか。」今度は彼も、捉えたあとのことを真剣に考えないわけにはいかなかった。いま彼の狙っているのは、足跡の大きさから考えて、ある程度の大物だと予想していた。おそらく中型の犬くらいはあるだろう。祖父の部屋の長押にぶら下がっていた、自分の身長ほどもある大きな狐の襟巻を彼は思い浮かべた。―あれより大きいかも―そいつが罠にかかったときの、死に物狂いの抵抗を T は想像した。「逃がしてやるのが一番危険で難しい。」彼は何度も頭の中で、うまく逃がしてやる方法をシミュレーションしてみたが、うまい方法が思いつかなかった。鋭い牙で噛まれ、自分も大怪我をする可能性の方が大きい。―手早く殺すしかないが、どうやって？
　獲物の逃げ場をせばめ、足場の悪いところに追い込んでいる以上、自分の足場の幅もぎりぎり、斜めでしかも凍っている。足が滑れば足元の深い淵の中へ自分が落ちてしまう。棍棒で殴り殺すにしても、すぐ頭上には細い枝が網の目のように絡み合っている。―棍棒を振り上げるスペースは無い―彼はその場面を脳の奥の方でゆっくり、精細なビデオで検証するように繰り返していた。

　少年 T のお話はここまで。わたしの夢の中で T は今でも時々獲物を追っているが、もう捕まえる気持ちはないらしい。けれど彼らを追い詰めるまでの緊張感と、それを逃れていく動物たちの本当のカッコよさに、いつまでも夢から覚めたくない思いがある―夢の覚め際にかならず T はそう言うのである。

　
　

My real face ①

One day's dream (CG)

The wonderful words "new daily life"、Being labeled with the outrageous epithet “With Corona”、Moreover, as expected, it was taken over by politicians.。It's really a waste。But in that case、What was your “everyday life” and “normal daily life” like?。I felt like it wouldn't be a bad idea to take another look at my feet.。

This is why、First, I decided to make a simple sketch of my current face.。First of all, appearance。For now, let's assume the age is less than 100 years old.。As of today (2021.2.5)、Height: 169cm、Weight 68.1kg、Body fat percentage 18.5% (slightly obese) and back pain for 8 years.。Avoid carrying heavy luggage as much as possible。bald on top of head、eyes are nearsighted、My ears are also quite far away.。Compared to friends of the same age, 10 years seems older.。What kind of silhouette do you imagine? A bent old man with a cane?

face? More than a true face、I have to draw the face first.。-The head is relatively small (probably the brain too)、Because I have a lot of hair that I don't take care of (there aren't that many)、When I look at my own shadow, it looks huge, like mohair.。My eyes are as thin as the size of a thread and a piece of wool (when I was in junior high school)、(It was often mistaken for falling asleep)、Thin eyebrows and drooping corners of the eyes。The nose is neither high nor low。Neither aquiline nor pointed nose、Basically an average nose。Don't talk。I can't open it particularly wide.、Because I'm not an idiot、Is this also normal?。However、What I noticed when I looked at my mother's photo、The shape of wrinkles that form under the closed corners of the mouth。I'm sure it wasn't there when I was a child.、Appears when you get older、this must be genetic。In terms of the whole face、The Earth's gravity is stronger as you go from the center line to the edges.。My jaw isn't particularly square, though.、He's not as thin as the handsome guy he is now.。But ok、I guess he's a very easy-going person.。I don't have any beard other than stubble.。My teeth are healthy、I have a dentist's approval for having missing teeth.。

Hobbies: I do write haiku.、I'm not so hooked on it yet that I can say it's a hobby.。I feel like I have to get a little deeper into it before I can call it a hobby.。But it's been going on for 10 years。My ambitious works often receive almost 0 points at haiku gatherings.。It's the type of phrase that makes you feel empty.。I have no connection to sports these days.、When I was young, I loved moving my body, so I'm still interested in it.。athletics、baseball、Sumo、swimming、mountain climbing、including skiing、I still want to do everything。Oh dear、Let's just say I love watching and doing it.。In one word, I love studying.、“The type who doesn’t seek results” (I was able to put it in a good way)。Speaking of words that I don't like, like effort and perseverance.、You should be able to imagine the level of achievement in studies and sports.。

write this far、Now that you can sketch your real face,、3 points out of 100 for “my view of sketching”、Wonder。I just published the primary data.。