bright pride

「Apple-丘の眺め」テンペラ  2004年

ポジティブ思考(嗜好かも)が多くの人の深いところに沈潜してことあるごとに顔を出しては人を痛めつけることがあるわたし自身の中にもすっかり入り込んでいて何か落ち込むようなことがあると、unintentionally、「元気出さなきゃ」なんて無理してしまう

いつもいつも明るく朗らかで何にでも前向き落ち込むこともなく周りまで明るくする人そんな太陽みたいな人がかつてのテレビや漫画の主人公だったけれどさすがに現代ではそんな間抜けた人間は主人公にはなれなくなった

子どもは大きな夢を持たなくちゃダメだ若い人は高い理想を持って世界に羽ばたかなくちゃいけないショボショボしてちっぽけな自己満足などしているようじゃ(男の)クズだなんて堂々と人前で言う恐ろしい時代があったけれどそういう時代はもう過去のものになったんだろうかそんなの余計なお世話だよって言える時代になっているんだろうか。That's not true。だってわたし自身がそう思っていた時があったし今も心のどこかにそんな気持ちが残っているのが分かる

childhood、テレビを見るたびに「どうしてアメリカ(の白)人たちはあんなに明るいんだろう」と不思議だったわたしの周りには誰もそんな人は居なかったがテレビの中では大人も子供も皆活力に満ち自由そうでそしてやたらに誰にでもキスをしていたのだった(そういえば黒人たちのキスシーンは見た記憶がない)
 あの電灯のような明るさと民主主義はどこかで繋がっているそんな気がしていたがそうではなかったあのポジティブな明るさは高慢さそのものでもあったのだウクライナ戦争とイスラエル戦争のアメリカの立ち位置がそれを示している
 負けないように強くなればいいのよケチケチしてないで金持ちになればいいのよ金持ちになれないのは努力が足りないからよそう言って影と日なたを二分してきた人々の国あの明るさに憧れてきたんだなあと今さらに思うよ

autumn

"Guru" Sports Facility - Autumn" watercolor on cotton paper、F4

It's starting to feel like autumn。monday morning、On the way to transporting the work to the gallery in Ginza, Tokyo、I could see Mt. Fuji covered in snow from the overpass.。It's already white up to the 7th station.。At that time、by the way、I remembered that there was already a report that Hokkaido was experiencing its first snow even in flat areas.。

climate warming。When I was a child、Mid-October is the first hailstorm in Aomori Prefecture.。after that、“First snow” after several hailstorms。It melts quickly though、Repeat that several times、full-scale snowfall。It turns into snow and remains until spring。

When it snows、My five senses are buzzing、I want to go outside、It's tingling。``I like'' being in a ``snowy landscape''。I also like the color of the snow。A gray-blue sky that continues to snow slowly、Snow falls from there like a shuriken、Like petals dancing、slowly、Snow falling while spinning、It's dry like powder、The snow falls when you brush it dry。They all have different colors、Do you know?

But、If you notice、This is Saitama Prefecture。Meteorologically, the seasonal changes that are clearly visible are small.、Conversely, people who are insensitive to seasonal changes may find it ``too subtle''.、It's a difficult area.。People from Saitama Prefecture、If you average your ability to discern differences in the "subtle" nuances of the seasons,、No. 1 in Japan、No, it might be "the best in the world"。Saitama's "subtle" "autumn → winter"。OK? —I'm planning to go to Ginza tomorrow.。

13friday of the day

"Umino Sora" (study) 2001

Today is Friday the 13th。It seems to be an unlucky day in Christian countries.、In Jewish Israel, it probably doesn't matter.。My heart hurts about the battle between Israel and Hamas (which wouldn't be a "battle" given the difference in equipment, etc.)。My pretty bad back pain、Thanks to the painkillers, I am gradually able to walk again.。I feel a little more relaxed、I'm looking into this fight。

in japan、Generally speaking, news reports are mostly about ``Hamas launching a unilateral attack,'' ``many casualties among Israeli civilians,'' and ``Israel has the right to retaliate.''。It is reported that the US will also provide weapons support.。Although there are reports from the perspective of Gaza.、It's a minor way of handling。

It is certain that the person who hit him was at fault.。But、why did you hit me、It is illogical not to ask why。There is always a cause/reason for the result。
It's called Gaza、Israel made it unilaterally (this report is full of “unilateral”)、The so-called "prison without a ceiling"、It is clear to everyone that there is a fundamental problem with what the world (including Japan) has accepted.。The child born there、It's like being sentenced to life imprisonment from the moment you're born.。Without being able to take a single step beyond the wall that Israel built without permission.、I have no choice but to end my life there.。
Too unreasonable、It also looks like。the situation、The international community has continued to turn a blind eye.。America acts as if it is the world's custodian of human rights.、It must be said that tolerating this is a double standard.。America condemns China's human rights violations、Turning a blind eye to America's own human rights issues。
That's probably where most of the reasons for hitting him come from.。In reality, the people of Gaza did not attack.、This is due to Hamas absorbing the dissatisfaction.、I think it's as reported that people's pent-up anger is turning into support for Hamas.。If I were born in Gaza、If you imagine that, it seems like there is a "right to hit" before the "right to retaliate".。

The causes of war are complex。It doesn't start with just one reason.。World War I was also described as the “Sarajevo shot”.、It's just a match。This was because a situation had already been established in which a fire could be lit as soon as a match was struck.、Why did that situation arise?、We have to chase many “whys”、“Second shot、3It is not possible to prevent the occurrence of。
While saying that "people's lives are important"、why pull the trigger of a gun、Or do I have no choice but to withdraw?。Honest thoughts and Tatemae。Before the power game、That human life has no meaning、It is clearly shown。