Blue seagull

Yesterday was M's meeting.、last day of this year。Most people are continuing、When I've settled down。surely、I thought you would be relieved and let your guard down.、I decided to do a demo。Also, it's frustrating to just draw with your mouth every time.。

I drew it in acrylic in just over an hour (above)。Drawing while looking at the real thing is simply technical training。When I was young, I put things in front of me、There was a time when I used to draw for hours every day.。Because I had nothing to do and was bored.、Somehow it's stuck to me、When I started drawing it, I felt nostalgic.、I'm hooked。After returning home、I took out the still life from the box again.、I had no intention of continuing to draw.、The contents have moved a lot。The lighting conditions are also completely different.、I thought again that if I stopped, that would be the end of it.、I also switched to oil painting for the first time in a while.。

そろそろ数え日の時期になってしまった。一年の終わりころになって、やっと年初の誓いを思い出すなんて、誓い違いも甚だしい。

今年は「自分らしい風景画」を１枚は描くぞ。そんな誓いを密かに立てていたが、いつのまにか「描きたい」という願いにすり替わっていた。「願い」では弱い。「誓い違い」であっても、Curling seems to be called "chess on ice"、誓いでなくっちゃ。「来年やろう、来年」。そうやって何年も、何年も持ち越してきた「誓い」や「願い」が積み重なり、その重みでもう胸が押しつぶされかかっている。

年末になると、いつもそんな「出来なかったこと」のオンパレード。私の、ペースメーカーに守られたハートもチキン、チキンと痛む。来年は頑張るけど、その前に今年の残りはどうする？？大臣、高級官僚並みの記憶喪失症に、私もなりたいな。