Month: January 2023

It's hard to stay motivated

Figure studies (watercolor、F10）

motivation-Motivation is (the source of) motivation。When you're full of motivation, it's natural to do something.、I can't imagine feeling like I'm trying to "maintain" something.。However、A series of small failures、The environment has changed and it has become somehow difficult.、When things don't go smoothly for various reasons、including me、Many people lose motivation, even temporarily.。

Even if my motivation doesn't increase、Most of the time, for various reasons, you cannot get the desired result → Feeling of accomplishment、Unable to feel happy → It is painful to continue、I guess that means。If you get the results you want、I probably won't worry about it。

Humans are very greedy animals.、If the same (similar) results continue、That in itself is a source of dissatisfaction, which is troublesome.。For example, let's say you come second every time in a track and field event.。2nd place every time in different tournaments is quite a good result.。Moreover, since we are humans, it is not only when we are in good physical condition.。Still, I think it's amazing that he came in second place every time.、If you want to be number 1, you'll probably be dissatisfied.、Maybe you've gotten used to "always coming in second place" and it's far from a sense of accomplishment.。The problem is the surroundings。"disappointing。Encouragement such as “Just one more step” or “Next time is number one” have the opposite effect.、Detracts from the person's sense of accomplishment。And before you know it, that feeling of regret settles in your heart.。imagine like that。

People who get motivation only by comparing themselves with others、In this sense, it can be said that athletes in various sports are in a particularly harsh environment.。If you say it like this、It may seem as if you are already in the state of enlightenment.、I can't escape from that either.。However、Lately, I have been more interested in comparing myself to other people.、I've started thinking about motivation in terms of how much time I have left in my life.。Comparing it to a mountain、Rather than the concrete result of reaching the top、From what height do you want to view the scenery?、It seems that there is a shift towards a kind of "self-satisfied" style.。Although self-satisfied、There are many hurdles, no matter how small, to get there.、Enjoy a little bit of joy each time you overcome each one.。I think there's no point in trying、When an incredible "emptiness" arises、I feel like I'm losing motivation、For now, he seems to be able to maintain his motivation with "small" satisfaction.。

Try a new way of drawing

Figure studies (watercolor、(unfinished)

I decided to draw a person for the first time in a while.、I tried practicing using photos for the time being, but I haven't done it in a while.、The brush doesn't move as expected。After all, it is different from apples and potted trees.、Human expressions use a different brush stroke.、There seems to be an approach。It's difficult to be able to draw anything almighty.。

Even though it's a "new way of drawing"、in my own way、But。I'm a little tired today, so、That's it。

Call it a day.

I was finally able to upload it

2I was finally able to upload the "outdoor sketch video" yesterday (January 8th), which has been pending for nearly a month.。I didn't drink alcohol on New Year's Day (although I did)、I didn't even eat mochi (although I did eat zoni), so I just ate this just because I was in the mood.。The content is very ordinary、There's nothing worth mentioning though、I made a lot of editing mistakes along the way (I guess it's because I read too much, right?)、The retouching process、Actually, I learned the most from it.。But、Oh dear、I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders - it was truly Call it a day. 。

But、As soon as I uploaded it, I returned to reality.。10From now on, it's no longer YouTube.、Real “Blue Seagull Painting Class” begins。Is there an appropriate motif? Of course, the “appropriate motif” is different for each person.、physical、There are a lot of things that are unavailable at certain times.、Flowers and vegetables for now、I started looking for things that could be used as art supplies, such as fruits.。

People who draw apples (like me)、You don't necessarily have to draw an apple in front of you.。For example, in my case、Having a real apple in front of you is a ``disturbance''。Apples are an important motif for me.、I don't particularly want to trace its physical appearance.。For me, the only thing I need is the "internal" "tolerance (inclusiveness) power (form) of an apple."、After that, it would be better if the apple remained as a symbol.。

Many of the painters who present photographic realism、Actually, it's similar to me、I'm trying to portray the truth for that person, so to speak.、It seems that he is not trying to depict what is physically (optically) visible in front of his eyes.。In fact, when I hear that small and medium-sized painters, who seem to be completely removed from that, often say, ``My paintings are realistic.''、The general public may be surprised。The relationship between object and author is a surprisingly interesting theme.、Not only is it often taken up by novelists, etc.、Picasso and others relentlessly depict the relationship between ``painter and model.''。People who are convinced that “specific motif” = “object to be drawn”、In a sense, the motif may depict you "on the contrary".。
About the relationship between myself and the motif、It might be fun to think about it for a while。