Month: May 2021

tidy up

Apple - background practice (CG)

``Organization''...I've been bad at it since I was a kid.。Is that so?、Actually, I don't really understand the meaning.。Putting aside the ``principle''、What is "ton" in tidying up? Meera、Do you know? -a、yes。You guys are (surprisingly) intelligent.。—The word “intellectual” suddenly came to mind.、A word that is only used by people over the age of 60 - even people who say they're perpetual brats、In reality, I'm old。

When we were in elementary school, there was a "children's club".。6When I was in first grade、For some reason, Ola was made the chairman.。It's Yang、Before I could think about it...、I ended up doing more and more things that I had no real interest in.、As the chairman, Ola is forced to take the lead.。I didn’t like it—there were committees like the “Health Committee” that had a lot of women.、"Make sure to carry a handkerchief"、I did something like what we would now call a campaign.。I'm eating rice balls without washing my hands, and I'm wearing a handkerchief. It's like I've suddenly become a girl.、I feel strangely embarrassed、I remember feeling sick for a long time。There are various other committees、We talked about meaningless things until it got dark.、I was told things like, “Please take my ass off.”、Just as I was thinking, ``Does ketsu mean butt?'' he took my butt off.、Even though he was the chairman, he had a strange attitude of being in the minority in many cases.。

Ola was a child who had no interest in anything other than fish, animals, and drawings.。If I catch a rabbit or raccoon in a trap, I take it to my mother's grandmother.。I had a great time watching the demolition with Gigi.。If I catch a fish, I'll cut it myself and make it into a side dish for my family.、I would wake up early and go out to the beach to catch crabs, my mother's favorite food.、I fell in love with crab fishing、Competing wits with a wise fox for three years、Thinking about it now、It was like experiencing the world of fairy tales.。Because I always did that alone、I still don't feel comfortable with the method of majority voting.。Go to Matagi's house、Memories of being shown hounds and guns for hunting bears—a big derailment。It was about tidying up.。

Fish and game、A picture too? —Most of the time, I end up losing my possessions.、There was no need to organize in the first place.。Nails that put spats on at most、Place to put wire, rods, needles, devices, etc. for traps、Place skis and sleds in an easily accessible location、only。I didn't have any other tidying habits.、This may be the reason for my poor organization (this is all I wanted to say) (as a side note)、If you write it like this、outside of school、In other words, I don't think he studied at all (or even did homework) at home - strangely enough, my younger brother is really an ``organizer''.()。Does it depend on your personality? -I thought that for a long time.。Since my father's (already deceased) illness、I try to visit my parents' house every year if possible.、Gradually, I started to see how my younger brother was ``sloppy'' in organizing.。As expected - for some reason I'm a little happy.。Incidentally,、My son doesn't seem to be very good at organizing either.。My wife is a person who is tidy but can't "organize" at all.。This is problematic - I'm not a person who can't "organize" or "organize", so it's not a problem.。

Evenly

Hydrangea (CG sketch)

A person who is “even” is “cool” to me.。Since I was very young、I was aware that I was a person who was prone to panic.。And it hasn't changed even after decades。

in the human world、I'm definitely a timid person。I don't remember having any courage.、Even if you go in a group, the third row is the best.。Of course the person waving the flag at the front is cool, but、What I thought was cooler than that was the person standing at the front without a flag.。

Leadership for me、always at the top、Even though I have taken on all the responsibility, I am still ``still calm.''、that's the opposite of me。Even if it's natural to admire such a person,、Just longing for it、Not wanting to be that kind of person is probably ``cowardly.''。Me as a child、My mother laughed and said I was “scared”.。I was embarrassed, but it can't be helped because it's true.、I don't remember daring to object.。

Is it because I'm getting older?、The meaning of “dandan” has become unrelated to leadership.、It has become literally “dandan”。Is it because I have come to realize that “living a peaceful life” is actually surprisingly difficult?。Recently, I have started to prepare a little more (in advance) than before.。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、If I didn't do that, I wouldn't be able to do anything.。Everything used to be “haphazard”。Some people mistake that for youth.、The reality is、imagine the future、prepare for it、I just didn't have the sense or ability to prepare.。Looking back、I feel like it wasn't just luck that I was able to come here safely until now.。In today's rapidly changing world,、It is impossible to overcome everything based on such coincidences alone.、Maybe it's because I've finally stepped on the path that so many people have taken.。

Arrogant — 2

Hydrangea (CG sketch)

(Continued from the previous "arrogance")
Is it arrogant to think that I am honest and humble? Well then、As long as you don't belittle yourself、Doesn't that mean everyone is arrogant? That's it、I know how it feels to get so angry that the endings of words become garbled.、But、Let's say it is so。

I don't think I'm arrogant、Already arrogant、Let's put it in other words。Similarly, people who think ``I am humble'' are not humble.、I'd say it's arrogant after all.。This is not just a play on words、In fact, it may be said that it is a dangerous idea in the truest sense.。

What does it mean?。—often、We think of ourselves as ``very ordinary,'' ``common sense,'' ``nothing special (often humble),'' and ``not particularly evil.'' That's why.。That's why it's dangerous。Because he is a good person who professes to be honest, humble, ordinary, common sense, and has almost no merits.、They say it's dangerous.。As long as it's "normal"、“Others” are some kind of foreign existence.、A "normal" person with no clear outline、Before you know it、They don't realize that they are on the side of excluding others who are just slightly different from themselves.。I find myself in the middle of “normal”、Before you know it, you get the illusion that others are biased.。

There is no such thing as an ``honest, humble, good person.''。At least I'm not like that、Maybe you aren't either。sometimes tell convenient lies、or hide inconvenient facts、jealous of people、Show off something you're good at somehow、While saying with your mouth that you have no merit, you (in your mind) look down on the person in front of you, saying, ``At least I'm better than you.''、I think all the people I don't like should die.、that's me、Maybe you too、Isn't it?。

While forcing people to refrain from eating out together、There are politicians who have dined with them without any remorse.。``A politician's job is to meet people,'' he said, but、This is called typical arrogance.。But、As arrogant as anyone can see、I feel bad, but there is little actual harm.。On the other hand, it also serves as a good example for teachers.、It can also be defeated in elections.。But、The ``majority'' of ``ordinary people'' are unstoppable.。each and every one、In a sense, everyone is a little different.、It's not just about being honest or humble.、Unless you realize that you are a human being with both sides.、no one can stop me。I feel that fear intensely every day.。