Author: Takashi

Takashi's personal blog。Not just about paintings、What I think about every day、what you feel、I write whatever comes to mind。This blog is the third generation。From the beginning, it has been over 20 years.。 2023From January 1st、For now, I decided to just write on odd numbered days.。I'm going to think about my future direction and other things piece by piece.。

“What I’m looking for” – Are you still looking for something?

「Apple-jeans」　　　　 2020　 Tempera on canvas 　F6

It's not Yosui Inoue's "What are you looking for?"、Are you still looking for it?、I continue to experience the feeling of。It's not a "spiritual" search that you can't possibly find.、physical “power cable”、Should I give up on the search and buy a new one online?、Are you still looking for it?、The sad story of having two choices。

Today is an exhibition、An opening party for those involved will be held from 4 p.m.。I am also exhibiting、I was planning to go、morning、I have a slight headache from yesterday.、I thought maybe I had a cold, so I decided not to go.。And、shutter repair。couldn't do it。Then look for the cable。searching for something、In the end, you will have to clean up、For large-scale cleaning。But、not found。have lunch in the meantime、Because it was a fish、I gave some of it to the cat (who wears a collar) who sometimes comes to lie down in the garden.、Look for cables while watching them eat.。

Actually、I've been looking for it for three days now。The search range is limited (maybe that's just my imagination)、The search time per location must be considerable.。It's more careful than looking for a mole on your face.。half a year ago、From the moment I put it there、I feel like my fear of “this place might not be good” came true.。

Should I give up and buy a new one?、It's time to choose whether to continue searching.。I don't like it、Why did the shutters have to break at a time like this? Come to think of it、There were a lot of inch-sized mats left over.、I wonder why I would think of this at a time like this.。

The “power” of music、Art、The “power” of sports

"Western Pear" 29Jan’20 Watercolor F6

There is a musician named Ryuichi Sakamoto.。Even if you don't say you're a former YMO member,、Probably more people know。the other day、Read the interview article with him in Asahi Shimbun (electronic version)、I completely sympathized。

The word "power of music"、He says he doesn't like the way he says it.。encouraging people with music、It is true that it has the power to heal、He says he feels uncomfortable with that kind of way of saying things.。Although I don't say it clearly、The way you say it is kind of political.、I smell the danger of being socially oriented.、I felt that it meant。have a deep sympathy for that sense of smell。

Just as Wagner's heroic sound was exploited to the fullest by the Nazis.、Even in Japan, popular music is widely sung as ``military songs.''、Many people point out that it was used to glorify war.。Also、He also ``doesn't like'' high school students saying ``I want to impress them'' (through sports, etc.).。It's good if the recipient is impressed.、Isn't it arrogant for the performer to say "to impress"?、It is also called。I also deeply sympathize with this。Incidentally,、In particular, young athletes in sports often say the word "gratitude" over and over again.、I feel a strong sense of discomfort。Isn't that an appropriate word to use when you're retiring?。

Facilities and subsidies for athletes to compete、I feel grateful for the many tangible and intangible supports I receive.、Of course it can't be bad。But、素直な気持ちだけではない、I feel the ``pressure'' of having to say something.。without those words、I know that there will be various forms of bashing later.、This is because both players and officials feel strongly.。Unconsciously, we say, ``Because they're using our tax dollars.''、I feel that I deserve gratitude.、I realized that the pressure was on me from above.、we have to be more careful。And、I am well aware of that、There is also a dark power that is secretly used.、must be conscious at the same time、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。

power of music、power of art、power of sport。That's、People are not diverse (actually, this word has become something I don't particularly want to hear these days)、If it works in the direction of flattening (the words "empathy" and "impression" can also have a suspicious smell here)、It's real music、Art、Stripping away the power of sports、transform into something distorted、It can also be a type of cancer.。Ryuichi says, ``What I'm doing is fun in itself.''。That’s important.”。yes。just by looking at its existence、Taxes have already paid for themselves.。

A song for hundreds of people

"Western Pear" 2020、1 Watercolor・F6

10almost a year ago、started writing haiku。I wish I had something that I could call a hobby.、Because I thought。It doesn't cost much money、All I have to think about is 17 characters.、I wonder if even I, who is quite slow, can do it.、(Like many people) It was because of impure feelings.。In order not to give up too soon、I was asked to teach at a (too small) haiku meeting.。There is a haiku meeting once a month.、It was the 100th anniversary at the end of last year.。At first, I wanted to try various things.、smug、Create many phrases that are quite biased、I incurred the displeasure of the members.。

Lately, I've been feeling like I can't say much with 17 letters.。Just in case、Since it is a traditional haiku, seasonal words are included.。With this, I spend about five characters.。There are only 12 characters left、It takes about five characters to write the name of a specific thing or some description.。Convey your mood and intention with the remaining seven letters、I started to feel like there was no way I could do it.。Certainly a masterpiece、There are some ``famous haiku'' that have such depth and breadth that it is hard to believe that they are made up of only 17 characters.。But、for ordinary people like me、No matter what I do, I imitate others、It cannot help but become a simile.。

So if it's a tanka with 31 characters,、There is no need for seasonal words.、I thought I could use the whole thing for myself.、I started reading a book of modern tanka poems.。It's definitely much more interesting then。However, I have come to understand that it is more than four times as difficult to create a character with 7 characters and 31 characters.。This is a huge burden both time-wise and mentally.。On the other hand, haiku is still continuing.。This is why、Sometimes I compose tanka、If only the first 17 characters are considered a haiku,、I thought that I could kill two birds with one stone.。

I didn't think it would go that well、It was as expected。Important points even in tanka、What I want to say is the second half.。But、Then I noticed one thing。First half of tanka、I mean, it's not a big deal、That place is called a landscape or a scene.、The part that explains the “background” so to speak.。Isn't that exactly the part of ``Kacho Fugetsu''?。I see、Haiku is about completely cutting out the important parts.、Because it can't be explained in just seven letters.、I think it's a black business method that leaves the reader completely exposed.。-This is where we finally get to the “Hyakunin Isshu” poem.、How to learn the ``tricks'' of creating leisurely landscapes from the dynasty era、It is said that ``Hyakunin Isshu,'' which narrows down masterpieces from Manyo to Shinkokinshu to just 100 poems, is the quickest way to get started.、Not a hobbyist idea at all、I decided to read it.。However、I have a strong feeling that this is going to lead to a lot of problems.、I'm in trouble in a way.。