It's beautiful、A pleasant picture、Is it no good?

“Landscape with Apple” 2019

“It’s beautiful.、What a pleasant picture、Is it a bad picture? ” is sometimes asked。of course、That's not true。The person asking the question is the person who is drawing the picture.。What I think is beautiful、Draw comfortably、to teachers and friends、Being told that that's not fun、I sometimes feel doubtful when I draw。One day I finally asked。

There must be many people like that.。The conclusion has already been stated: "That's not true."。So, are those who say "that's not fun" wrong?、No such thing。it is、The perspective changes depending on the “position” of the artist or the viewer.、There seems to be an issue related to。

“Creating” means、Simply put, "to create something new"。When drawing normally、Unless you're copying someone else.、what I saw、Turn what you feel into a blank canvas、Draw as you like (even if the result is unsatisfactory)。On the other hand, ``appreciation'' first means ``watching.''、Even if I skip the pictures I don't like、Enjoy your favorite pictures slowly to your heart's content.。That is the basic attitude of appreciation.。There is no need to search for "newness" or "selfishness"。Just enjoy it as you like and it's fine.。

So、The first question might be rephrased like this。“It’s beautiful.、I saw a nice picture。I also want to draw like that、Is that no good? ”。Let's answer this time。“No.。That’s not creative work.”。It's not about whether it feels good or bad.、“Like that” is no good.。At the very least, you have to do it in your own way (although it is actually very difficult).。If it's tough, it's tough.。But a rescue boat。If you push your own way、I'm sure it'll be easy and feel good。It's not a contradiction.、maybe。

Killing moths (tea poisonous moths) will be eliminated during the winter

「Seed（種）」2019 F10 tempera on canvas

January 5th。I couldn't help but worry about it、Challenge again to find the eggs of the chad grouse。From the back of the two camellia and the sasanka leaves that were barely left after eating a lot last year、Finally found it! That too, 15。It is said that from one egg mass, about 100 larvae hatch from an average of 100、1500It is said that the nearest animal was killed in advance。Great War Results。

It's not the same as the American Trump assassination of an active Iranian general.。He slams the wasp nest、He's just a naughty little boy who doesn't even think about what happens after that。A hornet、He's just a bad guy who stabs people、A brat who only has the belief that。But、I said, "I'll support you very much."、A fool who keeps holding up a golf club、There are so many people, it's a problem。These kinds of people are hornets from all over the world、(To prevent the clam grouse from occurring) It is safe to say that he is a barbarian who thinks that the answer would be solved by uprooting a fellow camellia tree (to eliminate the occurrence of chad grouse)。

Back to the topic。If you search online, the eggs of the chad grouse are exactly like the ones you'll find.。However、In fact, it is surprisingly small (diameter 7、8(About 1 cm)、I overlook it。This branch、Even though I've seen this leaf many times、I looked back a few more times and finally found it.、That's how it feels。Even if you find a turmeric egg mass、Don't touch it with your bare hands even if you make a mistake。It is covered with poisonous hair needles。

Chad moth eggs are not easily found。But、1If you find one, the second one、3I've gotten used to the one a little bit、It's easier to find。If you think about it、Even Chadukga is a kind of "bad guy" who has survived the history of biological selection.。Eggs are the most important for the survival of the species、Easy to find、It is only because they have come up with ways to not be wiped out that they have survived to the present day.。The hidden behind the major project of "preserving seeds."、It was also a valuable time to learn that there are so many different gimmicks hidden.。

12nd month

「Apple(unfinished)” F10 Tempera 2020/1/1 start

I've been drinking a lot since the end of this year.。I've been keeping it down a lot lately.、I didn't even want to drink it every day.、Has your health improved?、I drank it every day during the day for about a week at the end of the day.。1There were times when I would empty a bottle of wine (720cc) in a day.。Drink 4-5 cans of beer (350cc) a day for the last 3 days。When the year is over、I'm kind of tired of beer。

11From mid-month to today、I can live without taking sleeping pills.。oh yeah、I was thinking about which is worse for my health, drugs or alcohol.。The very act of thinking like that、Evidence that you're crazy。But、Somehow, it's better not to take medicine.、I feel like my daytime grogginess is gone.。If you can get away with not taking medicine, try continuing a little longer.。

Because there is no classroom、I draw for about 5 to 8 hours every day.。Prototype of mostly small items。About the technique、Materials and procedures etc.、1Draw one point while thinking about various tasks.。And、Think about how this relates to past productions and future productions.。

The rest of the time is also surprisingly busy.。But it's not work、Something like a hobby (I actually have to work)。Speaking of hobbies, my current hobby is haiku.。I don't like it enough to say that I like it badly.、“Fake Haiku” created the day before the deadline。Or “belly curved haiku”。This year, I set three goals (in my heart only).、Even though it's only 2 days、I have a feeling that I won't be able to achieve it anymore。

New Year's and Yukichi's anemia also exudes a sense of life.。