A person who is “even” is “cool” to me.。Since I was very young、I was aware that I was a person who was prone to panic.。And it hasn't changed even after decades。
in the human world、I'm definitely a timid person。I don't remember having any courage.、Even if you go in a group, the third row is the best.。Of course the person waving the flag at the front is cool, but、What I thought was cooler than that was the person standing at the front without a flag.。
Leadership for me、always at the top、Even though I have taken on all the responsibility, I am still ``still calm.''、that's the opposite of me。Even if it's natural to admire such a person,、Just longing for it、Not wanting to be that kind of person is probably ``cowardly.''。Me as a child、My mother laughed and said I was “scared”.。I was embarrassed, but it can't be helped because it's true.、I don't remember daring to object.。
Is it because I'm getting older?、The meaning of “dandan” has become unrelated to leadership.、It has become literally “dandan”。Is it because I have come to realize that “living a peaceful life” is actually surprisingly difficult?。Recently, I have started to prepare a little more (in advance) than before.。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、If I didn't do that, I wouldn't be able to do anything.。Everything used to be “haphazard”。Some people mistake that for youth.、The reality is、imagine the future、prepare for it、I just didn't have the sense or ability to prepare.。Looking back、I feel like it wasn't just luck that I was able to come here safely until now.。In today's rapidly changing world,、そんな偶然性だけであらゆることを乗り越えていくのは無理だと、やっと多くの人の通った道をわたしも踏んだからなのかもしれない。