me and the computer

Speaking of the new year, “spring”。Speaking of spring, ``cherry blossoms''。Try cherry blossoms

I'm on YouTube。I'm also on Twitter、I also write a blog like this。that's why、(I am) familiar with SNS、Some people think they are good at computers、There may be some inside。if、If you think so、It's too embarrassing。
for example、Even though I'm on YouTube、I only know one way to improve myself。how to manage your channel、What kind of ingenuity did you try?、What direction are you going?、It's like I have no idea what's going on。For the time being、What can be uploaded、It feels so strange to me、Knowledge and experience (even though it's been two years)、Maybe I don't have enough ability at all.。

i hate computers。I don't even think I want to do it if I can get away with it.。But、I can't do anything without a computer、Or rather、thanks to the computer、Somehow I can survive in this society、It is no exaggeration to say。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、I hate what I hate。Probably because that kind of psychology works、It's quite a new concept、soft、For apps etc.、I can't help it easily。always backwards、cornered、The reality is that we have no choice but to start.。

but、The option of not using a computer at all is、Impossible。Computers are not only extremely useful tools;、More than just a tool、open yourself up (develop yourself)、It is also a game changer that can、It is said that、I think so too。A person who has lost a lower limb、The wheelchair I finally got、I think it's the same as not being able to let go of this means of transportation.。It's more than just a means of transportation、Because that person should have the power to change the world (maybe this example is inappropriate?)。
at the same time、The cost of losing money due to computers is also not small.。I wrote “open yourself”、On the other hand, I started to feel a lot smaller.。every day、The days when I don't curse myself and think, "Can't I do this?"、Actually not even a day。every day every day、become aware of one's own incompetence。My self-confidence is not even one-tenth of what it used to be.。in short、Before I knew about computers、“I’m not happy.”。Related、The time I have left in my life is dwindling、Also the amount of time taken up by learning how to operate software and apps.、There are things I can't stand。

Still、I am the one using the computer、If I can use it more、I think my world will expand even more.、The feeling of expectation is not zero (withering)、Swelling up、is)。No matter how generative AI develops,、Even if the world is ruled by it (if things remain as they are)、It will happen sooner or later)、There's no way it could replace me.、I think that。
 AIは、(That is、"Inference" based on data and statistics (no matter how emotional it may seem)、So to speak, it's just "within expectations"。I am flesh and blood、Everyday life = “unexpected” (exactly the same day)、(In the sense that there will never be time again)、For me (I myself) are “facts” themselves.。Although it also has the painful weakness of “aging”、What you can “feel” is the nerves、As long as it is a living body with cells,。Connecting “feeling” and “liberating and expressing yourself”。At that time、You probably won't find a better tool than a computer.。That's、This is why I don't give up my computer (for now)。

“Random” drawings/free drawings

「向こう向きのデコイとフジツボ」水彩 2024.01.11

It's been a while、自由なモチーフで“適当に” 描いてみた。For a while now、YouTube用の水彩か出品用の作品しか描いていなかったような気がするこういう「描いてみただけ」というのが本当は楽しいんだよね

うまく描いて当たり前とかうまく描かないと恥ずかしいなんて思いこんでいるとろくなことはない楽しくないどころかストレスだ。drawing a picture is、本当は「ストレス解消」であってほしい多くの画家たちにとって半分はストレス解消になっているはずだが半分はストレスにもなっているはずだなんにしても“ねばならぬ” はよくない

ある量を所要時間で割れば単位時間当たりの「時間効率」が出る一日に3枚絵を描けば、1枚しか描けない日の、3倍効率がいいことになりそうだがそれがバカバカしい計算であることは子どもでも分かる一枚一枚の絵(の価値または意味)はそれぞれに異なっていてそれを測る基準・指標もまた個人的なものだから

drawing a picture is、on second thoughts、どこかで子どもに還ることじゃないだろうかそれが心のふるさとではないのかな世の中ますます生きづらくなっている自殺する人も増えている。accident、災害も多いそのうえ至る所で戦争まで起こしやがって。drawing a picture is、平和だ平和になることだ。Besides,、(少しの間でも)自由にもなれる“適当に” 絵を描こうよ

今日は “瞬速” です

今日はすごく忙しい。Even now。that's why、ごく簡単に言ってしまうよ暮れにも「雪景色のビデオを編集中」と書いたかもしれないけど、、、、as usual、4~5日(も)遅れている毎週1本が最低というのが常識らしいけど、2年目に入った今までできたことが(確か)1回しかない(泣)どしたらヨカンベ

上の2枚は編集中のカットから絵も大したことないうえにナレーションには毎回苦労なんとか工夫しているつもりだけど✕(泣×2)という報告で今日はおしまい