Category: Art

Squis

Amazonica Esquis

5th day after the Blue Seagull art exhibition ended。It feels like about a year has already passed.、Contrary to my feelings、Video production for the exhibition is not progressing as expected.、I can't quickly switch my mind and move on to the next task.。I don't like this kind of thing.。

It was two years ago that I bought a potted plant called Amazonica. From the name、I was drawn to the wildness of the tropical jungle and sketched it many times.、1I haven't been able to turn it into a work yet.。This guy after the blue seagull exhibition、I decided to make it a new hero following the grove of begonias.。

Amazonica has a simple shape、It's very easy to sketch、When it comes to “drawing”、Its simplicity becomes a hindrance。The design is so interesting、This is because it is difficult to overlay spiritual depth on top of that.。In other words、Does it mean that it is difficult to adapt to Japanese sensibilities?。

What is Squis?、The work of ``organizing ideas'' before starting actual production or drawing.。I don't know the origin of the word, but it's probably Greek.。In this draft、The shape of Amazonica remains the same。Color is based on green and saturation、2-3 types with different brightness。I'm thinking of using white as an accent.。This “white” is not just a blank space.、I want to express it properly and meaningfully.。3The placement of the different types of greens is intuitive.、It is important to “straddle the line”。I want to post the prototype on this blog in a few days.。

picture of life

O's work "Infinity" 2021 F30 Acrylic

The first day of the Blue Seagull Exhibition、The sad news quietly reached me at the venue.。

5afternoon the day before、much later than the scheduled time、Her painting was delivered to the art class on the second floor of the community center.。But the person is not there。When I asked, they said they were coming to the first floor.。The person who brought the painting was a staff member at the community center.。I'm wondering why、The person muttered something about the wheelchair.。Who's in a wheelchair? While I was thinking that, the person in question came.。“The stairs are so steep” that I can’t climb them.、It's late。I have a bad heart。breathing on your shoulder。

Why do you force yourself to bring it at a time like this?、I have to rest、I said,、I really wanted you to see it、say。When the picture arrived、At first glance I thought it was her best painting ever.、I told you so。He pointed out small points that could not even be called shortcomings, saying, ``If I had to make a few corrections, this would be it.''。But、You don't have to do it now、First of all, I have to take care of my body and rest.、I added、I never thought that would be our last conversation.。

When thinking about the placement plan of the work、I decided to put her picture in a prominent place.。Of course, it was a picture that stood out everywhere, but、To my friends who are drawing with the same worries.、You can draw freely like this.、This is because I wanted to send a message through her paintings.。in a sense、She took care of some of my current problems with my paintings.。Relationship between lines and surfaces、The problem of formability, the relationship between them and color.。And it is said that it is connected to the ``individual author''.、completely different dimension、However, the pursuit of issues that are inevitable for art、She was working toward the same goal as me.。maybe、I think she felt that way too.。It would have been fun in a way、It must have been quite tough.。And、He came up with a great answer one step ahead of me.。

Too bad is not enough word。As time passes, the sense of loss becomes deeper and deeper.、Even though I think so, about half of it、I still can't shake the feeling that something must have been wrong.。next picture、I wanted you to show me the next picture as well.。She also reads this blog a lot.、He sometimes asked me what he thought.。while listening to it、Write something related in your next blog、I have posted pictures related to it several times.。Looking at the picture、Including such small details.、I feel like her whole life is written there.。

The strength of “not meeting expectations”

This beauty is not for anyone to see.

Considerable effort is required to “meet expectations”。People around him praised his efforts.、If you are lucky enough to achieve results, you will have a bright life.。That's society's rules.、We have been taught these words before we even knew them.。People who don't live up to expectations are branded as bad people.、pushed to the bottom in society、In some cases, it is conveniently excluded。Not being able to meet expectations is a kind of fear。that's why、The intention of “not meeting expectations”、In a sense, it takes more mental strength than “meeting expectations”。

Paralympic medalists and others say things like, ``Anyone can make miracles happen if they don't give up,'' and ``Anyone can become who they want to be if they try.''、Not only people in similar situations、In the sense of giving hope to a wide range of young people、Has social “utility”。Their words must of course come from the heart.。But that statement、It is exalted as a ``moral effect'' that shows ``the importance of making efforts,'' separate from the real intention.、be used。They also mean what they say、I understand the effect。However, we must not forget that they are a kind of elite who were able to meet expectations.。far more people、I realize that we are not even blessed with an environment that allows us to make such efforts.、we know。The social perception that ``it is natural to make efforts'' is also a kind of pressure and coercion.。Those who find it psychologically painful、Isn't it a rather normal feeling?。

on the other hand、An artist is、These are people who have made it clear that they do not want to live up to expectations.。The very fact that art is expected to do something is contradictory.。In a broader sense, artists are also people who have chosen a lifestyle that can be said to be challenging to society.。Artists are not praised in their essential aspects.、When something happens, the first person to be oppressed by the political and social system is、Probably for that reason。Challenging does not mean "anti-social"。In fact, it's quite the opposite、There are many things that should be called "advanced"。Contrary to the economic society where companies are constantly seeking technological innovation and other changes.、Society at the daily level hates change itself.、It is often said that。People who are not good at computers、That's why we unconsciously tend to hate people who are good at it.。So stay warm、Becoming different from ourselves who can be satisfied in one place、Trying to stop this trend by labeling it as "anti-social"。When we old people frown and ask, “What about today’s young people?”、Maybe that kind of psychology is at work.、It is not wrong to think that。

Expectations are what is expected of someone。It's not a waste to think about who that "someone" is.。Artists don't want anyone to expect anything from them.。This is because there is a danger of accidentally trying to become someone other than yourself.。Effort can improve people, but、There is also the possibility of wearing yourself down needlessly.、It's a double-edged sword。To be honest、Efforts to meet the expectations of others are futile for everyone.、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。Being free to do what you like、I believe that it will liberate even those who are crushed under such pressure.。No one expects anything from me、Ignore the expectations、Do what you want to the best of your ability。I still don't have that "strong will"。