I wonder how much time I have。It depends on how many years you live from now on.、In reality, no one can know their own lifespan.、I don't feel like it's a waste to do the calculations.。Still、When you reach the age where you start thinking about the end、It seems like it makes you want to prepare for the “closing ceremony”。
10 years left、This is my own (simply intuitive) prediction of lifespan.。One-third of the time is spent not being able to do anything due to sleep or poor physical condition.、At least three and a half years。The net amount of time spent on work and other daily life is about 3 years? I don't have any savings, so I might need it for a longer period of time.、By then my body won't be able to move anymore、Maybe something like that。
other times、Drawing pictures (I doubt if I have the luxury of doing so)、Time to write or read books、Once in a while, I take time to enjoy a delicious cup of coffee...I've been doing that for about three years now.。So it's been 10 years。However、This "three years" is the net time.、If you want to research something、So much time that I might be able to do at least a small summary.。If it's a picture、You might be able to draw at least one picture that you really want to keep.。If I could make a picture like that、That's enough for me、I think it's okay to die just like that.。Maybe the people around you will be happy to see you off.。But、The opposite is true if you get sick.。All you have to do is cause trouble。That's all you have to be careful about。
in every sense、last chance。Even if you fail, there's nothing left to do。next month、I will be exhibiting at a group exhibition in Ginza.、As we are just reaching the 10th break,、それを最後にもう銀座や上野、六本木などへ出品することはやめるつもりです。せいぜい埼玉県内だけ。That said,、「まなじりを決して」というほどの切迫感でも悲愴感でもなく、やれるところまでやる、中途半端で終わるならそれはそれでよし、という平易な気持で残り10年に望みたいと思っています。自分の残り時間を、自分のペースで最後の消費をする、ティク・ユア・タイムと自分に言い聞かせながら。自分の時間を他の誰かに残せるわけでもないし、hey。
