Author: Takashi

Takashi's personal blog。Not just about paintings、What I think about every day、what you feel、I write whatever comes to mind。This blog is the third generation。From the beginning, it has been over 20 years.。 2023From January 1st、For now, I decided to just write on odd numbered days.。I'm going to think about my future direction and other things piece by piece.。

value of painting、the value of painting

After my mother's funeral、Some people asked me, ``What are you doing now?''。``I've always been drawing pictures.'' ``Will it sell?'' ``I don't feel like selling it now.'' ``Isn't drawing a waste then?'' ``It's fun, but...、If you can't make a living off of it, then it won't do you any good.''。

I don't feel like explaining anything.、I don't have any painting tools.、I had some free time so I decided to talk to you.。``Do you like drinking?'' ``I drink a lot.'' ``Does it make you money?'' ``Aren't you an idiot?''。``I'm sure you have to pay for alcohol.'' ``Alcohol is bad for you.'' ``That's true, but...、It also relieves stress.'' ``It's good to relieve stress, but...、That broke my body、Isn't it a waste of money?"。To say that much、Usually the other person understands my intentions.、suddenly become aggressive。

``Most of the time, art is just pretending to be noble.、"It's of no use to society." "Do you understand art?" "Is it of no use?"、How did you find out? ” “Alcohol is the body.”、It's been proven that it's especially bad for the brain."。Well, no more、Even if you are confident in your strength, don't do it.。

I believe that anything that is immediately useful is dangerous.。For example, clean air、quiet environment、That kind of thing isn't immediately useful.。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、“A machine that cleans the air” “A company that creates a quiet environment”、Such “useful things” set off an alarm inside me.。drawing a picture、looking at a picture、I think of it as something like clean air and a quiet environment.。

mother's death

my mother died。May 30th 23:57point、It's almost midnight。I stayed in the hospital alone.、I was (or was supposed to be) accompanying my mother who was breathing heavily.。

But、I'm just like a wooden monk、Just because I was next to you、I was not able to fulfill my role as an attendant.。I was under the impression that I was being monitored at the nurse center.、For some reason, I couldn't get the idea to press the button on the monitor in front of me to check.。Because it looks painful、Even if you change the position of your head and neck with the nurse,、I couldn't think of the idea of ​​looking at the monitor myself.。It's not like I didn't know how to do it.。just press the button。cardiac arrest in progress、I was told that I had stopped breathing.、For the first time, I remembered that and pressed the button.、I saw the words "Undeterminable"。

After all、When the end is near, I call my younger brother and sister.、I couldn't fulfill my role of meeting death.。Have a nurse perform detailed treatment、Let them stay safe until the morning they come、could not fulfill the role of。Why are you staying in the hospital?、lack of awareness that、In short, all I can say is that it's stupid.。

Tochinoshin

I don't care though、Sumo wrestling。Sekiwake “Tochinoshin” today (5/25)、10th win after defeating Yokozuna Kakuryu、I was able to make a comeback to Ozeki.。Tochinoshin is my favorite sumo wrestler, but I'm not happy about it at all.。Attendance、“Working” through change、not only him、ファンのプライドが泣く。栃ノ心「勝ててよかった」。そうなのか、明日からはもう栃ノ心を応援しない。