Category: 生活

From that world、I just came back。It's literally "survival"。I have repeatedly said things like ``I don't care if I die anytime'' or ``I want to die soon.''、Let's be a little more careful from now on。Because I got a glimpse of a horrifying and scary world。

I haven't actually been to the "other world"。I、I just took a quick look around the entrance.、It's actually presumptuous to use words like "survival", but、That's definitely what I felt。

it is、Just a short distance from our homes、Or rather, it's between the houses.、It is also located in a place that many people frequent.。And even though it's easy for anyone to tell the difference、Many people seem to pretend not to notice it.。No one is standing there anymore。Almost all of them were lying on their backs.、breathing quietly。I get up several times a day、Eating food brought in from somewhere.、Eat and immediately lie back on your back。It's a conveyor belt that moves so slowly that you don't even notice it.、After a few days, weeks, or months, it will no longer be within anyone's reach.、It has become an artery to the “other world” from which there is no return.。

“This world” that I looked back on from there、It will snow in the morning today、the weather was rough。put up an umbrella、How to walk against the wind、Might be difficult for people with bad legs or hips。Compared to the terrifying peace of that world。But、that's what it means to be alive。Pain, bitter feelings, and various contradictions、It really looked like being alive。
I looked back at "this world" from just the entrance.、Holding up a "last minute" sketch。

I can't do anything today。Or rather、I feel like my day will end just thinking about the hospital.。It's just a "test"、There's a lot of pressure because I'm not used to it.、I can't do almost anything else。

Even if it can't be helped that I can't draw.、read a book、I guess I can think of some ideas.、I've been preparing for that、I can't get anything。restless。

Today is warm for the first time in a few days、I went for a walk after 3pm.。Maybe it was because I quickly walked so quickly that I sweated.、I saw a few people running。I also took some people who were thought to be residents of nursing homes and staff at the facility.。

When I see the people who run、I envy。Those who rest may envy me as I walk。For bedridden people、You might envy people walking around the rest。If you're bedridden, that's not the case。Everyone has different values、Maybe it's important to know whether you can find something there or not。