Butsumetsu

"Summer Pond" Watercolor、F6

Butsumetsu seems to mean "a day without Buddha"。Even Buddha, who is busy saving people,、I guess you need rest days just like humans.。that's why、On that day, each sentient being should protect himself/herself.、and。

i am a buddhist、isn't it。There's no Buddhist altar、I don't bother going back to my parents' house and visiting their graves just because it's Obon.。Oh dear、The closest thing to saying is that I have no religion.。But、When something bad happens, I think, ``I wonder if I'll die today.''、That's the only time it comes to mind。Yesterday was also a disaster。

Feeling bad all day、Rather, I've been thinking about it over and over again since last night.、I couldn't sleep well。After one night, today is Daan。On the other hand, if it's a big discount, I think something good might happen.、I don't usually worry about this。For me, it's cash.。

In the afternoon, I looked at the drawings of people in the classroom.、I drew a little picture myself.。look at pictures、draw。on second thoughts、There's no better change of pace than this。It's cheap。

50 I uploaded it for the first time in a day!

7Month 21st (Sun) 7:00I uploaded it to

5since month 30、50Uploaded for the first time in a day。on the way、Even though I've thought about quitting YouTube many times,、I was wavering between "What should I do if I stop?" but I managed to row.。

This video was shot on Sunday, July 7th.。Up in 2 weeks。My life cycle revolves around every two weeks.、There's nothing I can't do at this pace every time.。

Why didn't you make a video for 50 days?。Being busy was busy、Although there were some problems such as the keyboard breaking.、The real reason was that I couldn't maintain motivation.。YouTube is not without hope though.、cannot be perceived as real。While I was thinking about various things、My feeling of giving up has become stronger。
I don't even want to watch my own channel anymore、The number of views also decreased by one-third.。already、I didn't care anymore and moved further away。

I have to draw a proper picture。For that reason now、what should i do at this moment。Sea urchins seem to be doing their usual rounds.、Like a slight amount of fat on your stomach、My love for videos has returned。on a long vacation、There must be some viewers who thought the channel had been discontinued.。needed a break。

difference in level

"Sunset" Currently being edited

regain your strength、Currently editing "Sunset"。I haven't felt like making videos for a while.。In the meantime、I watched a lot of videos on other channels every day.。

I often come here because it's recommended to me.、As expected, everything is of a high standard.。I like the content of the video。attract interest、And useful?。The image is beautiful、Good tempo too。In other words, he is good at planning, filming, and editing.。Furthermore, the narrator himself is attractive.。this is a beautiful man、I don't mean beautiful、I guess you're thinking deeply、I sympathize with the fact that you are studying.、Or a personality that makes you feel admired.、I guess it's close to that。

In other words、It means that both the triple and quadruple beats are aligned.。When I see things like that、My videos are starting to look poor、I have the energy to create more and more、It's going to be lost。
but、It's true that nothing will happen even if you get disappointed.。Even studying、Even in sports, there are first steps and slumps along the way.。There are some people who don't reach their goal no matter how hard they try.。Although age does have its handicap.、It's no use thinking about it anymore。I have no choice but to think about what I can do now.。

Refresh your mood。The goal of the video is to film them、reach the editing level。Because the goal is clear、You should be able to do it if you try。But、It's not about the video that's important。video is one aspect。How can I deeply understand myself that lies deep inside?、widely、I think it would be good to make it bigger.。
Forty-five days ago, my hearing suddenly became worse and I went to see an otorhinolaryngologist.。due to my habit、It was clogged with earwax that I accidentally pushed deep into my ear.。That way、“Habits” that are pushing you into a bad place。Change at least one good habit.。Thoughts for that purpose。