me and the computer

Speaking of the new year, “spring”。Speaking of spring, ``cherry blossoms''。Try cherry blossoms

I'm on YouTube。I'm also on Twitter、I also write a blog like this。that's why、(I am) familiar with SNS、Some people think they are good at computers、There may be some inside。if、If you think so、It's too embarrassing。
for example、Even though I'm on YouTube、I only know one way to improve myself。how to manage your channel、What kind of ingenuity did you try?、What direction are you going?、It's like I have no idea what's going on。For the time being、What can be uploaded、It feels so strange to me、Knowledge and experience (even though it's been two years)、Maybe I don't have enough ability at all.。

i hate computers。I don't even think I want to do it if I can get away with it.。But、I can't do anything without a computer、Or rather、thanks to the computer、Somehow I can survive in this society、It is no exaggeration to say。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、I hate what I hate。Probably because that kind of psychology works、It's quite a new concept、soft、For apps etc.、I can't help it easily。always backwards、cornered、The reality is that we have no choice but to start.。

but、The option of not using a computer at all is、Impossible。Computers are not only extremely useful tools;、More than just a tool、open yourself up (develop yourself)、It is also a game changer that can、It is said that、I think so too。A person who has lost a lower limb、The wheelchair I finally got、I think it's the same as not being able to let go of this means of transportation.。It's more than just a means of transportation、Because that person should have the power to change the world (maybe this example is inappropriate?)。
at the same time、The cost of losing money due to computers is also not small.。I wrote “open yourself”、On the other hand, I started to feel a lot smaller.。every day、The days when I don't curse myself and think, "Can't I do this?"、Actually not even a day。every day every day、become aware of one's own incompetence。My self-confidence is not even one-tenth of what it used to be.。in short、Before I knew about computers、“I’m not happy.”。Related、The time I have left in my life is dwindling、Also the amount of time taken up by learning how to operate software and apps.、There are things I can't stand。

Still、I am the one using the computer、If I can use it more、I think my world will expand even more.、The feeling of expectation is not zero (withering)、Swelling up、is)。No matter how generative AI develops,、Even if the world is ruled by it (if things remain as they are)、It will happen sooner or later)、There's no way it could replace me.、I think that。
 AIは、(That is、"Inference" based on data and statistics (no matter how emotional it may seem)、So to speak, it's just "within expectations"。I am flesh and blood、Everyday life = “unexpected” (exactly the same day)、(In the sense that there will never be time again)、For me (I myself) are “facts” themselves.。Although it also has the painful weakness of “aging”、What you can “feel” is the nerves、As long as it is a living body with cells,。Connecting “feeling” and “liberating and expressing yourself”。At that time、You probably won't find a better tool than a computer.。That's、This is why I don't give up my computer (for now)。

“Random” drawings/free drawings

"Decoys and barnacles facing away" watercolor 2024.01.11

It's been a while、With free motifs、I tried to draw it “appropriately”。For a while now、Watercolor for YouTube?、Only works for exhibition、I feel like I didn't draw it.。It's actually fun to ``just draw it'' like this.。

Is it natural to draw well?、It's embarrassing if you don't draw well、What do you think?、There's nothing bad about it。Not only is it not fun、It's stressful。drawing a picture is、I really want it to be “stress relief”。for many painters、It should be half the stress relief.、Half of it must be stress.。No matter what、“Must” is not good。

Divide a certain amount by the time required、"Time efficiency" per unit time appears。If you draw 3 pictures a day、1On days when I can only draw one、3It seems like it will be twice as efficient.、Even a child can understand that this is a stupid calculation.。The (value or meaning) of each picture is、each one is different、The standards and indicators to measure it are also、Because it's personal。

drawing a picture is、on second thoughts、I guess I'll go back to being a child at some point.。That is the home of the heart、Isn't it?。The world is becoming more and more difficult to live in.。More and more people are committing suicide。accident、There are many disasters。Moreover, they even started wars everywhere.。drawing a picture is、It's peaceful。to be at peace。Besides,、You can be free (even for a little while)。Let’s draw a picture “appropriately”。

Today is “Shinsoku”

I'm very busy today。Even now。that's why、I'll say it very simply.。Even at the end of the day, I may have written, "Currently editing a video of a snowy scene."、、、、as usual、4~5 days late。It seems common sense that one video per week is the minimum.、2Until this year,、I've only been able to do it once (I'm sure) (lol)。What should I do?。

The two photos above are from cuts being edited.。The pictures aren't that big of a deal either.、I have a hard time with the narration every time.、I'm trying to figure it out somehow、✕ (crying x 2)。In the report that、Today is the end。