blood thin day

Landscape with Apple or a flying man、習作 2019

I misread the calendar、I went to the National Art Center, Tokyo today (Tuesday).。Immediately after exiting the ticket gate, there is a notice board that says "Closed today"。If you could at least make it visible in front of the ticket gate, you could save yourself extra train fare.、I think it's a management decision on the subway's part not to put it there.、I feel doubly disappointed。

(Especially) No blood is circulating in the head.、There are days when I feel like。Each thing is separate and cannot be related.。That's today、to see two exhibitions、I can't picture in my head the subway lines that will take me between venues.。What line are you riding now?、Where and what line should I change to?、I can't connect easily。get over it、take a detour、Even I hate it。

On those days, of course, I have a strong headache.、It's hard to do anything。Daily headaches, regardless of their severity。Not enough to take medicine、Not worth going to the hospital。But the daily headaches are a bit of a burden.。I don't think there's any point in looking at the picture in such a state.、One is the last day so I have no choice but to go.。

I also work in this state of mind when producing.。Even if you come up with an idea、Cannot be filled at the packing stage。The process of turning “ideas” into “work” is falling apart、I become sloppy and even lose direction.。

Such as that somehow look at the skeleton

Kyuro part (Oippe) Elementary School 2019/8/26

Although it passed ten years from getting to the closed school、Not still demolished is that because here is in the shelter。There is no other than the almost "tsunami" Speaking of what from to evacuate、Here is above sea level 7~8m there is only (still there in certainly "hill" is in the village)、For still fresh we also stored as seen in the video of the Great East Japan Earthquake、It is a suitable for either a little worried as really haven。

Classroom is not aligned、First grade 1 class。It headed the far right in there is the entrance for children (off-screen)、First-year students from there (some on the right of the white curtain)、2Years old、3It is lined up grade classroom。4One eye is in the staff room、Entrance center for teachers。Music room from the front door to the left、4Years old、5Years old、6Years old、It should was。Go straight to the back from the front door of the cooking chamber, such as the teachers of the gymnasium and school lunch。Although gymnasium was also greatly felt widely、It really children size Looking now。

The number of children getting longer depopulation is dramatically reduced the time the younger sister has passed。In the whole school children than twenty people、Was less than our 1 class of the time of the、Repeat the consolidation of elementary and junior high school、Elementary school is now one school was also more than 25 in the village only。But that is less than the old section (Oippe) elementary school one school at the time。

Although round 200m of the ground was proud of the breadth、Thanks Now the only weeds are overgrown (local old people are or weeding、Apparently it has been finished not or grows a big tree)。I think that I wish or can not be used to something、In just settlements barely old man to walk、It is felt that even the burden to maintain, let alone use。

fear of depopulation

空地と廃屋歩いている人をほとんど見かけない

下北(といっても太平洋側)に避暑中です今日は最高気温が20°にしかなりませんでした涼しいというより少し寒い感じがするほど

午前8時前から午後6時過ぎまでほぼ休憩無しで制作しています締切とかに追われているわけでもないのにうまくいかないので休むタイミングが取りづらいのです

6時過ぎアトリエ(要するに実家です)からホテルに向かいます歩いても10分ほどですが毎回荷物があるので車で移動ですアトリエを一歩出るとホテルまで誰も歩いていませんたまに車がすれ違っても人影は全くない車を止め後ろを振り返って見ても無人の道が薄暗い中をまっすぐ伸びているだけ

家の灯りもあまり見えません人が住んでいるのか空き家なのか途中のコンビニだけは何台か車が駐車場にある霧のある日など本当にホラー映画の世界に迷い込んだ気がするいくら本州北端でも夕方6時過ぎはまだ薄明るい。7時を過ぎればお化けが出ても不思議はないような過疎の村で誰も住んでいない家の中で黙々と絵を描いています