モチベーションを維持するって大変

Figure studies (watercolor、F10)

motivation-モチベーションとはやる気(の元)のことやる気満々の時はやるのが当たり前という感じで「維持する」などというイジイジした気分など想像もしない。However、小さな失敗が続くとか環境が変わってなんだかやりにくくなったとかとにかくもろもろの理由で順調に進まなくなったときわたしも含め多くの人は一時的にせよやる気が低下する

モチベーションが上がらないといってもたいていはいろんな理由で望む結果が得られなくなる→達成感幸福感が得られない→続けることが苦痛、I guess that means。望む結果が得られるならたぶん悩んだりはしない

人間というのはよっぽど欲の深い動物で同じ(ような)結果が続くとそれ自体が不満の種になるから厄介だたとえば陸上競技などで毎回2位だとしよう異なる大会でも毎回2位というのはかなりの好成績しかも人間だから体調のいい時ばかりではないそれでも毎回2位というのはわたしなどは凄いと思うのだが1位が望みならばやはり不満だろうし「いつも2位」は慣れてしまって達成感には程遠いのかもしれない問題は周囲「残念あと一歩」とか「次は1位だね」などとの激励が逆効果で本人を達成感から引きずり下ろしてしまうそしてその残念感がいつしか本人のこころに棲みついてしまうそんな風に想像する

モチベーションを他人との比較でしか得られない人特に各種競技の選手などはそういう意味で過酷な環境にあると言えそうだこんなふうに言うと自分はすでに悟りの境地にいるかのように思われそうだがわたしもそこから脱することは全然できない。However、最近は人との比較(はするが)より自分の人生の残り時間との中でモチベーションを考えるようになってきた山に喩えると頂上という具体的な結果よりもどの高さから風景を眺めたいかという一種の“自己満足派”に移りつつあるようだ自己満足とはいえそこへ行くにも小なりとも幾多のハードルがありそのいちいちを越えるごとにちょっとした喜びを味わうやっても無駄かなというとんでもない「虚無」が持ち上がってくるとやる気ガタ落ちになるがとりあえずそうやって“プチ”満足でやる気を維持しているようである

Try a new way of drawing

Figure studies (watercolor、(unfinished)

I decided to draw a person for the first time in a while.、I tried practicing using photos for the time being, but I haven't done it in a while.、The brush doesn't move as expected。After all, it is different from apples and potted trees.、Human expressions use a different brush stroke.、There seems to be an approach。It's difficult to be able to draw anything almighty.。

Even though it's a "new way of drawing"、in my own way、But。I'm a little tired today, so、That's it。

Call it a day.

I was finally able to upload it

2I was finally able to upload the "outdoor sketch video" yesterday (January 8th), which has been pending for nearly a month.。I didn't drink alcohol on New Year's Day (although I did)、I didn't even eat mochi (although I did eat zoni), so I just ate this just because I was in the mood.。The content is very ordinary、There's nothing worth mentioning though、I made a lot of editing mistakes along the way (I guess it's because I read too much, right?)、The retouching process、Actually, I learned the most from it.。But、Oh dear、I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders - it was truly Call it a day. 。

But、As soon as I uploaded it, I returned to reality.。10From now on, it's no longer YouTube.、Real “Blue Seagull Painting Class” begins。Is there an appropriate motif? Of course, the “appropriate motif” is different for each person.、physical、There are a lot of things that are unavailable at certain times.、Flowers and vegetables for now、I started looking for things that could be used as art supplies, such as fruits.。

People who draw apples (like me)、You don't necessarily have to draw an apple in front of you.。For example, in my case、Having a real apple in front of you is a ``disturbance''。Apples are an important motif for me.、I don't particularly want to trace its physical appearance.。For me, the only thing I need is the "internal" "tolerance (inclusiveness) power (form) of an apple."、After that, it would be better if the apple remained as a symbol.。

Many of the painters who present photographic realism、Actually, it's similar to me、I'm trying to portray the truth for that person, so to speak.、It seems that he is not trying to depict what is physically (optically) visible in front of his eyes.。In fact, when I hear that small and medium-sized painters, who seem to be completely removed from that, often say, ``My paintings are realistic.''、The general public may be surprised。The relationship between object and author is a surprisingly interesting theme.、Not only is it often taken up by novelists, etc.、Picasso and others relentlessly depict the relationship between ``painter and model.''。People who are convinced that “specific motif” = “object to be drawn”、In a sense, the motif may depict you "on the contrary".。
About the relationship between myself and the motif、It might be fun to think about it for a while。