I spent the morning thinking about myself in social networks.。In other words、What is the meaning of living in such a world?。for family、Although there is、Is there a meaning beyond that?。I've thought about it many times before, but、No matter how I think about it, I can't see the meaning。in short、In this network society、I don't have a place to live。
For better or worse、I'm more happy being alone。Of course, I don't really hate humans.。I can get along with just about anyone (I think I can)。But on the other hand、I don't think you will particularly suffer from loneliness even if no one wants to talk to you.。It is often said that humans cannot live alone.、If that's the case, you'll lose your place among the crowd.、How do we explain people who commit suicide?。Even if you are alone、to be among others、That's probably not the point.。no matter where、when you die, you die。That place is、Whether in the forest or in the hospital、It doesn't matter if it's "home" or not.。
My grandfather was just before his death、I desperately wanted to go home。All the family members around me were lying.、He finally died in the hospital.。My grandmother, father, and mother all died in the hospital.。Besides being more convenient for the family,、At least I understand that it doesn't mean anything to him.。And、I also thought that I should face (my own) death alone.。From now on, I have to think carefully about how to do this.。
Drawing GABAN's Black Pepper。It's been on my desk for a month already.。In the meantime, draw other things.、I just kept putting it off。What I draw is a “silver” “reflection”。How to draw “colorless” that includes subtle surrounding colors。「ポカリスエット」を描いたとき、意外に簡単だったので、それがマグレなのか確かめたい。こんなものを描いても、それがお金になるとき以外に、誰も関心など持たない。すべての「意味」など、きっとその程度の意味しかないから絵が描けるんだろう。