Apple

「Apple」 2019 F8 Oil on canvas

About 2 months ago、I keep drawing pictures like this。I keep coming up with ideas, so、It will continue for a while。Another one titled “Seed”、He continues to draw pictures that seem to contain a muscular man inside a seed.。It's almost a similar picture、For some reason this doesn't work very well。

It looks like a modern painting、The method of drawing purposely adopts the method of classical painting.。In other words、Grisaille (drawing only black and white tones of light and shade)、Next, it is a painting method that deepens the color by alternating layers of glassi (thin layers of transparent color) and white.。Whether it's a modern painting or a classical painting.、I think this method is the best for expressing deep and rich colors.。

I have my own ideal image of painting.。Having something like that itself、Setting aside the criticism that it limits painting.、Many painters work hard every day to realize their own ideals.、I think。That's fine up to that point。But、in my ideal image、Contains divisive contradictions within itself、That has been tormenting me for the past 20 years.。

for now、There is no way to integrate the contradictions.、Production is possible only by ``choosing not to look at either side'' of contradictions.。Aiming to balance both、Due to my experience of being severely depressed for a while。Most recently、it's not a contradiction、Shouldn't we think of them as two completely different "ideals of their own"?、I also think that。Is it something like the equator and the north and south poles?。If so、There is no point in integrating it。

"deep" story

“Flying Man” 2019 F10

Say things like, ``That person's story is deep.''、What does "deep" mean?。know the depths of people's psychology、It seems to mean that、Social constraints, body and mind、It may also include the meaning of knowing well the delicate subtleties between the mind and technology.。

In short, it's not as clear as "1+1=2", but、I feel like I'm connected somewhere to a truth that everyone can understand.。This is probably the first condition for a "deep" story.。However, “confusion” is also、It's a very similar feeling。Or there may be cases where what appears to be "confusion" is the truth.。How can we sniff it out?。

We talked about "variations" in the painting class.。About one motif、It means trying out a number of expressions (laws).。I ended up giving a slightly school-like explanation of ``increasing the experience points of thinking circuits.''。Increase experience points、Experiencing a lot takes time (sometimes physical effort) and money.、It is more inefficient than studying from books etc.、Some people think this is the method of a stupid person.、I don't think so。

Reading the lives of great people in one book、60Year、70There is no way that (life) experiences accumulated over the years and reading for a few days at most are the same.。but、Of course, reading is not meaningless.、It is normal to feel that the more experience you have, the more you can gain from reading.。Even in paintings、It is not necessary if you have production experience.、I have a different sense of the problem when I am faced with someone else's work.。The experience of “this is what I did”、It must be because I unconsciously contrast them.。The difference in contrast leads to “why?”、The solution to that question will also become your own experience.。Such an accumulation、Connects to the feeling of seeing things from the inside of the author, who is a stranger.、This is thought to lead to incorporating the experiences of other authors.。

I went off track a little。In conclusion、This means that ``variation'' is very effective in making a painting ``deeper.''。Increasing the experience value of thought circuits also means diversification of viewpoints (although it is also possible that it is simply knowledge integration).、The experience of choosing one of them and actually trying it out、The decision becomes an opportunity to move on to the next perspective.。Isn't this cycle itself called "deepening"?、That's what I think。

Shibuya

Mucha exhibition hall entrance

I went to Shibuya for the first time in a while (really a long time)。Visit Bunnkamura to see the much-talked-about Mucha exhibition。Before that, I saw the ``Ryo Sasa Exhibition'' at Gallery Unicon in Kawagoe.、In addition, Tobu Tojo Line、Subway Yurakucho Line、Transfer to the Metro Fukutoshin Line to Shibuya。It's a route I don't usually use, so I might get lost without a navigation system.、Most of the stations I've never heard of。

Going from the subway to Shibuya's "above ground" was so novel (to me) that I wondered which station it was in which country.。I thought he was Japanese, but he spoke Chinese or Korean (perhaps due to the deterioration of Japan-Korea relations)、I feel like my Korean language has decreased dramatically.)、Middle Eastern Department、african、European people are common (as if living there)。A tremendous flow of people like a great river、Diffuse reflection of artificial light。Go in front of Hachiko。Well, once you get to the ground、It didn't feel that foreign。

The Mucha exhibition is probably being advertised on TV somewhere.、it was very crowded。I think there were a lot of young people.。Crowd level and contents were as expected.。It's a picture I've seen many times.、I also know how good a drawing is.、I'm not interested in sub-streams.、The far-fetched adaptation of the manga is as expected.。For those watching it for the first time, I feel a little sorry for how crowded it is.。I took a closer look at only four oil paintings of Esquis (ideas/sketches).。

Hurry back to Shibuya station、Climb to the Ginza Line, the “subway on the third floor above ground”。The narrow staircase leading up here has remained old for at least 50 years.。The era gap between the underground passage and the underground passage is huge.。I guess this sense of coexistence is incredible in big cities.。Take the Chiyoda Line at Omotesando、Nogizaka。国立新美術館は黄昏時で空いていた。New production exhibition、Walking around both behavioral exhibition venues。There are some good works, but there are also a lot of boring ones.。I guess that's what it is、Watching is the beginning of everything。

I walked around for the first time in a while、The tendon in my left knee gives me a warning signal when going down the stairs at the station.。If you overdo it, you'll actually hurt your knees.。It's the limit。When I get home、I was waiting for the obituary.。