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マダガスカル・ジャスミン　水彩F6（部分）/ White flower (water colour) 2012-5

This small,Moreover, I receive comments from many people on my blog, which I only upload occasionally.。Thank you very much。I read all comments.、Some people have real names, etc.、Due to various circumstances, we do not publish most of our comments.。Lately, there have been a lot of comments especially from foreigners.。Among them are、There is also a variety of advice for actively promoting this site.。I am very grateful for your kindness.、This blog itself、The topic is not wide or deep enough to meet the interests of so many people.、myself know very well。I also don't have much time to blog.。Therefore、For the time being it will still be as small as it is now.、While continuing my carefree blog、We would like to indirectly respond to comments from those people.。

Thannk you very much for your comments to this small and indolent blog indeed. I have read all of it of course, but I haven’t been open to the public as some kind of reasons. Most of these comments are from forigners recently. You have given many useful advice to bloaden this site on the net. Although I greatly appreciate your kindness, I get understand this my blog is not wide and deep enough to meet the interest of a lot of people. And I don’t have so much time to spare. So I ‘d like to respond to you ” indirectly ” with this styled blog as it is.

The pictures posted on this blog、Except when introducing exhibitions or personal works.、All are my personal works。The above "Madagascar Jasmine" is a partial cut of watercolor No. 6 on the blog.。

I am a painter. When I paint pictures, I take many kind of paints. Some time taking acrylic, some time oil or water colour, some time tempera for example. And some time mixed together. All of paintings are by myself except the special case on this blog. This “White flowers (Madagascar jasmine )” is painted in water colour on paper. It is the part.

久しぶりに描いた　/　Got good feeling

 

Watercolor Hamanasu F4 2012 (partial)

I painted watercolor for the first time in a while.。When was the last time you drew it?、I can't remember anymore。I don't think it's at least before March 7th (Wednesday).。Then、It hasn't been a month yet、Intuitively、It's been so long since I thought it had been years ago。

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

It's too much drawn。It doesn't mean that there is a lot of surface area to paint.、without thinking、It means that the drawing is monotonous.。It probably means that the screen and sensation are out of sync.。

This is over painting, I think. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

Still, I can feel the joy of writing after a long time bubbling out on the screen.。That's a good thing。After all, I am a person who gets energized by drawing.、I felt it again。

Althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった　　　My father was dead

Mountain made of the father

my father died。2012March 13th, 8:22am。Father takes his last breath 5、6 hours ago、Trains beyond Hachinohe were suspended due to heavy snow.、I managed to reach the hospital in my brother's car.。The moment when the pulse rate on the monitor became 0、It was just me and my father in the hospital room.。

My father was dead. March 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

When I saw my father's face as soon as I arrived at the hospital、I felt that my father's death was near.、on the other hand、Since I came, I can do something、Even though the doctor had given up on me a long time ago (the doctor in charge didn't go home even though he wasn't on duty).。It was probably to announce the deathbed.)、I was thinking without any basis。In reality, my father died without being able to do anything.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Couldn't I have helped my father? I think。6 months、At least 3 months、I still think that if I devoted myself to caring for him, I might have been able to recover my father.。The reason we didn't do that was because we prioritized our own lives.。I can't help it if you say I abandoned you。my father wanted to meet me、why didn't you do that?、Maybe there was a feeling of wanting to ask。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

The dark forest under the windmill in the photo is a cedar forest planted by my father.。The final thinning was completed by my father, who loved the mountains himself.、The forest fauna, with plenty of space between each other, is、There is a clear difference from an untouched forest.。Apparently it has been a little less than 50 years since the trees were planted.。It will grow into a fine tree as time passes.。This is Hayashi where my father's heart remains.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27