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「Apple」 2019 F6 　Oil on canvas

My "Apple" first appeared in the late 1980s.、At least 30 years already、continues with interruptions。I feel like there's going to be a new series now.、What I would like to say around here is、 I don't want it to be converted to "Apple"。

I'm almost all year round、eat an apple after every dinner。“Apples, apples” are “real things” to me.、It's not just an image。Also、I don't usually call apples "Apple"。that's why、“Apple” as a work is to me、An image (abstract) as a form、It is not intended to depict real objects that are eaten or eaten.。"Apple" is called "Apple"、Completely different from apples、It's a different dimension、I want you to think that。

If you think so、This picture can be easily understood just by looking at it.。The overall shape is like an apple, but、If you look closely, you'll see a muscular man.、(It also looks like a cloak.、You may be able to see a picture of someone flying (“with wings” that also resembles a feather)。That is "Apple"。

Actually、Paintings with this kind of mechanism have been around the world since ancient times.、I also refer to them、I have tried many different things so far.。However, the recent "Apple" (in my own production) has a distinctly different mindset from previous ones.。What will happen from here on?、I'm also looking forward to it myself。

Apple

「Apple」 2019 F8 Oil on canvas

About 2 months ago、I keep drawing pictures like this。I keep coming up with ideas, so、It will continue for a while。Another one titled “Seed”、He continues to draw pictures that seem to contain a muscular man inside a seed.。It's almost a similar picture、For some reason this doesn't work very well。

It looks like a modern painting、The method of drawing purposely adopts the method of classical painting.。In other words、Grisaille (drawing only black and white tones of light and shade)、Next, it is a painting method that deepens the color by alternating layers of glassi (thin layers of transparent color) and white.。Whether it's a modern painting or a classical painting.、I think this method is the best for expressing deep and rich colors.。

I have my own ideal image of painting.。Having something like that itself、Setting aside the criticism that it limits painting.、Many painters work hard every day to realize their own ideals.、I think。That's fine up to that point。But、in my ideal image、Contains divisive contradictions within itself、That has been tormenting me for the past 20 years.。

for now、There is no way to integrate the contradictions.、Production is possible only by ``choosing not to look at either side'' of contradictions.。Aiming to balance both、Due to my experience of being severely depressed for a while。Most recently、it's not a contradiction、Shouldn't we think of them as two completely different "ideals of their own"?、I also think that。Is it something like the equator and the north and south poles?。If so、There is no point in integrating it。

hide-and-seek

Do children today play tag or hide-and-seek?。I haven't looked into it in particular.、The relationship between such children、A safe and unknown place (from an adult's point of view, it's not very friendly)、Mysterious enough for children) may have disappeared.、make a wild imagination。

every day of my childhood、Every day was spent playing like that.。There were many children too、There was plenty of vacant land、There were almost countless safe and unknown hiding places.。I tried hiding in the grass, but、When I looked around, I was surprised to see butterfly pupae all over the place.、My brother fell asleep in a hidden place.、I also remember how he never came out and made a big fuss.。

It's not hide and seek、Twice they sent out search parties to look for me.。Once, probably during the winter of my second year of junior high school.。While setting a rabbit trap、When I went to a mountain far away where there was a ranch.。Standing near the top with a great view、I could see snow clouds developing in the distance and approaching us.。I didn't have a watch or anything、I think it was already past 3pm.。

My intuition told me it was going to snow, and I immediately skied down the slope.、I made my way home at once.。I regretted for a moment that I had come too far, but、There's no time to be lazy。

From home to there、Even in summer, it usually takes more than 3 hours to walk.。On the way down、Even though I'm wearing skis、It wasn't long before the snow clouds caught up with me.。It started snowing before we were halfway there、It started to get darker because of that.。Gradually it became a blizzard、Eventually, I started to lose track of where I was walking and how I was walking.。

It's getting darker around here、The snowstorm is starting to get stronger、i was pretty anxious。The moment when the blizzard ran out of breath、I could see (or so I thought) a glimpse of the light of a mercury lamp in the distance.。Since I started following the sure path home、I met Light, a search team commissioned by my worried parents.。I got home around 8pm while being scolded by them.。The snowstorm was about to stop、It was already midnight around my house, which was far away from the village.。My father just said, ``Hurry up and eat!''。I realized for the first time that I had lost my goggles and woolen head cap along the way.。