Whereabouts of the waste

2012 watercolor salmon Hotchare of Shimokita

Hochare probably means "throw it away"。Leave it alone、I think it sounds similar to。It refers to salmon after spawning.。

Spawning is、For the salmon, it's a huge undertaking, even if it means dying.。The dilemma is that success in spawning means certain death for oneself.、Don't give salmon a second thought。That's amazing though、Before that, the degree of physical energy consumption、It must be far beyond my imagination.。

When spawning, the so-called salmon pink flesh color suddenly becomes whitish.、The meat becomes dry and lean.。The slimy skin characteristic of fish instantly disappears.。I remember hearing that when people receive a big shock, their hair can turn white overnight.、Is it close to that? And this is definitely the case with all salmon.。Of course, no one eats that kind of salmon anymore (there was a vendor who came by car to sell cheap salmon once).。I heard that my neighbor said it was cheap.、I was struck by。As expected, I'll show it to you later.、It was just enough to fool people I didn't know.)。It is eaten by river crabs and aquatic insects.。This is how the salmon body is recycled.、Even if a lot of salmon die、It doesn't pollute the river.。In other words, salmon carcasses are not garbage.。

Yesterday and today、Apparently my father was in danger several times.。I received several phone calls from my brother that made me think that today was finally over.。It seems to have stabilized by the evening.、unpredictable。

but、My brother and I are easy-going.、Today I was busy preparing to move from university.。As of today, nearly 600 of my works have been collected at the university for cleaning up.。If you include watercolors and sketches, the score will be huge.。That's enough to give me a headache、Even so, this is left over from having disposed of a considerable amount of works each time I moved.。But、Look at existing works、Is it worth keeping it further?、I can't help but feel restless。Maybe、Maybe these are already trash。

There was a book that said, ``When people die, they become garbage.''。not ash、It's a shocking title because it's called garbage (I remember reading it though)、I don't remember the contents at all)、At this point, the definition of "garbage" becomes a problem.。

Even if my father died、That's trash、I don't think。But、Not recycled like salmon、If we only pay attention to the fact that incineration involves incurring fuel costs,、Human corpses, which cannot even use thermal energy like garbage, are worse than garbage.、It can also be said that。Much less、I create pictures that aren't even worth keeping.、There may even be something even lower than that.。

Humans believe that they are the highest of all animals.、I feel like in recent years (in terms of human history) people have started to become arrogant.。Animals other than humans don't produce much garbage.、In the end, the top ranking seems to be determined by the amount of garbage produced.。Human beings cannot help but constantly create garbage in order to live.、In other words, they are the evil spirits of the earth.。

The death of salmon is refreshing.。human death、human death too、かくありたいと思う、It was a hot look。   2012/2/19 Sunday

Towards the end of the course

 

Mixed media on the sofa nude F8

The final nude production at the university ends this week.。for over ten years、Thank you to many models。I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart.。The participants also drew with great enthusiasm.。I would like to express my sincere gratitude to all of you.。Only once in a lifetime、We spent an irreplaceable time together.。

Also、I have received many requests from many people to continue receiving my guidance.、I feel grateful.。A well-organized environment like a university is difficult to obtain outside.、I think there will be some difficulties in the future from an environmental perspective.、In some respects, I also have hopes that I will be able to push forward my ideas more frankly.。

Aside from the debate about whether painting should be taught or not.、What do the participants want?、what I thought about it、I would like to briefly explain what I am going to do next.。Actually, there are parts of me that are confused and uncertain.、Even if I state it categorically here and now,、Please read this with the understanding that there are many possibilities for changes in a direction that you think would be better.。

20I taught painting classes for many years.、At first, it was all a matter of fumbling around.。I have no experience as a teacher either.、just my own、I just expressed my view of painting as is.。Speaking of which, it gives a messy impression.、A raw painter's egg is a mystery、If you look at it from the perspective of the fact that we rarely have the opportunity to seriously look at things going from side to side,、It may have provided some valuable experience.。But ok、As a lecturer, my vision is unclear.、I would have failed at first.。

Although I have not yet digested “painting techniques and knowledge”、I've tried to convey it as much as possible.。No matter what your hobby is、Each painting material is a real thing with its own physical characteristics.、If you don't take advantage of it, you will not only end up spending unnecessary effort and wasted money, but also、The result is that the work itself is reduced to a more miserable state.。Furthermore, geniuses of all ages have created、There is a risk of denying the very history of the technical accumulation of painting.。

It's a university course.、I thought it would be a bit lonely if it was just a matter of drawing well.。In fact, it's okay if you can't draw well.、Fascinated by art through learning techniques、Thoughts on those who sometimes fell victim to art.、What if we could deepen our understanding of figurative expression?、Isn't it also enriching oneself in terms of education?。That was half the purpose of my "technical guidance"。Specifically, this includes things like copying and classical techniques.。In terms of the history of painting, copying can be said to be the study of painting itself.、You are not misguided.。I still think it would have been a good idea to create a class that was all about copying.。Things like general "art history" are beyond my ability.、I intend to stay within the scope of technology.。

For all participants、It is natural to have a desire to be able to draw a little better or to be able to draw pictures that you can be proud of to others.。This is a "painting course", not an "art history" course.。We provide specific technical guidance on production.、It's natural to seek that。Assuming various cases、the easiest、I have devised various ways to do this in my own way.。Examples include ``1.2.3 step method'' (oil painting) and ``composition with emphasis on light and shade'' (watercolor).。More than half of the purpose of technical guidance is spent on this.。

But、There are probably only a few people who have achieved satisfactory results (actually everyone has leveled up)。But the results won't be able to keep up with the desired speed.)。There are varying degrees of、Minimum time needed to learn technology、has economic costs。There were times when my body couldn't keep up with what my mind could understand.。I need more time than I did when I was younger.、reality is harsh。

Our basic thinking will continue to remain the same.。I don't think that the methodology up until now is wrong.。Still, from direct technical guidance for "sketching-like drawings" to "painterly" drawings.、I would like to see them shift their focus even further than they are now.。No one can deny "sketches"。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、Paintings are not just sketches.、bigger、widely、It's something I deeply enjoy。And I think the most important thing is to be myself in that.。While maintaining independence as a painting (beyond mere smugness)、I want to be able to preserve the crystallization of each person's life in the form of a painting.、I hope it will help you with that.。

It is the result, not the premise, that allows us to say, “It doesn’t matter if it’s bad.”、i am thinking。each、Leave a masterpiece behind as proof of your life (if it's not a masterpiece, it won't survive!)。I would like to make that my goal.。   2012/2/18

 

 

 

Time capsule

122011 Begonia watercolor F6 of the month

I received an envelope from my younger brother who is at home.。ah、The example document has been created.、I casually looked at the front and saw that the address was my son's name.。What is it?

A postcard was included along with a simple letter from my brother.、What he showed me was、I wrote this when my son was in the 4th grade of elementary school.、ten years later、It was a postcard addressed to me when I was 20 years old.。I was told to write down a valid address even after 10 years.、I wrote down my parents' address.。Personally, I'm sure I'll move (rather)、The desire to do so) is also visible there.。

Even my younger brother seemed taken aback.、It seems that not only us, but also the person himself had completely forgotten about it.。The postcard had a photo printed on it when the three of us went to Nasu.。Take the picture yourself using a tripod、At school, he wrote on postcards that he printed himself using a computer.。

ten years is short。From our parents' point of view、Children only grow physically, but their insides don't seem to have grown at all.。But the kid was 10 years old when he wrote that.。A future with the same length as your life up to that point, etc.、It must be far, far away。That's true even in light of my own memories.。

At the end of the postcard, it says, ``Dad.、I wonder how your mother is doing?。I hope he's not dead.''。For children、parents are more important than the country、closer than society、He is an irreplaceable person who protects me through my blood.。Without it, we cannot build dreams for the future.。parent's misfortune、bad luck、Incompetence casts a shadow on a child's future.。for a moment、What kind of umbrella should I carry?、I searched my heart to see what kind of shadow it was casting.。

The children who lost their parents in the Great East Japan Earthquake lost even that shadow.、I think again。What does "I hope I'm not dead" mean?、It also shows that children feel this reality in their hearts.。Ten years from now, you may feel unlucky and think, ``I wish my father had been a more socially decent person.''。

Children can't choose their parents。That's why children themselves need ideals.。I don't like children who respect their parents (they don't respect them before that)。(From a child's perspective) As long as parents provide food and money, that's enough.。Using parents as a stepping stone、If you can create your own world, that's fine.。I'm thinking of leaving a time capsule for myself 10 years from now.。 2012/1/28