Category: 生活

Spring is coming

"Cherry blossoms and merry-go-round" watercolor

on YouTube、I started consciously devoting my time and energy to、A whole year and a half has passed。For about a year before that, I had little interest in YouTube itself.、I was told that I would probably need it later.、I needed to quickly get used to the iPad.、draw on ipad、I will make a simple video of the process and upload it.、I passed by just practicing.。

I want to be able to make "normal videos"、During the past year and a half, when I “became more conscious”、Number of views increased from 3000 to 60000、The number of subscribers ranges from around 30 to over 600.、Approximately 20 times more。When I first started, I would have been happy with this number and thought it was amazing.。But realistically、This means "You are not suitable for YouTube"、It seems that the number is equivalent to a declaration.。It's true that it takes 18 months to multiply by 20 times.、It simply means that you only increase by what you do.。people calling people、That means it has to be a so-called acceleration curve.。

What it takes to be “successful” on YouTube、in my case、Apparently we need 100 to 200 times more views and subscribers than we have now! How distant is that number?、I'm starting to understand more and more now.。
If you can say it's a hobby、It doesn't really matter though、Is it of any use in the classroom?、I was thinking vaguely.、考え方を変えなければならないことになりました。consumption of time and energy、It's too big。I want to convey the joy of drawing、That's what I was thinking、For that reason, I don't lose time to draw pictures myself.、Eyes get worse (perhaps this is due to aging)、Because sometimes I feel depressed.、It's literally putting the cart before the horse.。

Should I quit YouTube after I started it?。Still a little、I feel like it's a waste。What is “success”?、もともとできるとは思っていなかったけれど、It's not quite "useful" yet.、Isn't there room to make use of it?、How inexperienced、さらに深みにはまりそうな気もしますし。
　しばらく気分転換が必要かもしれません。It's still winter according to the calendar、It's the first day of spring in a few days.。First, let's draw some cherry blossoms.、自分を楽しませてやろうと思っているところです。

Channel doesn't match

12I uploaded a video for the first time in a while。If you have time、I would like you to take a look。It’s been 8 days since I last blogged.。I also wrote articles、It wasn't that I wasn't feeling well either.、Up it、I just didn't feel like reading it at all.。

Probably many Japanese people (about 90%?) have it.、I think I also have a very mild case of depression.。I guess that shows up sometimes。Then、There's no point in doing anything、I feel like、I feel like throwing away unfinished business.。On the other hand、"Light" means、listen to good music、When I see a good picture、Immediately I felt energized and said, ``Let's go a little further.''。Then I think I'll stop.。

all last year、作品発表のほとんどの場から身を引きました。Looking at the big picture、わたしはどんどん「社会」から後じさりしているようです。going out into society、Must be involved with society、生きていくことが難しいように世の中は作られているのですが、I want to be alone if possible、I've had this personality since childhood.、It seems like not much has changed。However,、grow a field by yourself、I don't have the knowledge or ability to catch fish and become self-sufficient.、It's just a wish、I really can't live alone。

There is currently a painting class.、That is the point of contact with society.。don't draw、I rarely have contact with people I'm not interested in.。with society、I have never made any effort to expand my contacts outside of painting (I was not proactive even with painting).。In that sense、I am a social “misfit”、I'm positioning myself。I don't think it's "unsuitable" though.、I guess I'm the type who can't bond well (I don't even like the word "bond")。
I don't hate humans by any means, but、I don't like socializing。What I like about Favre and Seaton is、It may be because there is such a thing.。But、I think the number of such people is increasing in Japan.。In other words、On the other hand, while seeking connections with people through SNS etc.、On the other hand, each one wants to be alone.。In that dilemma、Everyone has “mild depression”。In other words、I'm saying that people like me are quite normal.。

From what you can do -2

“What you can do” differs depending on the person.。That's common knowledge。But it's just words、Me and others、I feel like I can do the same things as other people.。What kind of person do you mean by "a person" who is "on the same level as a human"?。How do you measure "the same amount"?、without thinking about it、I vaguely feel like that.。

sing a song。play an instrument。go fishing。climb a mountain。write a poem。Cooking...the list of things is endless.、Some people are good at everything at a professional level.、Some people are not good at it。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、What is "normal" or "normal"?、No one can judge (maybe)、I think)。Somehow、I'm just looking at my own average value?。without experience、I shouldn't even be able to make that.、For some reason I feel like I know everything (like God)。I wonder why。

If there is a kind of "information/knowledge"、I guess I feel like I "know"。Knowledge also includes "other people's failures"。I think I'm a little better than that.、That guy。Then、“What you can do” means、have certain knowledge、Moreover, I have a certain level of confidence that I can do a little better.、I wonder if that means that。

If you have no experience、I don't care if I can do it or not、You won't really know until you try it。Whether you can or not、If you try it, you will get some kind of response.。based on that、If you feel like you can do it、Try going a little deeper。In that sense, it's not "because of what you can do."、The title has been changed to "From what seems possible."。on the other hand、Try various things、From an experienced person who could only get a weak response from all of them,、From that (thinness) shading、"for now、I thought, ``This is it.''、Will it be “from what I was able to do”?。
recently、I find myself scratching my head more and more often thinking, “Why can’t I do this?”。That's、I don't know if it has something to do with my thinning hair or not.、forget what you're supposed to do、I was daydreaming about something so inconsequential.。This is it、That's why you won't be able to do what you can do.。