Apple-Blue

「 Apple – Blue 」 2020

The "Blue Seagull Society Painting Exhibition" started yesterday (20th, 16th):00to)。When loading the work onto the car for transport、I noticed it for the first time。“That’s it!、It’s not finished.”。

When I think back on it (the exhibited work was ``already finished in my head'')、Another work in front of me、I feel like I'm about to fall into the abyss、Trying to save it somehow、I was in the ICU for several days and was working hard.。

This is a picture that made me feel like I was going to fall into the abyss.。I tried everything but、It may have already fallen。Somehow、It looks like a hellscape。I added “Blue”、Because I was feeling so blue。worthless treatment、I feel like a doctor looking down on a dying patient.。

I was looking at it with disappointment、It's starting to look like a pathetic "self-portrait" to me.。1950The figure of an old-fashioned robot from the 2000s、It's a self-portrait with a crazy wind-up "brain" on it.。“No matter what I draw、I always keep in mind that “all of them are self-portraits.”、In that sense、This cannot exist anywhere other than my painting.、I'm starting to think。not very fun、The way of life and the expression of it are hugs。But、Maybe I should try drawing another one for now. The picture itself seems to say so.。"How naked you can be is the difference between authenticity and authenticity."、Was it someone's words?、I can't remember if it was my own thoughts.、More than drawing a picture like this、Maybe I'll be part of the Gagets family (for a while)...。

Blue seagull...exhibition

"Blue Seagull" 2020

To be exact, “Blue Seagull Society/Painting Exhibition”。Starts the day after tomorrow, September 15th (Tuesday)。Even at a seagull-themed meeting、There isn't even a picture of a seagull.。This is an exhibition of a painting class called "Blue Seagull Society"。What is the name of the classroom?、Named after our blog。

This year is the 7th time。It may be an inappropriate word, but、Just look at age、Art exhibitions for elderly people (excluding school-related and competitions)、Exhibitions throughout Japan、In that sense, they became similar)。What has “become” is、More than time can't be stopped、In a sense it can't be helped。But、Little by little every year、I'm glad that the level is rising。

It's a little miso、That is proof that each member is sincerely facing the painting.、It is also the result of challenging each issue.、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。of course、I'm not a professional、There are also physical problems、Asking the world about your work、It's not like you're breathing heavily.。But、just a drawing、Don't make fun of it and think it's just a play to prevent blurring.。In recent works、This is because I have started to see things that involve essential pursuits.。

The world of paintings is deep。The world that can be drawn simply with professional technique is only a part of it.、As long as it's fun, that's fine、Hedonistic? The world is also a part of it.。in any case、what we are doing、big、just a part of the deep world、Although many things are unknown、Surprisingly right next door、can't see the bottom、I saw the entrance wide open like a deep cliff.、Now it feels like the wind。I can understand the picture、This does not mean that the explanations of critics and writers can be understood in words.、Actually like that、It means more to me that I can feel the artist's breath on my skin.。And、their pictures、Little by little, I've been able to whisper things like that.、even more happy for me。

ah、September

"Apple-3colors" (unfinished) 2020

"Ah May" "Ah、I remember seeing a poem or song called "Satsuki" somewhere.、It is the beauty of the weather in May (Satsuki).、I remember that it was an ode to the cheerful emotions that overlapped with that.。

"ah、"September" is "Oh、It’s already September (and it’s almost halfway through)” (And yet、(not doing anything)、“Ah” of self-blame.。ah。Because of Corona、Because of the heat、It's because the neighbor's dog is noisy.。

Every time I move forward with what I have to do,、I feel like my heart is shrinking one millimeter at a time。Even though the lifespan of a candle is definitely getting shorter、The neighbor's dog is barking again.。what the hell、Why is that dog barking so much?、Are all the people next door deaf?、Or maybe he's just barking at me while wearing earplugs?。And、After all, it’s September!、Is it this fucking hot?。to my house、Is someone secretly blowing hot air to harass them?。

I'm sure I'm not the only "sloth"、maybe。I'm sure there are others like me.。Are you bothered by the sounds of your neighbor's dog, cat, owl, or earthworm?、I'm sure there are some people who can't do anything.。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、I don't see people like that。At my house、Even though everyone was lying on the floor like corpses.、The people I see from the window are in this heat、Walk quickly at the same speed as usual、always seems to be doing some kind of work。And it's cool。something、It's also a special drink、Am I the only one who doesn't know that?。ah、bitter moon。October is just around the corner。My heart is shrinking rapidly。Nevertheless、For some reason my body refuses to go to work.。