Month: October 2021

YouTube

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On the 5th of last month (September), the YouTube channel “Blue Seagull Painting Class” was opened.。A place for members of the “Blue Seagull Exhibition” to interact、place of study、I would like to use it for individual member presentations, etc.、While inflating my hopes,。

Almost 1 month since opening。For now, I watch YouTube with the intention of making it myself.。Until it opened, it was someone else's business.、When you start looking at it with those eyes、My hope dwindles every time I look at it。The quality of the channels that are attracting a lot of views is as expected.、High level in both quantity、The feeling of not being able to reach the goal even if it takes 100 years grows。

It goes without saying that YouTubers have the ability to use computers.、Great speaking skills too。Professional knowledge and actual work such as cameras and lighting。Editing ability and sense、And above all, a strong desire to “communicate”。Everything feels so far away that I can't reach it.。Among them、Perhaps the most important thing is a strong desire to "communicate and share"、that's what I'm missing。I can't connect with anyone、I don't feel lonely at all when I have time alone、Because I feel like that's the most fun.。

But、Then it ends up being just pretend drawing.。It may be true that a picture is like that.、I can't help but feel a little unsatisfied.。I want to expand the world outside of myself a little more.。I chose "Blue Seagull..."、It is also a burden on me for that purpose.。A little tough、By imposing a slight sense of obligation on myself, who tend to run away when something difficult happens.、I'm thinking of staying here without running away.。

Yasuo Ishimaru Solo Exhibition

Yasuo Ishimaru Exhibition Venue 12Oct.2021 Gallery Natsuka 10/11~10/16

10/12(Tue) Cloudy and then rain。Get out of the gallery where our group exhibition is being held early.、I decided to go home after seeing Yasuo Ishimaru's solo exhibition at "Gallery Natsuka" in Kyobashi.。

Mr. Ishimaru is from Shunan City, Yamaguchi Prefecture.。There is a remote island called Otsushima off the coast of Shunan City.。There is an underwater suicide weapon used by the Japanese army during the Pacific War.、There was a training base for the human torpedo "Kaiten"。This comes from the peculiarity of the base, where the main structures are under water.、Hydrophilicity between the sea (water) and concrete、An image of the rust on the reinforcing steel seeping out。That is the motif for the work.、I heard it from the person himself a long time ago.。

Before becoming a member of the Kokugakai、A thick block up to 30cm thick、Add delicate unevenness、Let the pale blue water flow and stop it、An expression that gradually deepens the color by flowing and holding it.、There was a time when it was subtitled ``From Otsushima.''。I was also a weapons enthusiast when I was a child.、That subtitle caught my attention.。And I imagined an older writer appropriate for that age group.、Mr. Ishimaru is a much younger writer than me.。My hair is still black、It's bushy。Since then, I have been working with Mr. Ishimaru.、What kind of philosophy does this relate to?、How to shape the uniqueness of a motif、I watched it with interest。彼の表現はその原点に重くも軽くもなく誠実で、かつ現代に生きる若い人の感性とを、クールに調和させて来ているように思える。

個展会場に入ると、浅い水の中になかば沈んだ建築（それも神殿のような）の内側、大理石の壁や床に描く、I felt like I was watching an eternal play of waves and light.。That shallow water feeling、Ever since I became aware of his work、Will never change。when I asked、I was the only audience member because of the rain.。His paintings are quiet paintings.。Soak your body in the summer sea、Feels like you're swimming while swimming。制作中はどんな音楽（音）を聴くのだろう、と思っていたが訊きそびれた。

この世は知らないことだらけ

木立ベゴニアの制作　2021　F60 アキーラ

知らないことが多すぎる。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、もう少し丁寧に言おう。自分にとって必要なことさえ知らなすぎる、is。

ある（アメリカの、だったか）科学者が、人間が一つの新しいことを成し遂げるには200歳以上生きる必要がある、と言ったのを覚えている。人類の、これまでの知識を自分のバックグラウンドとして身につけるまでに最低120歳、先端知識を身につけ、経験するのに50年、研究し、結果を出すのに最低30年とか。区分けはこの通りでなかったかも知れないが、とにかく人生100年じゃ短すぎて何もやる時間がない。だからとりあえず人間を200歳まで生きられるための研究をしている、という話だった。

Youtube に「青いカモメの絵画教室」というチャンネルを作ったよ（9月7日）。できれば皆さんに見てもらい、いろいろ意見を聞いて内容を充実させていきたいので、まずは見てください。気分悪くなければチャンネル登録してね。新しい動画を載せた時知らせが届くらしいから、nice to meet you。―ちょっと脱線したが、このコマ送り動画（GIF画像）、じつは動画ではなく、「画像」扱いだということを今日知った。これまでも何度か（GIF画像を）載せているのに気がつかなかった。こんなふうに、現にやっていることの意味さえ「知らない」のだから、もう少し距離感のある事柄なら、ほぼ「無知」に等しいだろう、と恐懼する。

目下、コンピューターでは「機械学習」というのが大きな研究テーマになっている。成功、失敗のデータを分析、学習して、つねに正しい選択ができるようにしようというもので、将棋の藤井壮太君が使っている将棋ソフトもそうしたものの一つだ。But、「試行錯誤」そのものに「愉しみ」を見出す、わたしのようなひねくれものをどう扱ったらいいのか知るために、あんがい生きた実験動物として役に立っているのかも知れません。