The strength of “not meeting expectations”

This beauty is not for anyone to see.

Considerable effort is required to “meet expectations”。People around him praised his efforts.、If you are lucky enough to achieve results, you will have a bright life.。That's society's rules.、We have been taught these words before we even knew them.。People who don't live up to expectations are branded as bad people.、pushed to the bottom in society、In some cases, it is conveniently excluded。Not being able to meet expectations is a kind of fear。that's why、The intention of “not meeting expectations”、In a sense, it takes more mental strength than “meeting expectations”。

Paralympic medalists and others say things like, ``Anyone can make miracles happen if they don't give up,'' and ``Anyone can become who they want to be if they try.''、Not only people in similar situations、In the sense of giving hope to a wide range of young people、Has social “utility”。Their words must of course come from the heart.。But that statement、It is exalted as a ``moral effect'' that shows ``the importance of making efforts,'' separate from the real intention.、be used。They also mean what they say、I understand the effect。However, we must not forget that they are a kind of elite who were able to meet expectations.。far more people、I realize that we are not even blessed with an environment that allows us to make such efforts.、we know。The social perception that ``it is natural to make efforts'' is also a kind of pressure and coercion.。Those who find it psychologically painful、Isn't it a rather normal feeling?。

on the other hand、An artist is、These are people who have made it clear that they do not want to live up to expectations.。The very fact that art is expected to do something is contradictory.。In a broader sense, artists are also people who have chosen a lifestyle that can be said to be challenging to society.。Artists are not praised in their essential aspects.、When something happens, the first person to be oppressed by the political and social system is、Probably for that reason。Challenging does not mean "anti-social"。In fact, it's quite the opposite、There are many things that should be called "advanced"。Contrary to the economic society where companies are constantly seeking technological innovation and other changes.、Society at the daily level hates change itself.、It is often said that。People who are not good at computers、That's why we unconsciously tend to hate people who are good at it.。So stay warm、Becoming different from ourselves who can be satisfied in one place、Trying to stop this trend by labeling it as "anti-social"。When we old people frown and ask, “What about today’s young people?”、Maybe that kind of psychology is at work.、It is not wrong to think that。

Expectations are what is expected of someone。It's not a waste to think about who that "someone" is.。Artists don't want anyone to expect anything from them.。This is because there is a danger of accidentally trying to become someone other than yourself.。Effort can improve people, but、There is also the possibility of wearing yourself down needlessly.、It's a double-edged sword。To be honest、Efforts to meet the expectations of others are futile for everyone.、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。Being free to do what you like、I believe that it will liberate even those who are crushed under such pressure.。No one expects anything from me、Ignore the expectations、Do what you want to the best of your ability。I still don't have that "strong will"。

Sorrow

          groundWatercolor around 2010?

"Blue Seagull Painting Exhibition" by "Blue Seagull Painting School" starts on September 14th (until September 19th)。In order to prepare for that、While moving materials around,、I opened my sketchbook and found this picture on the first page.。Suddenly, the scene from that moment appears before my eyes.。

I haven't seen it in years、This is the municipal baseball field in Iwatsuki, which is now Saitama City.。With the people at Iwatsuki's painting class、A photo taken when I sketched outdoors in the park where this baseball stadium is located.。It feels like just a few years ago、including me、I remember everyone being young。Who was drawing what kind of picture?、I remember approximately。

It was autumn。I've held sketch sessions here several times.、All I drew was my memory of autumn.。I guess it's just that I didn't go out on a bad day.、Ginkgo leaves shine brightly、I drew this while kicking away the leaves that were piling up deep at my feet.。In such a lively and active environment、I suddenly felt a feeling of sadness。That's how this structure turned out。

listen carefully


         Apple and a book    2021 tempera

Although this work is tentatively completed,、It may be unfinished、This is a picture of that feeling.。Book (the part that looks like a double-page spread at the top of the screen)。(It may not look like a book)、At first I was planning to fill it with white to some extent, but、come this far、Isn't it okay to leave this "unfinished state" as "completed"?、That's what I felt like。

``Drawing too much'' is a common thing for me.。especially when you don't have time。Don't you want to seem shallow because of time?、I sometimes end up drawing more than usual.。If you have time, you can pause as many times as you like to refresh your mind.。While drinking coffee etc.、You can look at it many times from a sufficient distance.。Don't rush to draw。

But、Isn't it too simple?。dark green、One of my goals is to draw with similar saturation only.、Simplicity is also the result.、More than just a picture、Still, I want something that appeals to my heart.。In this picture, it would be nice to have it on a large plane of Virijan (blue-green).。

I'll leave it alone for a while。If there is something important、Something is calling out to me from the other side.。Listen carefully so you don't miss or mishear.、Is it a picture that you can quietly look at while waiting?。