Sorrow

          groundWatercolor around 2010?

"Blue Seagull Painting Exhibition" by "Blue Seagull Painting School" starts on September 14th (until September 19th)。In order to prepare for that、While moving materials around,、I opened my sketchbook and found this picture on the first page.。Suddenly, the scene from that moment appears before my eyes.。

I haven't seen it in years、This is the municipal baseball field in Iwatsuki, which is now Saitama City.。With the people at Iwatsuki's painting class、A photo taken when I sketched outdoors in the park where this baseball stadium is located.。It feels like just a few years ago、including me、I remember everyone being young。Who was drawing what kind of picture?、I remember approximately。

It was autumn。I've held sketch sessions here several times.、All I drew was my memory of autumn.。I guess it's just that I didn't go out on a bad day.、Ginkgo leaves shine brightly、I drew this while kicking away the leaves that were piling up deep at my feet.。In such a lively and active environment、I suddenly felt a feeling of sadness。That's how this structure turned out。

listen carefully


         Apple and a book    2021 tempera

Although this work is tentatively completed,、It may be unfinished、This is a picture of that feeling.。Book (the part that looks like a double-page spread at the top of the screen)。(It may not look like a book)、At first I was planning to fill it with white to some extent, but、come this far、Isn't it okay to leave this "unfinished state" as "completed"?、That's what I felt like。

``Drawing too much'' is a common thing for me.。especially when you don't have time。Don't you want to seem shallow because of time?、I sometimes end up drawing more than usual.。If you have time, you can pause as many times as you like to refresh your mind.。While drinking coffee etc.、You can look at it many times from a sufficient distance.。Don't rush to draw。

But、Isn't it too simple?。dark green、One of my goals is to draw with similar saturation only.、Simplicity is also the result.、More than just a picture、Still, I want something that appeals to my heart.。In this picture, it would be nice to have it on a large plane of Virijan (blue-green).。

I'll leave it alone for a while。If there is something important、Something is calling out to me from the other side.。Listen carefully so you don't miss or mishear.、Is it a picture that you can quietly look at while waiting?。

failed currently

Apple by a book (ongoing)

variations

Today is a complete change from yesterday、Everything I do is against me。Even if you make tempera medium、30Turn it over in less than a minute、I spilled half of it。There were a lot of other useless movements.。On days like this, it would be better to just call it quits and do something else.、I can't put down my pen because I feel like something will happen soon.。Poor switching type。

Above is a continuation of yesterday。I feel like I'm walking along the ridgeline of a thin ridge, staggering as if I'm about to fall.。Both right and left are heading straight to the bottom of the valley.、I can't go straight。Will you be able to get through it?、half is luck、Half of it is a calm decision。for now、Take a step back、Apparently they decided to focus on the experience of grouping things together using similar colors.。

3 variations happening at the same time。Red in the picture on the right、I was planning to use yellow effectively.、The smell of explanations came to my nose.。It's good to have variations so you can compare each other as you progress.。

don't be afraid of failure。In the picture, even if you fall to the bottom of a valley, you won't die.。It's a waste of time、That's what drawing is all about.、tell yourself。