depth of love 2

"芍薬ー2024·May" Watercolor F6

What is “depth of love”?、After all, isn't it very similar to "depth of interest"?、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。for example、the other day、I wrote about Fujiko Hemming.、her love for the piano、interest in piano、depth of interest、I don't think the person himself can tell that much apart.。

A parent's love for their child、what the child feels、thought、what's going on now、they are interested、Isn't it possible to translate it into depth of interest?。If you are forced to divide、How do I relate to that and try to live my life?、Although there may be differences in active positions,、in her case、I don't think there is much of a difference.。

What if、If the idea is correct、for example、The depth of love for painting can be said to be the depth of interest in painting.。however、That is、People who don't draw have less (shallower) love for painting than people who draw.、doesn't mean anything at all。I like drawing、I like watching、I think they are different things。Even if you don't draw it、favorite painter、work、history of art、Art related technologies, etc.、What is your interest?、No matter which one you choose, there's something infinitely deep about each one of them.。
in short、in one street、For things that can't be done、Would it be an exaggeration to say that I feel love for all of them?。Whether it's sweets love or ramen love、There's always something of your own、For example time、For example, physical strength、For example, money、There is something like an urge to ``want to know more deeply'' and ``want to be deeply involved'' even if it is a burden.。Isn't it okay to call it love?、This person is building his "own" snowboard "road"。

we are not machines。Does not have the precision or strength of a machine。It is impossible to have the memory and calculation speed of a computer.。間違い無駄なことを繰り返すけれど止められない知りたいこともっと関わりたいことがあるそれは愛と同じものではないか?
 自分の胸に手を当てて考えてみるなにかを愛しているだろうか

ability

"Dendrobium" watercolor

I've lost a lot of abilities lately.、It's like a catchphrase.、I started writing.。actual、Because I started to feel that way、What is actually human ability?、It seems that it cannot be compared so easily.。

Of course, it is not possible to simply compare the differences in abilities between humans and other animals.。Although he prides himself on ranking himself at the top, calling himself a ``primate,''、Items to be compared、Only from a human perspective。Only things that are easy to compare from a human perspective、invisible to humans。Even among those people、specific abilities、For example, learning ability (although this term is ambiguous)、Athletic ability、etc,etc.It was popular for a while.、○○ power is also like that.。that's why、Actually, there's no need for me to be so depressed either.。

live by the seaside、It's called lugworm、There are creatures that are at most ten centimeters long.。If you think of a centipede on the shore, the image is similar.。I catch it and use it as bait.、To this lugworm、I've been bitten hard enough to draw blood.。
I was surprised and looked at the mouth part.、They have small but impressive fangs。that's why、“If you catch it, immediately cut off its head with scissors.”、I vaguely remembered the meaning of the teachings、That's when I understood for the first time。And I can't even hold on to this guy.。No matter how hard I hold it、It feels like a subring or coil made of steel.、Push away the jerky fingers、It slips out from between my fingers。The crevices of mussels (small shellfish similar to mussels) growing densely on rocks? It's so easy to sneak into、The ability of humans to close their fingers is not an issue.。

Such an amazing ability、There is no point in evaluating it from a human perspective.。humans run、Because I can swim、I just compared it to a cheetah、I sometimes compare it to dolphins.、For example, with terrifying abilities like the lugworm.、Human imagination can't keep up。Squid or octopus?、Expanding or contracting the pigment on the body surface、Many people know that they can change their body color, but、There is also no point in evaluating it using a human scale.。Simply、I can only say it's amazing。The earth is full of such creatures.。
that's why、Maybe we don't have to look down on us old people so much.。Maybe、Even if it's blurry、If you change your perspective、Maybe it's a skill that has been successfully acquired.。Pretending to be kind to socially disadvantaged people、Plans to force eviction for good health、enterprise、There is a need to be content with one-sided evaluations from a policy perspective, etc.、Maybe not.。

I finally have to draw a picture

"Dendrobium" watercolor

I finally have to draw a picture。義務ではない仕事でもない。as my life、I have to draw a picture to summarize.。

I've been drawing a lot of pictures so far.、I'm still drawing it though.、For some reason, I don't feel like I painted my own picture.。If it stays like this、without drawing a picture of myself、It's that worldly thing.、I've gotten used to thinking about things like this.。Fujimi myself (Fujimi x、I, who believed that I was immortal,、That's right。

Well then、What were your previous paintings? That means。It will be “quite a little miso”.、Until now、I'm sure it's not like I've been drawing "other people's pictures."、Even if I look at my own work now、I think that my worldview is reflected in my paintings to some extent (I guess this is called ``smugness'').。But、Something's missing。
I want to draw a good picture、This is different from。There are times when I think I have drawn a ``good picture.''、This is when I am drawing the worst picture.、What is that?、Because I have experienced it deeply in my life so far.、I have already graduated from that dimension.。What I wish for is、Maybe it's the guy who says, ``I had a world like this too'' or ``I can't live like this anymore.''。

It's like a historical drama that he dies immediately after drawing it.、Because he's from the past.、Please take that seriously、``If this person had lived a few more years,、I could have drawn a more interesting picture."、I want to die painting a picture that makes me want to imagine it.。differently、I don't want that kind of evaluation.。My desire to draw pictures that make me feel that way、This is the one I want to take with me to the afterlife.。