下北（といっても太平洋側）に避暑中です。今日は最高気温が20°にしかなりませんでした。涼しいというより少し寒い感じがするほど。
午前8時前から午後6時過ぎまで、ほぼ休憩無しで制作しています。締切とかに追われているわけでもないのに、うまくいかないので休むタイミングが取りづらいのです。
6時過ぎ、アトリエ（要するに実家です）からホテルに向かいます。歩いても10分ほどですが、毎回荷物があるので車で移動です。アトリエを一歩出るとホテルまで誰も歩いていません。たまに車がすれ違っても人影は全くない。車を止め、後ろを振り返って見ても無人の道が薄暗い中をまっすぐ伸びているだけ。
家の灯りもあまり見えません。人が住んでいるのか、空き家なのか。途中のコンビニだけは何台か車が駐車場にある。霧のある日など、本当にホラー映画の世界に迷い込んだ気がする。いくら本州北端でも夕方6時過ぎはまだ薄明るい。7時を過ぎればお化けが出ても不思議はないような過疎の村で、誰も住んでいない家の中で、黙々と絵を描いています。
American team won the soccer Women's World Cup。It seems to have been almost in advance of the expected。
Results that also won great、I was further impressed、Is "strength that persists in his intention" that refuse the "White House invitation" from Trump President。That's intention with respect to such discriminatory remarks so far of the President。It is exactly the intention of showing the women's team、When the thing to add a real flower in the American championship、I I thought。
Supposing the Japanese team that won、Will Kotowareru an invitation to the Prime Minister's Office from the Prime Minister。Perhaps more personal will of the players、Association and co-sponsored to us companies、Organization、Consideration to individuals、Fear for bashing from the media but is priority、Speech of the individual player and would be retracted I imagine。If I were a member of the team、I think that would would probably follow it also I。
Also bureaucracy、Some scholars、Also mass media society、Everyone pandering to power、Japan without another idea to conjecture。Even win or lose、In Japan, which is Iwasa the words of gratitude to the mid force、Athletes in power (political) space is little that can be displayed intention。This representation of the United States women's team、For granted as human beings, it is that the norm but in the world of sports、There is in the United States to be a very natural、And the view of the world that is in Japan not yet、I thought it was brilliant victory in the double meaning of the match result。
strangely、My mother's death is not "death"、just peace without suffering、The body is not a "corpse"、neither a thing nor an idol、In a sense, I felt that it was "something" that was half-hearted.。
get a death certificate、While driving home with my mother in the car from the hospital in the middle of the night、I didn't feel particularly sad (maybe it was because I was excited)。Rather、inhalation mask、Tubes and various drips、without “intervening persons (things)” such as doctors and nurses、I feel like I've finally returned to my straight family.、I talked to my mother who was wrapped in a blanket.。"I'm going home."
"Boobs" and blood、basically the same thing。Medical facts that every woman knows、Surprisingly unknown to men。But、I feel that it is a common sense perceived by all mammals.。All of us (including wild animals)、They grew up sucking their respective mothers' blood.。
I touched my mother's cheek dozens of times right before she was cremated.。Rather than cold、It feels good (thanks to the funeral service provider's "cooler")。and picked up the bones。fleeting、Imitation of pseudo-nursing care。My mother's shriveled nipples that I should have sucked、Disposing of the stool that at first did not want to be seen。my childhood、He saw everything about my childhood、brought back some bones。