waves are rising

The sea spray is expressed using CG (currently in production)

the waves are in front of me
The more you look up, the more they overlap
The wind blows from there
Another step
waves overlapped

There are no doors or windows anymore
Before you know it, you're walking towards the waves
in knee-deep water

I can't turn back now
But、I can't go on anymore
The waves are getting higher and higher
looking down at me

For the time being、i wash my hands
wash your face、ears、wash your eyes
Then I crawl into the waves

morning、This poem came to mind when I woke up, so I wrote it down.。

Jump "pointless"

sketchbook

With little time left in my life、I don't want to do something "meaningless" as much as possible = I want to do something meaningful、I was thinking。On the other hand、The idea that life originally has no meaning、Ever since I was in high school, I've always had a certain amount of space inside me.。

And、Turn on one or the other at your convenience、I turned it off and convinced myself on the spot.。That's because I thought the two ideas contradicted each other.、Actually、The older I get, the more I think that it's the same thing.。Rather than it being possible to turn on both、Rather, both should be on.、This is because I have come to understand that it is not possible to rely on one side alone.。

first、meaningless = meaningless、not、That it's a much more "active" blank space.。I need a white canvas to paint、It's easy to understand if you think about it。Another thing is that ``meaningless to someone'' is also ``meaningful to someone else.''。“It’s meaningful to everyone.”、That can't happen。Is it superstition?、Or it must be the result of some kind of brainwashing (for example, in the name of "education") (in this sense,、I believe that the merits and demerits of education should always be examined more deeply and calmly (rather than as something as small as a national level).、This is not the right place to say more than that.)。

In the place of creation、“Meaning” always starts from being denied.。Every single meaning is once denied。Not Hegel、A masterpiece is not a masterpiece。beautiful things are not beautiful。Creation can only take off from there.。“Such a thing、I wish you knew that I didn’t have to tell you.”、I feel like I might get a slight response from him in his curly Edo dialect.、It must be something like that。But、What's more important is that、We need to be even more proactive in creating more and more "meaninglessness."。live by that。To jump through a life that has been given meaning by someone、That's the only option。

be clear

marbles and apples

to something transparent、For some reason, people seem to be drawn to it.。“Jewels” may be special, but、glass is called glass、Something that seems to have been more prized than jewelry、This can be seen from the fact that the Persian glass of Nara Shosoin has been handed down to this day.。Also known as Mughal glass from the Mughal Empire, which flourished around ancient India.、It's not as transparent as modern glass, but、Also has a vague anti-transparent feel with a slightly milky white tinge.、I remember feeling an indescribable charm。

"Transparent" and "clear" are not the same thing.、There is a common image。As you connect your imagination further, the meanings of ``clear'' and ``filtered'' come closer to each other.。filtered water is beautiful、Transparent but also dangerous。Even nutrients are removed、``If the water is clean, there will be no fish.''、Blood that is almost transparent smells of danger of death.。

Something that is completely transparent should be invisible to the eye.、light is reflected there、There is refraction、It is perceived as ``transparent'' because it has a slight light color.。It leads to clarity、This also leads to the image of water that has been “filtered” over a long period of time.。The clear stream where you can see the stones at the bottom of the river soothes your soul.、It must also depend on the sense of security that comes with passing such time.。

Everything that is clear is fleeting。gets dirty easily、something valuable。I see、It's like a mirror of our hearts。This is probably deeply connected to the spirit of wanting to be pure.。You need clear eyes to see what's important.。That's right、Let's value that more。