Yellow Apple in yellow

「Apple」 2020 Tempera on canvas

Continuing the Apple series。why do you continue、Sometimes I feel like I don't understand、Anyway, from the work in front of me、I feel like I could draw something more interesting, so I can't quit easily.。concentrate、You have to keep going all at once to the point where you say, ``I can't do this anymore.''、The experience inside me is whispering。

There is something called "getting lost"。The hardest part is when I feel anxious and wonder, ``Is it okay to do something like this?''。I don't understand what I'm doing now、It's time to。Because I'm anxious、Naturally, I also lose confidence.。But、that's important、It's definitely painful though、All kinds of worries、Take a step and think again on the spot。That's better、Unfounded self-confidence、Just move your hands without worrying about anything、It's much more legitimate than that、Maybe it's better。

Even as I continue to work on this series, I sometimes feel anxious, wondering if it's okay to do something like this.。And、no matter what people say、This is all I can do now、I changed my mind and continued again.。“What you can do now” is not a matter of ability.。If it's a drawing technique、more delicate than this、You can even do realistic things.。That's not the point、Do the best you can at the moment in a direction that makes sense to you.、It means。方向が間違っていたら? If you think about it, there is no end to it.、This is a direction that must have been explored by accumulating a lot of logic and intuition to reach this point.、I can't help it even if I'm wrong。That's the word convincing、what it means to me。

Apple is likely to continue for a while。Although it seems like one pattern、There are many things you can do with just one pattern.。The important thing now is not to listen to other people's opinions.。concentrate、Do what you want.、My intuition is whispering to me。

Is it no good to “make use of seasonal words”?

「Apple-rainbow」 2020 Arcid,oil on canvas

When you think of seasonal words, you think of haiku.。Since I started writing haiku as a hobby、I recently wrote that I held my 100th haiku meeting.。First, remember the seasonal words.、Try not to use seasonal words in one poem.、Anyway, it was all I could do to fit the 17-character format.。Halfway through, I started to feel that it would be easier if there were seasonal words.、Very recently, it is no good to have seasonal words in the first place.、Even though it's just an amateur's game,、Sometimes I find myself fascinated (in my heart) with the historical world of haiku.。

What does it mean to “make use of seasonal words”?。According to common sense at the junior high school level,、Each seasonal word has its own emotion.。For example, ``Koharu/Koharu Biyori'' means early winter (around November).、It refers to a bit of unseasonably warm weather (also a meteorological term).、That emotion is ``a small unexpectedness.''。in the season of winter、given suddenly、It feels like a small spring.”。that's why、The atmosphere is perfect when used to write about the subtleties of everyday life.。When used in this way, it is said to "make use of seasonal words" (apparently)。

that's why、Tragic scenes such as traffic accidents and anxiety、Do not use it when saying things like、That's what happens。Of course then、I have no choice but to choose words and motifs that are appropriate for the combination.、As a result, no matter who makes them, they tend to end up with similar phrases.。While matching the seasonal words and emotions perfectly、Freshness、Creating something new is no mean feat.。Not a professional haiku poet、It's natural for most people to go with what's easier.、No matter what you do, it will at most be just a piece of a pile of mediocrity.。

If you try to make up a phrase, you'll understand.、Seasonal words are very useful、And it's really well made。It's the ``best soup stock'' that instantly transforms into a haiku.。That's why 100% of people rely on it.。You can rely on me, but、You start to “see things” that way.。Even if there are no discoveries or ideas、If the combination with the motif is harmonious、I can make seemingly good phrases.。I intend to make use of seasonal words.、It becomes wrapped up in seasonal words.。That's bad。Comparing it to a picture、It ends up being a picture of “cranes on Mt. Fuji”。Isn't that bad?、complaining about the mediocre excuses。

I want to travel

「Apple trip」 2020/02/02 Oil on canvas F6

I haven't traveled in a while。“Moving” and traveling are different。It's a selfish definition、There is something extraordinary about traveling.、Go to a place where you can feel a slight difference in scenery and culture。Can't even pass。And the condition is that you must eat local food there.。Furthermore, if you stay for one night or more, the feeling of traveling will greatly increase.。

Not just a journey through real time and space.、I may no longer travel in my imagination.。Rather than being busy、I've lost my sense of adventure.、surely。My challenger spirit is dying。ah。

When I was a student、I thought I could go anywhere with just a backpack and a sleeping bag.、In fact, I was able to travel for over a month dressed like that.。I always thought that if I went, everything would be okay.、When I was traveling, I saw the destination of the train that happened to pull into the platform next to me.、I suddenly felt intrigued and jumped on a train going in the opposite direction.、I enjoyed myself even if I had some troubles.。It's not just my own little adventurous spirit.、He sees a lot of recklessness.、This is because open hearts existed not only in Japan but everywhere in the world.、I also think。Being able to feel that humanity (even if it is not necessarily warm)、Maybe it was something I couldn't do without traveling.。

Let's travel。For now, it doesn't matter whether it's reality or fantasy.、First step。Challenges require determination、For the time being, I am inflating my curiosity, which is unnecessary for me to make a decision.。try touching it。try it。I want to regain a little more sense of playfulness.、I keep thinking that。