The canary who forgot to sing

“Female college student” 2025.02.17 Watercolor F10

There is an old nursery rhyme called。I'm sure there are people who remember it.。-Will a canary that forgets its song be thrown away in the mountain behind it?、Or will I be beaten with a willow whip?。-No, that won't happen.。

An ivory boat with a silver oar。I mean oar。Do people today understand? ) give、If I float on the moonlit sea、It is said that canaries remember forgotten songs (lyrics):Yaso Saijo)。Unfortunately, the sale and purchase of ivory is currently prohibited due to WWWF regulations.。Besides, a silver oar is too heavy for a canary to paddle.、I'm sorry for ruining the romance of the lyrics by saying things like that.。On top of that, I can't stop talking about memory loss and brain medicine anymore.。

Ivory boats and silver oars、Even if you don't make such expensive preparations,、open the birdcage door、If only you would set me free、I'm sure the canary will remember the song.、I thought the same thing when I was a child.。
What I can't forget is、About the canary that my father loved。The cat I loved、The morning I dug my claws into a canary that couldn't escape from its cage.。My father never scolded me or the cat.、After that, I never kept a living thing again.。I was an elementary school student、I must have silently watched my father take care of the canary.、I don't remember very well。

(Sellable) Painter who doesn't paint、When I reflect on my rude self,、I suddenly remember this scene。The canary who forgot to sing and the painter who doesn't paint。- Shall we throw it in the mountain behind you?。No no, that won't happen。Let's at least fill it up.、like my father did。No, is this a world where even that won't come true?。

Stress addicted

this morning、The above video has been released。This is the process of creating something I posted on my blog the day before yesterday.。I proposed three ways to use light and dark except for white paper.、The most important thing is the whiteness of the person in the foreground and the paper。The intermediate brightness indicates the meaning of each。

This time I edited it very quickly。A lot of oddities? There are also various physical problems that arise.、Do you try hard from early in the morning until late at night on weekends? Editing work。By the time I go to sleep, the text on the screen is、My eyes are so shaky that I can't see unless I stick my face on the monitor。That's why、There's an error too、That triggers me and makes my computer confused。It takes time、The vicious cycle of。

This morning I was able to wake up calmly for the first time in a few days。Good (I don't have much sleep though、It's less stressful)。I was able to do some muscle training after waking up、Maybe I'll also go for a walk in the evening、How positive you can think。I feel that stress is eroding my body right away、On the other hand, you may not feel alive without it。I'm addicted to stress。No good、The next thing is waiting。Well then。

"In the cafeteria"

“In the cafeteria” watercolor sketch (created for YouTube)

Create watercolor sketches for YouTube。Sometimes it becomes a work as it is,、Sometimes it becomes a bitter training of failure.。However、None of them have the originality of ``I can't do it unless I do it.''。In that sense, everything is just a production.、It may be that。

Even if you draw it in the same way, it may not turn out well.。A cake shop or a ramen shop、each piece、It is impossible to do it for each customer.、Business cannot be successful if there are differences in taste.。100Even if I make one、500Even if I make one、Must be indistinguishable in appearance and taste。That's what a craftsman is。

Conversely, even if you draw 100 paintings, they all have the same motif.、composition、It would be a problem if the taste was the same (if it were possible to do that)、I think that's amazing though)。1Although it is assumed that there is a difference in one point,、If it's a difference between being able to do something or not being able to do it, then that's a problem.。professional training、100The ability to make things at the same level、it may be necessary。I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、Maybe it's actually the opposite?。