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「 Apple 」 2020 P50 tempera, Arcid on canvas

One of the works exhibited at "Blue Seagull Exhibition"。The photo seems to have been taken a little before the time it was put up for sale.。Beginning of the center part、It looks like the details are still being drawn in.。Looks like I forgot to take a photo。

"How did you come to draw pictures like this?"、often asked。The person asking the question also has the feeling that ``the previous picture was better.''、It seems that there are some people who think, ``I don't understand what's so interesting about drawing pictures like this.''。I would like to say that both are "boring".、I'm sure you said it in a thoughtful way.。thank you。

Either way、I can't answer in one word, but、For the former, I said, ``I can't help it.''。I have no choice but to say, ``I don't have enough strength.''、Regarding the latter, he said, ``I would rather not understand.''、The answer was, ``Just look at it as it is.''、I have it ready for now。surely、It's fun for me too、I'm not having fun drawing it.、It can't be helped that it doesn't look like that。this is、Because it's a "problem work" for me.、I am drawing while enduring some degree of pain.。

What kind of problem is it?、Balancing ``creating works that consist only of figurative elements'' and ``incorporating thought and emotion''。“What?、Isn't that what all paintings do?''、That's exactly right。However、to myself、I can't seem to do both at the same time.。my weaker one、The result of putting effort into "modeling" which can be improved depending on study is、Speaking of its current form,、It may be easier to convince。

Apple-Blue

「 Apple – Blue 」 2020

The "Blue Seagull Society Painting Exhibition" started yesterday (20th, 16th):00to)。When loading the work onto the car for transport、I noticed it for the first time。“That’s it!、It’s not finished.”。

When I think back on it (the exhibited work was ``already finished in my head'')、Another work in front of me、I feel like I'm about to fall into the abyss、Trying to save it somehow、I was in the ICU for several days and was working hard.。

This is a picture that made me feel like I was going to fall into the abyss.。I tried everything but、It may have already fallen。Somehow、It looks like a hellscape。I added “Blue”、Because I was feeling so blue。worthless treatment、I feel like a doctor looking down on a dying patient.。

I was looking at it with disappointment、It's starting to look like a pathetic "self-portrait" to me.。1950The figure of an old-fashioned robot from the 2000s、It's a self-portrait with a crazy wind-up "brain" on it.。“No matter what I draw、I always keep in mind that “all of them are self-portraits.”、In that sense、This cannot exist anywhere other than my painting.、I'm starting to think。not very fun、The way of life and the expression of it are hugs。But、Maybe I should try drawing another one for now. The picture itself seems to say so.。"How naked you can be is the difference between authenticity and authenticity."、Was it someone's words?、I can't remember if it was my own thoughts.、More than drawing a picture like this、Maybe I'll be part of the Gagets family (for a while)...。

Blue seagull...exhibition

"Blue Seagull" 2020

To be exact, “Blue Seagull Society/Painting Exhibition”。Starts the day after tomorrow, September 15th (Tuesday)。Even at a seagull-themed meeting、There isn't even a picture of a seagull.。This is an exhibition of a painting class called "Blue Seagull Society"。What is the name of the classroom?、Named after our blog。

This year is the 7th time。It may be an inappropriate word, but、Just look at age、Art exhibitions for elderly people (excluding school-related and competitions)、Exhibitions throughout Japan、In that sense, they became similar)。What has “become” is、More than time can't be stopped、In a sense it can't be helped。But、Little by little every year、I'm glad that the level is rising。

It's a little miso、That is proof that each member is sincerely facing the painting.、It is also the result of challenging each issue.、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。of course、I'm not a professional、There are also physical problems、Asking the world about your work、It's not like you're breathing heavily.。But、just a drawing、Don't make fun of it and think it's just a play to prevent blurring.。In recent works、This is because I have started to see things that involve essential pursuits.。

The world of paintings is deep。The world that can be drawn simply with professional technique is only a part of it.、As long as it's fun, that's fine、Hedonistic? The world is also a part of it.。in any case、what we are doing、big、just a part of the deep world、Although many things are unknown、Surprisingly right next door、can't see the bottom、I saw the entrance wide open like a deep cliff.、Now it feels like the wind。I can understand the picture、This does not mean that the explanations of critics and writers can be understood in words.、Actually like that、It means more to me that I can feel the artist's breath on my skin.。And、their pictures、Little by little, I've been able to whisper things like that.、even more happy for me。