Blue seagull

A solo exhibition is just around the corner、Because I'm busy and I'm not feeling well.、The last challenge has stopped。

I guess it can't be helped that I'm busy、What bothers me is ``dizziness''。It started suddenly a few days ago in the morning.。

morning、The moment I tried to lift the futon、The ceiling begins to rotate、I fell down on the futon。``You didn't push yourself too hard yesterday, right?'' I thought to myself.。I thought it was caused by the strain on my neck, which has a hernia.。It subsided quickly, but、When I wake up again、The ceiling spins again。

fortunately、Those two times were all it took for the day.、I was nervous when driving the car.。I was worried about what would happen if I suddenly got dizzy.、I managed to finish the work。I don't have a headache though、I feel pressure in my head。When I measure my blood pressure, it's 125-92.。Regardless of the above, the minimum blood pressure is too high.。Normally my blood pressure is around 100-70.。Sometimes the top drops below 100、I'm so worried that I might have low blood pressure.、I was very interested in this 92.。I still get dizzy from time to time (even when I'm sleeping)。As far as I searched on the internet, it's benign.、It seems like it will heal within a few months if left alone.。

That day, I got a call from my brother at home.。I was nervous because there was a serious change in my father's condition.、We finally talked about transferring to a hospital closer to my hometown (until now, going to the hospital itself was、It was physically taxing.)。We decided to talk about various things going forward.。I'm also concerned about my father's condition.、After the solo exhibition ended, I felt a strong need to go to Aomori as soon as possible.。

In rural areas, there is a near critical shortage of doctors and hospitals (as a result, each hospital is overcrowded).、The burden on doctors increases、Full of elderly patients)。Even if I was able to transfer to a nearby hospital.、Without a car, visiting someone becomes a big job.。To Aomori、drive a car alone、have to come back。That in itself is a big burden、What should I do if I get dizzy on the way?、I have new concerns。This year until the very end、It looks like it's going to be a restless year。

Apart from the casual watercolor sketch exhibition, this will be my first solo exhibition in three years.。While planning every year、It's been 3 years since I canceled twice.。Of course, that doesn't mean I didn't create anything during that time.、I really didn't feel like having a solo exhibition.。Even if you come this far、I still feel like I want to stop。The other half is interested in myself。

"Shelter Man" was produced before the Great East Japan Earthquake.。From the word shelter、It reminds me of images from the nuclear power plant accident.、unrelated。my personal、I would like to emphasize again that this was created from everyday sensibilities.。

Recent major works include ``Screaming Man'' (2008), ``Tatsumaki no Man'' (2009), and ``Shinsei No. 5'' (2010).、Connected to "Shelter Man" (2011.A different work from DM)。I think what I'm drawing is a portrait of a giant man (probably myself) or the state of existence.。

In ``The Screaming Man,'' it is not human ``words.''、I drew it because I wanted to scream as a human "voice".、In “Tatsumaki Man” even before drawing、Even while I was drawing it, a huge itch was growing inside me.。What is grotesque in “New Life”? I thought about this by looking at my own physical changes (including aging).。and "shelter"。

The primary meaning of "shelter" is, of course, "a cloak/structure for protection."。The premise is that you must be aware that you are a weak creature.。but、Then the giant、Doesn't this contradict the image of a grotesque and violent "man"?

In Japanese folklore, a giant man named ``Oni'' has horns.、My whole body is red or blue、Moreover, it has a hairy and grotesque appearance.、There is a ``personality'' that possesses ferocious and frightening power that is beyond the reach of humans and animals.。There are many stories about young girls being sacrificed.、There are many stories of him valuing the girl more than his own life.。If you just look at that area、Maybe the person I'm drawing is a man?、Actually, I feel it myself。The shape of Nebuta, my hometown of Aomori, also provides an interesting perspective.。

but、It's called a reinforcement meeting.。I didn't create it with Nebuta in mind.、It's not like I studied folktales from around the world and then changed my ideas.。Daiichi、I won't be able to maintain my own reputation if I try to add meaning to things like that.。If you're a man (because you're a man), it's sad.、I sympathize with。It is through this empathy that we are connected to the “new birth.”。(I call a beautiful woman a man in my heart.。Probably whitening、Beautiful skin is the result of many sacrifices made on the other side of the world) I am drawing from my own history.。drawing the history of one's existence。The reason I am a little different from other painters is that、I'm sure there's a reason for that、I've been thinking lately。

*If the beautiful woman is a man、I am paradoxically confused as to what I am.。the world is troublesome。

Exhibition:at Gallery Keifuu/minami-kosigaya/ phone 0489-89-1899 /11am to 6pm Come on, and talk with me.

 

Bicycle news has been increasing recently.。It also seems like bad manners are the only thing that gets picked up on.。until recently、Who was talking about ecology and cleanliness?、It seems like you've already forgotten。

The number of accidents has increased in part because the number of people riding has simply increased.。なのにそれに見合う施策がほぼ無いに等しかったからだ。マナーの悪い人は確かにいるだろう。若者に特に批判が集中しているようだが、おばちゃんたちのマナーの低さ（無知なのか、ずうずうしいだけなのかは分からないが）に較べればはるかにマシだと感じている。However、命の危険があるようなのは、ちょっと困る。

自転車にも、乗る以上は年齢に関わらず交通講習を義務付け、またはもっと積極的に奨励するなどの施策、安全なレーンの確保など、まず行政がやるべきことがたくさんあるのではないか。お金が無い、人員が足りないという言い訳は、そのために人が死んだり、怪我しても仕方ないと言っているに等しいのではないか。

Suddenly、自分がいつ自転車に乗れるようになったんだっけ？と考えた。

思い出せば、自動車を運転できるようになった時より、自転車が乗れるようになった時の方がずっと感動的だったことを思いだした。そしてそのことが私の行動範囲を住んでいた地域をはるかに越えさせ、ちょっとした冒険を与えてくれ、想像もしなかった新しい風景を私に見せてくれた。中学生の夏、アルバイトして自分の自転車を買った。８千円ぐらいだったような気がする。１日２００円で働いたがそのお金だけでは足りず、残りは親が出してくれた。

自転車の文化は日本には根付いていない。自転車も自動車も、それ自体の良さを楽しむだけの豊かな気持ちを国民的に育ててこなかったからだ。それらをただただ仕事の効率の為だけに使ってきた貧乏根性から未だに抜けられないこの国が、高速鉄道から車窓の風景を奪ってしまっても一向に平気なのと、根は一緒なのだろう。　2011/11/12