On the 5th of last month (September), the YouTube channel “Blue Seagull Painting Class” was opened.。A place for members of the “Blue Seagull Exhibition” to interact、place of study、I would like to use it for individual member presentations, etc.、While inflating my hopes,。
Almost 1 month since opening。For now, I watch YouTube with the intention of making it myself.。Until it opened, it was someone else's business.、When you start looking at it with those eyes、My hope dwindles every time I look at it。The quality of the channels that are attracting a lot of views is as expected.、High level in both quantity、The feeling of not being able to reach the goal even if it takes 100 years grows。
It goes without saying that YouTubers have the ability to use computers.、Great speaking skills too。Professional knowledge and actual work such as cameras and lighting。Editing ability and sense、And above all, a strong desire to “communicate”。Everything feels so far away that I can't reach it.。Among them、Perhaps the most important thing is a strong desire to "communicate and share"、that's what I'm missing。I can't connect with anyone、I don't feel lonely at all when I have time alone、Because I feel like that's the most fun.。
But、Then it ends up being just pretend drawing.。It may be true that a picture is like that.、I can't help but feel a little unsatisfied.。I want to expand the world outside of myself a little more.。I chose "Blue Seagull..."、It is also a burden on me for that purpose.。A little tough、By imposing a slight sense of obligation on myself, who tend to run away when something difficult happens.、I'm thinking of staying here without running away.。