Esquis for "emergence"

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Today is the first day of spring in 2025.。A small piece from the ``Flying Man'' series is hung on the wall.。This is an F4 size tempera painting that reflects various thoughts and challenges a new (for me at the time) expression method.。Technically it's no big deal、Is it because of my youth?、Good tempo from idea to expression、Sometimes I compare it to the current speed of production.。

Oops、I'm off track。the、A picture of a man floating in the sky and the meaning of the word "Risshun"、The ongoing “Apple series”? The three sparked in my head.、This idea came to me。In recent years, Apple's approach has gradually changed since its start.、I was just looking for a new mood for the new work.。

A picture is、Whether it's a concrete motif or an abstract one,、to some extent in my head、You can't draw unless you can see the image of your goal.。The system of consciousness is、I feel that it is somehow connected to the history of human evolution in terms of DNA.。When I was a student、The shock I felt when I saw detailed research photos and articles about the Altamira cave paintings.、3A child of 3 years old has the life experience of a 3 year old.、I guess the image is based on that.、It is connected with the drawing picture.。The rest is a physical sensation awakened by accidental movement.。It is a fundamentally different world from the “picture” shown by AI.。Oops、Derailed again。

The stronger the connection between your ideas and what is inside you, the more、stubbornly cling to、It's easy to think that if the image doesn't expand,、In reality, it's expanding。Things we know well have deep and rich content.、This is because it can be viewed from multiple perspectives.。In fact, it is easier to focus on one point of view if you only have experience and knowledge from outside.。Also、No matter how big you are, you probably won't be able to surpass your own worldview.、What was within the unconscious、It may appear as a new image.。Loosen the border line that you have fixed yourself to the outside.。Or dig deeper。That's what creation is all about.、I feel that is。
Well then、I wrote something that I understood, so I'm scared of what will happen next.、This idea is still just floating on the edge of ``commonplace''.。The route ahead is still unknown、I'll draw it for the time being on the first day of spring.。

My eyes are Shoboshobo

I uploaded it for now。Please take a look

Even animals in the wild can have shaky eyes.。A long time ago, when I had a dog、My dog ​​has had eye disease several times.、I can say this from my experience using eye drops.。So was the cat.。Some lizards, such as chameleons, clean their eyes by licking them underneath.。Dragonflies with compound eyes、If you look closely, you can see that it is frequently stroking its eyes with its front paws.。However, this is not "eye strain" or anything like that.、Is it just garbage? I guess they are cleaning the。

Animals get sick too、Probably because there is no concept of "sickness"、Just being in the ``feelings'' of ``pain'' and ``pain''。Of course, there's no way doctors would know.、until I feel better、I'm patiently patient。

once、My puppy almost got hit by a car once.。on a snowy road、I jumped into a car with a chain wrapped around it.。I avoided being crushed under、Apparently the end of the rotating chain hit my eye.、While chirping、I crawled into the back of a large shoe closet.、It stopped coming out。Not taking food、I remained hidden deep inside for several days.。Has the pain finally subsided?、Did hunger win?、When he came out, part of his eye socket was cut off and he was clear.、The eyeballs were cloudy white。I thought, ``This is going to make me go blind.''、At that time, there was no such thing as a fancy animal hospital (to begin with, it was a ``doctorless village'' without even a human doctor).、All I could do was watch。

Surprisingly、Maybe it was because I was growing up.、The cloudy eyes completely disappeared in a few months.、My eyesight has recovered (or so I thought)。I felt like I had seen the amazing healing power of nature.、I still remember it well。
I heard from an ophthalmologist that looking at things in the distance is the best way to rest your eyes.。What I'm doing now、The exact opposite。That's why I'm so worn out。

Play in color

“Apple Landscape” Watercolor F4

eastern japan、Especially on the Kanto Pacific side, the weather continues to be sunny.、A dry weather advisory is in effect today as well.。The weather is crisp and nice、My mood remains wet。At times like that、Drawing pictures like this makes me feel dry。

red and yellow and green。My one pattern as always。so blatantly、It is rare to find a person who does not have the color sense to use all three colors with high saturation.、I feel it myself。Usually one of the three colors、Create variations by removing one color and using two colors、Or use the removed color as an accent?、Use it in a more stylish way。Or mix the three colors alternately (stack them)、Group similar colors together。Anyway、こんなにストレートでバラバラに（交通信号機のように）原色を使う絵を見ることは少ない（子どもの絵には圧倒的に多い！）。

色の無い、モノトーンの世界にわたしは憧れる。だから雪の風景はことさら心を惹かれる。Nevertheless、絵を描くとつい鮮やかに、より純粋にと色を使いたくなってしまう。カラーセンサーのどこかが壊れているに違いない。他の画家たちの絵を見るたびに、That's right、こんな色遣いをしなくっちゃ、と強く願うのだが、画廊を出て3歩歩くともう忘れている。

モノトーンの絵はカッコいい、大人の絵だと思うのだが、色をたくさん使うのは頭を空っぽにできて楽しい。屁理屈をこねる割にはもともとの頭がガキっぽいのだろう。それならそれでいいはずなのに、そこに自分を100％投げ込めないジレンマがある。