It was hot today。I was wearing only a T-shirt during the day.、When I go for a walk on my bike in the evening、It's definitely different from the intense heat of a few weeks ago.。At the Manjusha flower in a nearby park、The setting sun was shining。while taking a photo、The sound of the wind passing over it、Really refreshing。I couldn't help but feel the song ``Autumn Comes...'' (It's also very easy to see)。
There was a monthly haiku meeting yesterday.。With the naive idea of a haiku gathering for fun、It is something that is forced to be prepared the day before the haiku meeting.、My family reads it as "Fabricated Haiku Society" (I feel sorry for the other members)。Yesterday, October 1st, was the “Full Moon of Mid-Autumn”.、The title of the haiku is "Mei (full moon)"。
句会での最高点は、Mr. S's motto: ``Green oranges lined up with purchasing department stationery''。ほぼ満票だった。Of course I gave it the highest score.。Because I am aware that I am quite perverse.、I have almost no desire to be chosen (though I do want them to understand the content).。but、Recently, the members have gotten used to it.、私のひねくれを、I'm actually worried that he doesn't seem to feel that way anymore.。
The title of my poem is ``Sucking the full moon and the eyes of the sea bream.''。I don't think it makes sense、For some reason it was surprisingly popular。Last month、A sharp depiction of the landscape of political apathy in contemporary Japan.、He submitted a confident work titled ``They are smiling in the autumn heat''.、０点だった。
"Blue seagull exhibition" will be held on the 20th、Successfully completed (?) under the coronavirus。I have put up an unfinished work for sale.、Although it is late, I will be exhibiting the completed work here (although not much has changed).。
Personally、I have been working on works that can be called the "Apple" series for a long time.。There is no such thing as this being a single result.、It's about time to sort out the trial and error so far.、Aiming for a comprehensive work、I was thinking about this work before and after.。
I think we will have many opportunities to see works like this throughout this year.、We are already trying to integrate some small items, so、Those prototypes、I'm sure there will be more failed works in the future.。Expectations? please。
I will return to the blue seagull exhibition.、This time too, I felt the importance of “failing”.。Are all the works that were found “interesting” “on a fine line between failure”?、There were many works where ``there is an interesting attempt in failure'' and ``you don't even realize it's a failure.''。The openness to admit some (or a few) failures、Self-centered curiosity is the ``cause of failure''、In that sense、Failure is what it is、I believe that this is the origin of one's individuality.。
All masterpieces in the history of painting、There are only ``big failures'' before ``previous masterpieces''。The history of painting is itself a history of failure.。baroque paintings、今でこそ絵画の黄金時代と呼ばれていますが、The word "baroque" itself、「野蛮な」「奇妙な」という意味を持つ語です。当時は「変な絵だなー」と思われていたのです。
At the "Blue Seagull Exhibition"、もっと変な絵（もちろん自分から変だなどとは思わないでしょうが）をいっぱい描きましょう。新しい絵を描きましょう。But、「新しい」とは何でしょうか。それは自分にとって「普通で、自然で、面白い」ということです。however、「普通」「自然」という意味が、他人の決めた尺度ではなく、あくまで「自分にとって」ということが条件です。ことばは簡単そうですが、これを実現することは、決してたやすくはありません。
ここで「高齢者」という言葉を開き直り的に使いましょう。もう先が長くない。なんだかんだと言いながら、ここまでしぶとく生きてきた。今さら、この先も他人目線の絵を描いていたら、死んでも死に切れないのではありませんか？お孫さんや、ひ孫さんをかわいく描いてあげたって、どうせ義理でしか喜んでくれません。More than that、新星爆発じゃないけれど、もう一踏ん張りして、バクハツして死んだ方が楽しくないでしょうか？きっと子どもさんも、お孫さんも「じっちゃん、ばっちゃん、やりたいことやって死んだわ。うらやましー」って、尊敬すると思いますけど。
