10 days since the last blog。I tried writing about it once during the session, but、I couldn't put it all together and couldn't publish it.。Is the Chenchunkai Exhibition on July 31st safe? end。Was it because there was a big earthquake?、This year, there was a different feeling than usual that continued throughout the exhibition.。Even if there are no noticeable changes、Maybe something must have changed。
One is a change of heart。The earthquake was also a mental disaster.。what am i doing、I continue to feel a mixture of pity and regret.。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、I feel like this was happening even before the earthquake.。That there is no other choice in what I should do.。I realized that there is no time to be lost.。I understand very well、so、When I think about what to do now, I feel like I have nothing.。Was that what was going on throughout the exhibition? If so、Don't exhibitions exist just to confirm that you have nothing?。
I drank alcohol every day for the month of July.。It's rare these days to drink this much every day.。Beer 、wine、Japanese sake、Shochu and various alcohols、sometimes in large quantities、Sometimes just a little bit、Sometimes it's fun、Sometimes it's like it's an enemy。Is it because of that?、for about a week、At night, my area from the calf down was swollen.。The circumference of the fingers is also round like a pig's foot.。When I put pressure on my fingertips, the swelling appears white.、The color of the blood has completely disappeared。raise your legs、After I started moving around, the swelling went away.、I didn't stop drinking at night.。I don't want to drink, I have to drink、It felt like。
When August comes、I suddenly lost the desire to drink.。I don't know if it has anything to do with the exhibition being over.。Maybe he just drank too much and got bored.。When the Chenchunkai exhibition ended、Last year, I was thinking, ``This is what I'm going to do for my next work.''。I'm not thinking about anything this year.。However、The small unfinished drawing in front of me、I just want it to disappear from my eyes as soon as possible。