I want to travel

「Apple trip」 2020/02/02 Oil on canvas F6

I haven't traveled in a while。“Moving” and traveling are different。It's a selfish definition、There is something extraordinary about traveling.、Go to a place where you can feel a slight difference in scenery and culture。Can't even pass。And the condition is that you must eat local food there.。Furthermore, if you stay for one night or more, the feeling of traveling will greatly increase.。

Not just a journey through real time and space.、I may no longer travel in my imagination.。Rather than being busy、I've lost my sense of adventure.、surely。My challenger spirit is dying。ah。

When I was a student、I thought I could go anywhere with just a backpack and a sleeping bag.、In fact, I was able to travel for over a month dressed like that.。I always thought that if I went, everything would be okay.、When I was traveling, I saw the destination of the train that happened to pull into the platform next to me.、I suddenly felt intrigued and jumped on a train going in the opposite direction.、I enjoyed myself even if I had some troubles.。It's not just my own little adventurous spirit.、He sees a lot of recklessness.、This is because open hearts existed not only in Japan but everywhere in the world.、I also think。Being able to feel that humanity (even if it is not necessarily warm)、Maybe it was something I couldn't do without traveling.。

Let's travel。For now, it doesn't matter whether it's reality or fantasy.、First step。Challenges require determination、For the time being, I am inflating my curiosity, which is unnecessary for me to make a decision.。try touching it。try it。I want to regain a little more sense of playfulness.、I keep thinking that。

“What I’m looking for” – Are you still looking for something?

「Apple-jeans」     2020  Tempera on canvas  F6

It's not Yosui Inoue's "What are you looking for?"、Are you still looking for it?、I continue to experience the feeling of。It's not a "spiritual" search that you can't possibly find.、physical “power cable”、Should I give up on the search and buy a new one online?、Are you still looking for it?、The sad story of having two choices。

Today is an exhibition、An opening party for those involved will be held from 4 p.m.。I am also exhibiting、I was planning to go、morning、I have a slight headache from yesterday.、I thought maybe I had a cold, so I decided not to go.。And、shutter repair。couldn't do it。Then look for the cable。searching for something、In the end, you will have to clean up、For large-scale cleaning。But、not found。have lunch in the meantime、Because it was a fish、I gave some of it to the cat (who wears a collar) who sometimes comes to lie down in the garden.、Look for cables while watching them eat.。

Actually、I've been looking for it for three days now。The search range is limited (maybe that's just my imagination)、The search time per location must be considerable.。It's more careful than looking for a mole on your face.。half a year ago、From the moment I put it there、I feel like my fear of “this place might not be good” came true.。

Should I give up and buy a new one?、It's time to choose whether to continue searching.。I don't like it、Why did the shutters have to break at a time like this? Come to think of it、There were a lot of inch-sized mats left over.、I wonder why I would think of this at a time like this.。

A song for hundreds of people

"Western Pear" 2020、1 Watercolor・F6

10almost a year ago、started writing haiku。I wish I had something that I could call a hobby.、Because I thought。It doesn't cost much money、All I have to think about is 17 characters.、I wonder if even I, who is quite slow, can do it.、(Like many people) It was because of impure feelings.。In order not to give up too soon、I was asked to teach at a (too small) haiku meeting.。There is a haiku meeting once a month.、It was the 100th anniversary at the end of last year.。At first, I wanted to try various things.、smug、Create many phrases that are quite biased、I incurred the displeasure of the members.。

Lately, I've been feeling like I can't say much with 17 letters.。Just in case、Since it is a traditional haiku, seasonal words are included.。With this, I spend about five characters.。There are only 12 characters left、It takes about five characters to write the name of a specific thing or some description.。Convey your mood and intention with the remaining seven letters、I started to feel like there was no way I could do it.。Certainly a masterpiece、There are some ``famous haiku'' that have such depth and breadth that it is hard to believe that they are made up of only 17 characters.。But、for ordinary people like me、No matter what I do, I imitate others、It cannot help but become a simile.。

So if it's a tanka with 31 characters,、There is no need for seasonal words.、I thought I could use the whole thing for myself.、I started reading a book of modern tanka poems.。It's definitely much more interesting then。However, I have come to understand that it is more than four times as difficult to create a character with 7 characters and 31 characters.。This is a huge burden both time-wise and mentally.。On the other hand, haiku is still continuing.。This is why、Sometimes I compose tanka、If only the first 17 characters are considered a haiku,、I thought that I could kill two birds with one stone.。

I didn't think it would go that well、It was as expected。Important points even in tanka、What I want to say is the second half.。But、Then I noticed one thing。短歌の前半つまり大したことではないところそこは風景や情景といういわば「背景」を説明する部分まさに「花鳥風月」の部分じゃないか。I see、俳句というのは大事なところをすっぱり切り捨て七文字じゃとても言い切れないからと読む人に思いっきり丸投げしてしまうブラック商法なのだなと-ここでやっと「百人一首」に繋がるのだが王朝時代のゆったりした叙景の「コツ」を覚えるには万葉から新古今集あたりまでの名作がたった百首に絞り込まれた「百人一首」が一番手っ取り早いのではないかというおよそ趣味的ではない発想で読んでみることにしたのだった。However、どうもこれがいろいろと後を引きそうな気配濃厚である意味困っているところです