Category: 生活

A person who is “even” is “cool” to me.。Since I was very young、I was aware that I was a person who was prone to panic.。And it hasn't changed even after decades。

in the human world、I'm definitely a timid person。I don't remember having any courage.、Even if you go in a group, the third row is the best.。Of course the person waving the flag at the front is cool, but、What I thought was cooler than that was the person standing at the front without a flag.。

Leadership for me、always at the top、Even though I have taken on all the responsibility, I am still ``still calm.''、that's the opposite of me。Even if it's natural to admire such a person,、Just longing for it、Not wanting to be that kind of person is probably ``cowardly.''。Me as a child、My mother laughed and said I was “scared”.。I was embarrassed, but it can't be helped because it's true.、I don't remember daring to object.。

Is it because I'm getting older?、The meaning of “dandan” has become unrelated to leadership.、It has become literally “dandan”。Is it because I have come to realize that “living a peaceful life” is actually surprisingly difficult?。Recently, I have started to prepare a little more (in advance) than before.。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、If I didn't do that, I wouldn't be able to do anything.。Everything used to be “haphazard”。Some people mistake that for youth.、The reality is、imagine the future、prepare for it、I just didn't have the sense or ability to prepare.。Looking back、I feel like it wasn't just luck that I was able to come here safely until now.。In today's rapidly changing world,、It is impossible to overcome everything based on such coincidences alone.、Maybe it's because I've finally stepped on the path that so many people have taken.。

Even a ridiculously simple image like this、I'm done with everything I've done、It took hours to draw。called illustrator、It's an app that everyone knows by name.。I have already uploaded Illustrator images several times on this blog.、This image is by far the most ridiculous.。For example, the DM design for the blue seagull exhibition.、Actually, it was drawn using the same illustrator.。

Official tutorial for this app、I drew it by imitating step 1 of the introduction.。I've been using Illustrator for over 20 years.、Use another app when drawing、This one is only for layout。I only used it a few times a year、In the back of my mind, I thought, ``If only I could master this thing.、I thought, ``Maybe I can do something more interesting.''。Is that because of Corona? I went back to being a complete beginner.。

This has a shape tool.、A simple shape like this、Used for simple painting, etc.。When you look at a picture of an expert、How to use this simple shape with terrifying skill、On the contrary, it can be seen that this simplicity is used as a weapon.。—I understand, but、I didn't feel like doing it - it was difficult、It's a hassle、Considering the time it takes to remember it、I thought it was very impossible。Even now, my opinion hasn't changed at all.、For some reason I took the step、The temptation that burrowed into my mind was, “If only I could master this...”、Maybe it's because my brain has already been infected by the coronavirus.。

At this rate, it wouldn't be surprising if I gave up at any time.。'Cause I feel like I've become an idiot、It's really hard - it's not fun at all。But、That's what studying is all about.、I mean, I only have donkey-like endurance like a human.。I can't do math at all (even now)、I have a dream that if I understood mathematics, I would see the world differently.。I can't challenge mathematics anymore.、I'm thinking of holding out just a little longer.。

"Arrogant" is "an air of conceit" or "an attitude that looks down on others."。In terms of people, I'd say someone who doesn't have a nose for it.、Many people don't think that it's about them.。But in reality, you and I are both “nasty people.”、Maybe。

``I'' am extremely humble about my heart.、Unexpectedly, you whine...and honestly express your desires.。that's why、I am "honest" and "humble"、That's what I think、What's wrong with "the way you look to others"?、It seems better to think of yourself as a different person than "the way you see yourself."。

I don't fall into the category of "rich people"、Many people (in Japan) seem to think so.。Well, compared to Bill Gates or Jeff Bezos.、hey。But、I think there are about 90% of people who think they have a little more room than the house next door.。or、I think there are about 70% of people who think it's a little higher than the average for Japan as a whole (even if it doesn't match mathematically).、This is intuitive)。

I don't have enough money to buy anything I want、For the time being, I don't have any worries about my immediate life.People who feel that way are (according to my own definition) "rich" (happy?)。—It's okay if you don't bother to show us your savings passbook.。It's an emotional thing。

-but、That's the starting point of "arrogance"。Even if you actually have less money than elsewhere、Just think, ``I have something better than my neighbor.''、People easily become arrogant。yes、A small “sense of superiority” is the “seed of arrogance”。Everyone wants to have at least a small sense of superiority.、I feel like it's better for mental health as well.。—It doesn't contradict the self-affirmation of being "honest" and "humble."。(continued from this section)