Competition principle

「人形(仮)」(エスキースを試行中)

「世の中は一歩出れば全て競争だ」「だから子どもたちにもできるだけ早くからそれに対応できる力をつけさせなければいけない」と多くの人たちは考えているようだ学力しかり経済観念しかりそのために学校へ行きそのために勉強しそのために良い大学へいき良い会社に就職するそこまでの競争を勝ち抜けたことに感謝しその競争社会のために奉仕するそれが「子供たちの将来あるべき姿」だと考えているようだ

新総理大臣の「自助(自分のことは自分でやれ)」「共助(本人ができなければ家族親類等でカバーしろ)」「公助(あきらめて死ぬ覚悟くらいはさせてやる?)」に世論調査で70%近い支持を示す国だからそれに疑問を唱えたってまともに相手にもされないだろう要するに「競争を勝ち抜けば〇」と言っているわけで「なんだかんだ言っても金がなければ何もできない」という「常識」も同じ発想から来る

TVの中である小学校では「努力して以前より少しでも順位を上げるその過程頑張りを評価するのです」と校長先生がいかにも順位本位ではないというふうに胸を張るけれど3位の子が1位になれば1位の子は下がらなければならないその子は努力をしなかったという評価になるのだろうか

「その悔しさをバネにして次回は頑張れ」というなら次には今1位の人を引き摺り下ろせという意味でありこれでは単に苦しみを繰り返すばかりの地獄ではないのだろうか。And、それが本当に「本人のため」なのだろうかいつもビリになる子にどんな「肯定的評価」があり得るのだろうかそしてこれは別に子どもや特定の分野だけに限ったことではない要するに「勝ち組」以外をふるい落とすための「国民的制度」に他ならない

その「常識」はどうやら世界の隅々までというのではないらしい「競争だけが人生だ」とか「倍返し」などという言葉とは遠い国々がある世界で最も「幸福度」の高い国々だ(「世界幸福度報告国連の持続可能開発ソリューションネットワークが発行はする幸福度調査のレポート自分の幸福度を10段階で答える世論調査の平均値)国の経済力の大きさと国民の幸福度とは一致しない人を引きずりおろしてその地位を奪うその瞬間だけは幸福度が高いかもしれないがその逆の場合に幸福を感じる人はいまい競争をすべて否定するつもりなどないが勝ち負けにもっとも高い価値観を置く気持は私にはない

on second thoughts、The basics are to draw

“Apple Rain” Pen sketch colored on computer

This year I did a “mini declutter”。in the heat、People are in a self-restraint mood and don't go out much anymore.、This is because I was keenly aware of how small the room was (and how many things I didn't use).、After a few days,、(I wonder why I threw it away?)。その過程で、Cheap papers that I had bought a long time ago started appearing everywhere.。

When I was little、I didn't have enough paper to doodle on.。arithmetic、The Japanese notes are far from the surroundings.、Back cover、The final phrase is the graffiti on the main body part.、I could see something from the class in that gap.。Draw between the lines of textbooks、I also drew it on my classmate's notebook.、I also drew on the back of the paper during the test.。Sometimes my mother would go around to get paper from the neighbors' houses that we would otherwise throw away.。

that's why、Throwing away paper that has nothing written on it、I feel quite guilty。Author of "Koya Sei"、Kyoka Izumi、Throwing away things that have letters written on them、I hated whatever it was.、I remember reading that somewhere.、It may be presumptuous to compare, but I remember that it resonated with me deeply.。

This is why、I was planning to draw something and then throw it away.、sketch on those papers、I started drawing croquis。Then、One bottle、Every time I drew a line, I felt like something was awakening.。

It's not enough just to draw it.。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、this is another kind of disease、It's an addiction or something I already have.、I felt that。If I don't draw, I'll die、Drawing is the only medicine that works、I think again。"If you take the poison, go to the plate."。I can't let go of medicine until the end。

Let's start something new

「 Apple 2020」  2020 Tempera,Aqyla on canvas

"Blue seagull exhibition" will be held on the 20th、Successfully completed (?) under the coronavirus。I have put up an unfinished work for sale.、Although it is late, I will be exhibiting the completed work here (although not much has changed).。

Personally、I have been working on works that can be called the "Apple" series for a long time.。There is no such thing as this being a single result.、It's about time to sort out the trial and error so far.、Aiming for a comprehensive work、I was thinking about this work before and after.。

I think we will have many opportunities to see works like this throughout this year.、We are already trying to integrate some small items, so、Those prototypes、I'm sure there will be more failed works in the future.。Expectations? please。

I will return to the blue seagull exhibition.、This time too, I felt the importance of “failing”.。Are all the works that were found “interesting” “on a fine line between failure”?、There were many works where ``there is an interesting attempt in failure'' and ``you don't even realize it's a failure.''。The openness to admit some (or a few) failures、Self-centered curiosity is the ``cause of failure''、In that sense、Failure is what it is、I believe that this is the origin of one's individuality.。

All masterpieces in the history of painting、There are only ``big failures'' before ``previous masterpieces''。The history of painting is itself a history of failure.。baroque paintings、今でこそ絵画の黄金時代と呼ばれていますが、The word "baroque" itself、「野蛮な」「奇妙な」という意味を持つ語です当時は「変な絵だなー」と思われていたのです

At the "Blue Seagull Exhibition"、Let's draw more weird pictures (of course, you probably won't think of them as weird)。Let's draw a new picture。But、What is “new”?。For me, it's "normal"、in nature、It means "interesting"。however、Meaning "normal" and "natural"、Not on a scale determined by others、The only condition is that it is “for me”。Words seem easy, but、Achieving this is、It's never easy。

Let's use the word "elderly" with openness here.。There's not a long way to go。While saying something、I have lived patiently so far。It's too late now、If I continue to draw pictures from someone else's point of view,、Even if you die, you can't die, right? Grandchildren、He said he drew his great-grandson cute.、I'm only happy with it out of obligation.。More than that、It's not a nova explosion though、Take one more step、Wouldn't it be more fun to die with a bang? I'm sure the children too、My grandson also said, ``Grandpa.、Bachchan、I died doing what I wanted to do.。I'm jealous.''、I think I respect you.。