Fear of “coincidence”

「Green apple」 2020.1  F10 Oil on canvas

now the world's most popular computer、Logo of Apple, an American mobile manufacturer、“A missing bite of an apple”? long before it became widespread、About 40 years ago、I drew a picture of a “missing apple”、I continue to draw occasionally but。At that time、The current company name Apple was called Macintosh.。Became an Apple company、When I first saw that logo、I felt that there were people who found similar things interesting.。It was more like sympathy、later、In case I might be accused of plagiarizing the logo,、I thought I'd leave behind proof that I was first.。

Such situations etc.、No one is supposed to know except me and a few people.、People who see this picture for the first time may think, ``What?、You might think, "It's just a picture of the Apple logo."。So、For now, I'll write it here、There should be a few more people in the know.。Although it's a little different、There are several similar experiences that are taken out of context.。One of them is、1990started in November、Kyushu、Eruption of “Unzen/Fugendake”。

1987Around the time、I had begun drawing a series of works called ``Cloud'' (the name of the series ``Cloud'' itself).、(I now see it as an example of such a coincidence.)。"morning、Climb with the sunrise、Clouds that change rapidly around the world during the day。You look tired.”。In that cloud、At least get a good night's sleep in a dark basement、The clouds rise again in the sky with sunrise.”、The idea was to comfort my favorite cloud.。Eventually in 1990、``A bright red cloud full of energy、Including DM for “Clouds rushing down the ridgeline”、I had a big solo exhibition at a department store with images of many clouds.。

Not only was it an interesting solo exhibition for me, but、The reputation was not bad either.。Immediately after the solo exhibition, the eruption of Mt. Fugendake in Unzen began.。The eruption was broadcast on all TV stations.、Continuously flowing from morning till night。And that “ultimate” large pyroclastic flow。My image of "bright red clouds cheerfully running down the ridge" is、Regardless of the time of production and the chronology of the pyroclastic flow.、Converged by the “pyroclastic flow” of the media。After that, every time I present a work、It was decided that the motif was a pyroclastic flow.。The overwhelming difference between individuals and mass media、It was my first direct experience。The power of television is great。Or rather、People feel like TV is real.、It seemed as if he believed in television itself.。

One more thing。2008In 2019, I said, ``A mighty waterfall falls from heaven.''、admonish arrogant people、“A punitive flood of cities” (in the Bible)、Noah's Ark was in my head)、1000The masterpiece “The Screaming Man” (210 x 540 cm)。Its sequel ``Tornado Man''、Next, new creatures that have "ceased being human" are referred to as "new life"、He had started a plan to create a series of masterpieces of the same size.。And in January 2011、I started drawing “The Great Flood” again.。The number of people drawn this time was over 300.。Two months later “2011、3、11” Great East Japan Earthquake。over the rock wall、While watching the TV footage of the tsunami as the sea overflowed towards the city like a waterfall.、I had the illusion that my painting had become reality.。I was unable to continue painting “The Great Flood” that year.。

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「Apple」  2019.12 F6  tempera

"Flaws"、It's kind of embarrassing、Sounds like something you want to hide。But、Apparently that's not the case.。

Have you ever gotten a perfect score on a test?。I smiled and went home、I showed it to my parents。Parents are smiling too、There are a few more side dishes.。That definitely made me want to get a perfect score next time.。

However、It's not like I ever skipped studying.、I probably won't be able to get a perfect score next time.。Even the other kids got perfect scores.、I want to see my parents' smiling faces.、This is because I would like to see more side dishes.。Even the teacher、I would be worried if everyone got a perfect score every time.。"Maybe there's something wrong with the way I created the test."。How to avoid worrying too much and committing suicide、The only option is to make the test more difficult (there is also a way not to test it)、In this country, tests make children suffer as much as possible.、I made her think that it would be better to stop studying and work instead of experiencing such pain.、Schools are run with a policy of securing a workforce.。Teachers are also civil servants、If you go against it、They risk being sent to the Strait of Hormuz with their children who are being held hostage by the state.) (Just kidding)、Just in case)。

Even children know this.、That is the breath of Aun.、Well below average score、It will be full in a little while、You did the operation.。Even the teacher didn't have to commit suicide.、I think he casually complimented me, saying things like, "That's a shame," and "You did your best this time."。A child、What is actually smarter than your parents or teachers?、Every child knows。

"Flaws" are、That's how it brings peace to those around you.。Everyone felt safer when there was a child running slower than them, right?。and be kind to the child、I should have said, "I'll practice with you."。Are you worried about being the last kid in a race? during the war、The child who comes first in a race、He was sent to a distant jungle with only a Japanese flag.、There he ran around being chased by machine guns and planes.、75Even after many years, he still hasn't come back.。

There are "flaws"、For the first time, people can see things。from what is missing、The world expands。Try to be the kind of person who gets a perfect score.。It's like having your eyes closed。I can't even see my own shadow, so I'm overbearing、Making fun of others becomes the norm。from the missing hole、look at your own shadow、It's good to go in and out of the world through that hole every once in a while.。

It's beautiful、A pleasant picture、Is it no good? 2

“Scenery with Apple-2” 2019

last time、There are some things that I can't explain.、I will supplement。Originally “beautiful”、I think we need to think about what “feels good” means.、I didn't mention it because of word count.。

To summarize the previous content in one word:、``Beautiful'' from the viewer's perspective、It feels good.”、It is not the same thing from the standpoint of expressing it.、That's what it meant。But、Many people try to draw ``beautiful and pleasant'' pictures from the viewer's perspective.。Here, the positions of the viewer and the artist are the same.。I often hear the phrase ``I want to draw pictures that can be displayed.''、I think that shows that。Even if I look back on myself、I think that's certainly the case。On the other hand, some people say, "You can draw it however you like" (me too).。Then, if you like "beautiful and pleasant pictures"、Isn't it okay to draw it that way? That means。

logically so。Also, in reality, you can draw whatever you like.、If there are a large number of people like that, it is certain that the world will become like that eventually.。that's why、When you get this far、What I said last time as if it were a general theory、Rather, it may just be my own "biased" way of thinking.。I see、If you think about it, it might be so.。I don't think that majority voting is necessarily correct.、At this point, there may be many people who believe that the perspective of the viewer and the perspective of the artist are (or should be) different.、And I think that's an important feeling.。

When you get this far、I feel like I have to question what it means to be "beautiful and feel good".。I'm in a bit of a hurry though、I think it would be good if we could distinguish between "pandering" and "natural".、I don't know how to distinguish it well (maybe the word is not appropriate)。Please point it out)。“Pandering” is a historical perspective、It may be said that "nature" is a philosophy.、It is difficult to separate clearly。A philosopher would not ignore this point.、It's a difficult problem for me。Unlike a Japanese dictionary、in front of me、It must have a meaning that is directly connected to "Mr. ○○" that will be produced soon.。With that in mind, what does "pandering" mean?、For Mr. ○○, it may be a matter of naturally ``fitting in'' to the environment in which he was raised.、Depending on how you classify it, it may simply be equated with "adaptability."。“Nature” is also、Realistically, it is impossible to be “just as you were born.”、Do you want to live in a place with a rare natural environment?、After going through a certain social trial、It may be "nature" that has reached a state of being "as you are".。individuality there、Although it is difficult to define words in detail, if you look at them from a bird's-eye view,、The general idea of ​​``beautiful and pleasant''、I wonder if some of it is pandering to the existing (natural/human) environment.、I feel this despite knowing my bias.。on the same horizon、What is natural (although in a sense it can also be said to be unnatural) is more、It is defined as one's own self (depending on others) that has removed the conformity that has been acquired in one's life.、I feel like it can only be done in words.)。

On top of that、“It’s beautiful.、Is it bad to draw a picture that feels good?、I would like to face this question again.。① “It’s beautiful.、“It feels good” is a natural feeling for beginners ② “It feels nice”、Stop and think about the meaning of “feels good” ③ If it matches your own “current/reality”、Believe in “good” and proceed without hesitation。 surely、I think I've done that too.。