Category: 生活

涼しい、It's a bit colder than that。Rain and fog for the past three days。It rained quite heavily at times。The nearby Choro Choro River also turned into a brown muddy stream.、The width of the river had also expanded by five times.。

The big picture is slow to progress.。Because the advance e-skis was insufficient.。Looking back at why I couldn't do enough esq.、In the end, the cause lies in my own confusion.。why、what、How can I get confused?、I won't say that。

I try various small drawings.。The weather is bad、It's cool、What else can you do here、All I do is read books and sleep.。But、Leisure is precious、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。Make good use of your free time、That idea is already wrong、While also thinking。

strangely、My mother's death is not "death"、just peace without suffering、The body is not a "corpse"、neither a thing nor an idol、In a sense, I felt that it was "something" that was half-hearted.。

get a death certificate、While driving home with my mother in the car from the hospital in the middle of the night、I didn't feel particularly sad (maybe it was because I was excited)。Rather、inhalation mask、Tubes and various drips、without “intervening persons (things)” such as doctors and nurses、I feel like I've finally returned to my straight family.、I talked to my mother who was wrapped in a blanket.。"I'm going home."

"Boobs" and blood、basically the same thing。Medical facts that every woman knows、Surprisingly unknown to men。But、I feel that it is a common sense perceived by all mammals.。All of us (including wild animals)、They grew up sucking their respective mothers' blood.。

I touched my mother's cheek dozens of times right before she was cremated.。Rather than cold、It feels good (thanks to the funeral service provider's "cooler")。and picked up the bones。fleeting、Imitation of pseudo-nursing care。My mother's shriveled nipples that I should have sucked、Disposing of the stool that at first did not want to be seen。my childhood、He saw everything about my childhood、brought back some bones。

After my mother's funeral、Some people asked me, ``What are you doing now?''。``I've always been drawing pictures.'' ``Will it sell?'' ``I don't feel like selling it now.'' ``Isn't drawing a waste then?'' ``It's fun, but...、If you can't make a living off of it, then it won't do you any good.''。

I don't feel like explaining anything.、I don't have any painting tools.、I had some free time so I decided to talk to you.。``Do you like drinking?'' ``I drink a lot.'' ``Does it make you money?'' ``Aren't you an idiot?''。``I'm sure you have to pay for alcohol.'' ``Alcohol is bad for you.'' ``That's true, but...、It also relieves stress.'' ``It's good to relieve stress, but...、That broke my body、Isn't it a waste of money?"。To say that much、Usually the other person understands my intentions.、suddenly become aggressive。

``Most of the time, art is just pretending to be noble.、"It's of no use to society." "Do you understand art?" "Is it of no use?"、How did you find out? ” “Alcohol is the body.”、It's been proven that it's especially bad for the brain."。Well, no more、Even if you are confident in your strength, don't do it.。

I believe that anything that is immediately useful is dangerous.。For example, clean air、quiet environment、That kind of thing isn't immediately useful.。Apparently, the questioner thinks that "the concrete result of sketching" brings fun.、“A machine that cleans the air” “A company that creates a quiet environment”、Such “useful things” set off an alarm inside me.。drawing a picture、looking at a picture、I think of it as something like clean air and a quiet environment.。