Month: August 2011

サボテン

窓辺のサボテン

I keep doing push-ups by my window.。Even when it's hot or windy、Dressed like this all day and night。The original one is already withering 1、It's been 2 years。However, the tip continues to grow diagonally upward without withering any further.、Eventually you can't stand the gravity and put your hands on the floor? I hit it。In most cases, it gradually deteriorates from there.、It's been in this state for over a year, just a little bit of withered color at the edges.。

I don't know what kind、I'm sure it's not uncommon。About 5 different types of cacti are planted in small pots.、5 years ago 4、I bought it for 500 yen.。The green one doesn't get any bigger、For some reason, only the ones that seem to have withered the bottom half grow.。Is it because of the difference in the size of metabolism?。in the same pot、Only the cactus in the photo almost withered in the winter of the year I bought it.。In my experience so far、Most of the time it just rotted away.、He recovered the following summer、And it grew a little。In the winter, I feel like I'm going to be useless again.、The following summer, the number increased to two (the third one is visible in the photo).。in this little pot、This is the only one who shows such dynamic movements.。

I surprisingly like cacti。Not only is it convenient because you don't have to worry about watering.、I've only recently come to think that I like thorns.。

childhood、Cacti are extremely rare on the Shimokita Peninsula in Aomori Prefecture.。In my mind, a cactus is an image of a tropical country.、It was a symbol of the hot rocky desert.。The cactus was planted (maybe it was in a pot) next to the small entrance of the elementary school principal's official residence (as it was called in the countryside).、I found it in the middle of the road。

There is no doubt that it was a fan cactus.。On the surface of the fan cactus, there are large, 1 cm radial lines.、Several long needles are attached to each other.。The space between the clusters of spines looks like a smooth surface.。Why do children want to touch smooth things?。Be careful of large clusters of thorns、I casually stroked its smooth, ``visible'' surface.。

Another deep meaning of danger、Only then did I know。The parts that appear smooth are so minute that you won't notice them unless you look carefully.、The spines that are easy to fall out are not lumps.、一面にかなりの頻度で突き立っている。長い針の目立つ危険の陰に、本当の危険が潜んでいることを子どもなりに意識させられた瞬間だ。ひりひりした、繊細な痛さに泣きながら家に帰った記憶は今も強く残っている。

そんなわけでサボテンが天敵のような存在になったのは当然だった。天敵だからうっかり触ったりしないよう、特に注意するようになったのかも知れない。いつの間にか、花が（滅多に）咲かないということも、人の肥育をほとんど要しないことも、厳しい環境に育つことも、人の手を刺すことも（サボテンが意図的に刺しているわけではないが）好ましいと思うようになったのは不思議な気がする。私のへそ曲がりな気性に合っていたのかも知れない、サボテンがへそ曲がりだとは全然思わないけれど。

晨春会展を終えて

歩く男　F6　水彩　　2010

10 days since the last blog。I tried writing about it once during the session, but、I couldn't put it all together and couldn't publish it.。Is the Chenchunkai Exhibition on July 31st safe? end。Was it because there was a big earthquake?、This year, there was a different feeling than usual that continued throughout the exhibition.。Even if there are no noticeable changes、Maybe something must have changed。

One is a change of heart。The earthquake was also a mental disaster.。what am i doing、I continue to feel a mixture of pity and regret.。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、I feel like this was happening even before the earthquake.。That there is no other choice in what I should do.。I realized that there is no time to be lost.。I understand very well、so、When I think about what to do now, I feel like I have nothing.。Was that what was going on throughout the exhibition? If so、Don't exhibitions exist just to confirm that you have nothing?。

I drank alcohol every day for the month of July.。It's rare these days to drink this much every day.。Beer 、wine、Japanese sake、Shochu and various alcohols、sometimes in large quantities、Sometimes just a little bit、Sometimes it's fun、Sometimes it's like it's an enemy。Is it because of that?、for about a week、At night, my area from the calf down was swollen.。The circumference of the fingers is also round like a pig's foot.。When I put pressure on my fingertips, the swelling appears white.、The color of the blood has completely disappeared。raise your legs、After I started moving around, the swelling went away.、I didn't stop drinking at night.。I don't want to drink, I have to drink、It felt like。

When August comes、I suddenly lost the desire to drink.。I don't know if it has anything to do with the exhibition being over.。Maybe he just drank too much and got bored.。When the Chenchunkai exhibition ended、Last year, I was thinking, ``This is what I'm going to do for my next work.''。I'm not thinking about anything this year.。However、The small unfinished drawing in front of me、I just want it to disappear from my eyes as soon as possible。