ability

"Dendrobium" watercolor

I've lost a lot of abilities lately.、It's like a catchphrase.、I started writing.。actual、Because I started to feel that way、What is actually human ability?、It seems that it cannot be compared so easily.。

Of course, it is not possible to simply compare the differences in abilities between humans and other animals.。Although he prides himself on ranking himself at the top, calling himself a ``primate,''、Items to be compared、Only from a human perspective。Only things that are easy to compare from a human perspective、invisible to humans。Even among those people、specific abilities、For example, learning ability (although this term is ambiguous)、Athletic ability、etc,etc.It was popular for a while.、○○ power is also like that.。that's why、Actually, there's no need for me to be so depressed either.。

live by the seaside、It's called lugworm、There are creatures that are at most ten centimeters long.。If you think of a centipede on the shore, the image is similar.。I catch it and use it as bait.、To this lugworm、I've been bitten hard enough to draw blood.。
I was surprised and looked at the mouth part.、They have small but impressive fangs。that's why、“If you catch it, immediately cut off its head with scissors.”、I vaguely remembered the meaning of the teachings、That's when I understood for the first time。And I can't even hold on to this guy.。No matter how hard I hold it、It feels like a subring or coil made of steel.、Push away the jerky fingers、It slips out from between my fingers。The crevices of mussels (small shellfish similar to mussels) growing densely on rocks? It's so easy to sneak into、The ability of humans to close their fingers is not an issue.。

Such an amazing ability、There is no point in evaluating it from a human perspective.。humans run、Because I can swim、I just compared it to a cheetah、I sometimes compare it to dolphins.、For example, with terrifying abilities like the lugworm.、Human imagination can't keep up。Squid or octopus?、Expanding or contracting the pigment on the body surface、Many people know that they can change their body color, but、There is also no point in evaluating it using a human scale.。Simply、I can only say it's amazing。The earth is full of such creatures.。
that's why、Maybe we don't have to look down on us old people so much.。Maybe、Even if it's blurry、If you change your perspective、Maybe it's a skill that has been successfully acquired.。Pretending to be kind to socially disadvantaged people、Plans to force eviction for good health、enterprise、There is a need to be content with one-sided evaluations from a policy perspective, etc.、Maybe not.。

I finally have to draw a picture

"Dendrobium" watercolor

I finally have to draw a picture。義務ではない仕事でもない。as my life、I have to draw a picture to summarize.。

I've been drawing a lot of pictures so far.、I'm still drawing it though.、For some reason, I don't feel like I painted my own picture.。If it stays like this、without drawing a picture of myself、It's that worldly thing.、I've gotten used to thinking about things like this.。Fujimi myself (Fujimi x、I, who believed that I was immortal,、That's right。

Well then、What were your previous paintings? That means。It will be “quite a little miso”.、Until now、I'm sure it's not like I've been drawing "other people's pictures."、Even if I look at my own work now、I think that my worldview is reflected in my paintings to some extent (I guess this is called ``smugness'').。But、Something's missing。
I want to draw a good picture、This is different from。There are times when I think I have drawn a ``good picture.''、This is when I am drawing the worst picture.、What is that?、Because I have experienced it deeply in my life so far.、I have already graduated from that dimension.。What I wish for is、Maybe it's the guy who says, ``I had a world like this too'' or ``I can't live like this anymore.''。

It's like a historical drama that he dies immediately after drawing it.、Because he's from the past.、Please take that seriously、``If this person had lived a few more years,、I could have drawn a more interesting picture."、I want to die painting a picture that makes me want to imagine it.。differently、I don't want that kind of evaluation.。My desire to draw pictures that make me feel that way、This is the one I want to take with me to the afterlife.。

"Enjoying pictures" -2

"Great turtle tree" watercolor F6

In modern times、Just write a few simple sentences、The software will draw an “original” picture for you.。If you want to sell、you can also sell it。There is no shortage of platforms to sell it.。the person you want、With people who just look at it、At least in appearance、Just like oil paintings and watercolors、I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、You can share the fun more easily。

In terms of "fun to watch"、buy ukiyo-e prints、Edo people enjoyed pasting them on sliding doors and folding screens.、There was a long line in front of the museum.、Some people clutched their tickets to see the masterpieces.、Some people share pictures drawn with AI by chatting with many people while lying in bed.、Each person can “enjoy” in a way that suits them (whether there are options or not).、There may be no difference in that.。

The pictures drawn by AI are created based on "statistics".、It is clear in theory。Paintings made with a brush are based on "sensation"。What is based on、Curling seems to be called "chess on ice"、They look different, like water and oil, but、Sensation is connected to experience、Experience also seems to be (loosely) related to statistics.。Even in each statistical image data、It probably reflects personal feelings and experiences.、more than I feel、It may actually be close。AI in an extremely short period of time、It is also starting to be easily accepted by society.、Is that what it is?。

But、at least i、Unable to share the “joy of drawing” with AI。If you think about the reason carefully、Maybe it's because AI "doesn't have the pain (of birth)"、It occurred to me。Even though we're talking about sharing "fun"、It may be a contradiction to bring up the idea of ​​sharing “suffering”, but、It is an inseparable part of the "joy of drawing"、it's definitely there。Even for people just looking、I can imagine the author's suffering.、have some experience。It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.、より深い共感が生まれていたそんな気がします