4 months of Corona

"Dahlia" watercolor f10

Started on March 14th、video editing。Finally finished the 12th episode today (July 15th)。It took exactly 4 months。During this time、Since my first video production experience、Uploaded 18 videos。

4 months、Average of about 10 hours every day、I feel like I spent most of my time glued to my computer.。Just listen to the news on the radio。Thanks to this, I may have been able to avoid becoming more “corona-headed” than necessary.。Self-restraint police appear, etc.、Isn't the world going to become only Corona-centric?、I felt like that was more scary than the coronavirus (actually, I still am)。

I feel the fear of George Orwell's ``1984'' again.。Pretending to prevent infection、The government is distributing an app that tells you if you are a "close contact" based on your behavior history。In the first place, "contact" is different from the case of bacteria.、Low possibility of infection。The most likely infection is through droplet inhalation.、This is 100% ineffective with masks.、This is the almost unanimous view of scholars.。Abenomask's ability to protect against viruses、Of course it is zero。Even if it is 1%、It is better not to have unscientific illusions such as。however、It seems certain that there is some effect in suppressing the release of droplets by oneself.、It's not a total waste。

More than 7 months have passed since the outbreak was confirmed in Wuhan.、have seen and heard these things、have experienced。Three months have passed since the state of emergency was declared.。Infections are expanding again、This time, in response to a request from the business community (who do you mean?)、The GO to campaign (nationwide travel incentive measure) will be implemented ahead of schedule.。I can only think that you are crazy。devise such policies、In the minds of those who support、vice versa、Better to inject the coronavirus、Wouldn't it be a good medicine?。

Online lesson experience

Apple in apples  2020 oil on canvas

There are many things I experienced for the first time due to the corona sickness、All are valuable、"Online lesson experience" is one of them。Not the recipient、As the side to do。

in the beginning、"It's hard、What should I do? "、Personal、Mainly technical issues。Thinking about demo production、Take a picture、Character insertion、Configure narration、Edit a video to make a single video、Deliver to students。Respond to questions from students。To make the first lesson video (23 minutes)、It took a whole 3 weeks。I had never edited a video in the first place、I had no choice but to use the software pre-installed on my computer.、I don't think it's necessarily my disgrace。After that, I got used to it、I managed to prepare for about 8 times。

However、State of emergency、Even in the metropolitan area, the cloud seems to be lifting after May 25th.。When it is lifted、Returning from online classes to traditional “face-to-face classes”、Probably。But、I took the trouble to prepare the video~、I don't think so。After all, it's more fun to do it while looking at the students' faces.、Even in the process of preparing the video、Because I didn't get much.。

I have concerns about cancellation。Some of the classes are held online.、It is not only possible, but even effective.、The fear that it will be quickly forgotten。It is possible to (partially) manage a company online.、Being able to work more efficiently without going to work, etc.、What company employees themselves noticed。It returns to the previous state by "release"。Isn't that more of a problem? Somehow、The Japanese people were under the illusion that they were at the top of the world on all cultural scales.、In fact, from an online perspective, ``we're far below other developed countries.''、``Pretend that you didn't see'' the fact that。I'm worried about them。(Infectious disease countermeasures、(The medical system for seriously injured people is another problem) Regarding ``online''、Is there no point in standing forever on the same ground as the old economists?、This is my "online experience" that made me think.。

Thoughts of "indecisiveness"

「 Yellow apple 」 2020 F120 tempera,alkyd

「思想」なんて大げさだが「早寝早起き」も立派な思想であるというから、Then、積極的な「優柔不断」はもっともっと立派かなというぐらいの気持ち最近「ネガティブ・ケィパビリティ(negative capability)」という言葉を時々耳にするネガテイブな気分に耐える力宙ぶらりんな状態を維持できる能力という意味らしいそれそれあるよね、is。

Still、素早い決断どんなことがあってもへこたれないブレない意志前を向くそんな言葉が巷ではやはりプラスイメージだ「頑張れ」という言葉ももともとは「我を張る」という意味であまり良いイメージではなかったらしいが時代の趨勢で我を張るような人が出世するようになりそれが人々の目指すものに重なってきたのだろう

But、決断が早いことと結果がいいこととは同じではない「結果が同じなら決断が早い方がいいじゃないか」という言い方をする人が結構いる「結果が同じなら」という前提を勝手に置くずるい言い方だがそもそも「同じ結果」などどうやって判定するのかそこまでの思考回路の欠落した物言いだ「どんなことがあってもへこたれない」人間というより機械ではないか?「ブレない意志」確かに隣の頑固親父も自分の誤りなど絶対に認めないブレの無さだ「前を向く」と言えば第二次大戦で日本軍は常に前ばかり向き決して後ろを見ない精神を強調した撤退を「転進」と言い換えるようなセコい考え方で何万人もの若い兵士達を犬死させたのではなかったかそれが今でもプラスイメージなのはどうしてなのだろうか

「根性」とかいう言葉が私は大嫌いだがあえて言えば「根性」を振り回す奴ほど「根性」が無いからだろうと思っている物事には「根性」などで切り抜けることのできないものが山ほどあるその原因やプロセス結果の予測などじっくりネチネチと考えなければ可能なものも可能にならないことが山ほどあるその思考プロセスの長さ緻密な思考過程に耐えられず「えいっいちかばちかだ」と一切を放棄してしまうそれはいさぎよいなどというものではなく単なるバカだそのバカさを隠すために威勢よく「根性」などと口走るのだ、I think。ある人曰く「決断できないことが人間だけにできる思考です」だそうだ。but、よくよく考えてみると少なくとも3分の1くらいは私もバカの仲間のようである