数年に一度くらい、やや大きな風邪を引く。どうやらそれが今回。それほど悪くならないうちに、別の薬を貰いに行くついでに、かかりつけのクリニックに行った。
火曜日午前９時、「最低２時間は待ちます」で、すぐ帰宅。少し雑用をして戻ったが、それからさらに１時間。薬局で薬を頂いて帰る頃には病状は悪化し始めていた。元気な人しか病院には行けないという、ブラック・ジョークそのまま。そのあと一直線に悪化。既に薬を貰ってきていたのが不幸中の幸い。oh yeah、その夜通夜があり、坊さんの長く、くだらなく、下手くそな話を聞かされたのも良くなかった。そのせいで数珠も無くしてしまった。百円ショップで買ったにしては結構良く見えたのに。葬儀に数珠など持っていくものじゃないと反省。
とにかくその夜から、どこか切れているのではと、思うほどの喉の痛みと咳、鼻水。熱は平熱+1.5°。やっと今朝（木曜）普通に目が覚めたが、起きてからも何となくボンヤリ。それも普通といえば普通なのかも知れないが。用事はこんもりと山になっている。出かける用事もあるが、全て後回しに。こんな日もあるなーと考えれば、これも貴重な一日。
My throat hurts since yesterday。I don't have a fever, so it seems like it's just a (common) cold.。saturday afternoon、Maybe it's because I saw something bad.。
Work in progress。Things don't quite go as planned.。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、It's going as I want、That “do what you want” itself is not good.。that's why、I have to reconsider、While I was deciding how far I should go back and think about it,、start getting stuck in a maze。
But、What I'm thinking now is, "I don't seek answers that don't have answers."。Well then、What should we do? That being said、There is no way。certainly。If there was a way to find an answer that doesn't have an answer、That's weirder。In the end it's a feeling。
What is the feeling?、everything about that person。Physical strength and energy、Knowledge, experience, and preferences、“Feeling” all together。Just do it until it feels good。Trial and error or hesitation、The words apply to many different things、Being swayed by such words won't accomplish anything.。All you have to do is do it until you think it's good.、There's no way I can do more than that。
Hurry up in the afternoon、I went to see Robert Bosisio's paintings at the Italian Cultural Institute in Kudan, Tokyo.。It was a very high quality piece of work.、There are only 4 points。There are two art books available.、Even if you watch it, 30 minutes is enough in total.。I asked if they sold art books.、"I'm just looking at it," he said curtly.。I will take my time to remember it and go home.。
When you reach the top corner of Kudanzaka, Yasukuni Shrine is right in front of you.。I've never seen it before、I took the opportunity to go in.。I'm a little surprised that there are many other young women。Even if I go inside、Do you have any lessons or something?、A group of reasonably well-dressed women were sitting together in a group.。This one is wearing short sleeves and wandering around in sweats.。It was hot yesterday。It's surprising that there are so many Chinese people.。Overseas training on “historical awareness”?
On the way home、A quick glance at the shop reveals ``Shin-chan Manju'' and ``Taro Capone Rusk'' with a portrait of Taro Aso.。I knew about it, but this was my first time seeing it in real life.。It's like poison、I feel like eating。