May enjoy a long war

カラスウリ F4 水彩 2011

I went to the hospital where my father was admitted for the first time in two months.、I went only for 3 days。

My first impression was that he was a different person who looked a lot like my father.。Two months ago, I had a bandage on my head.、My eyes are also puffy、I almost didn't understand what you were saying.、Still, he was a “sick father.”。This time there were no bandages or swollen eyes.、The person in front of me is not my father.、like a shell、More like a monkey than a human、It's a different person。He looked away, seeming to have little interest in my face.。

2nd day。help my father with lunch。My father can't use his hands or arms well.、It takes an hour to an hour and a half for lunch.。I asked for help with that too.。Almost impossible to eat alone。Even if you put it in your mouth、It's not even easy to swallow。talk to、encouragement、Let me carry the dishes by myself until I almost drop them.、hold a spoon、let them do it on their own as much as possible。Eventually, I became more and more ambitious.、I try to change the tableware even if I can't bring it to my mouth.、Trying to center the contents properly.、I started trying to scrape the things I didn't want to eat from my plate.。

Although my voice is almost gone,、try as hard as one can、I started speaking using many words.。It's a small voice that you can't hear unless you place your ear close to your mouth.、Eventually, I started to string together some meaningful words.、When I agreed with him, he started talking more and more.。I feel like I've finally returned from the monkey world to the human world.。Serious and hardworking type、I started to feel my father's personality.。

When I give you my favorite newspaper、try to read。I'm still not sure if I can read or not.、The eye seems to be following the articles one after another.。The way he sometimes takes the newspaper back is truly impressive.。Maybe something will work out、From this moment on, I started to have hope.。When I yelled the content of the article into his ear (it seems like he couldn't hear anymore)、I nod when I understand (but I feel like most of them don't)。Still, I'm not just nodding along mechanically.、I'm sure I'm nodding my head as a result of an echo somewhere in my brain.。What I don't understand is、Because if you don't understand, you whisper。

Be prepared for a long battle with brain disease.。And even more so if you're older。I don't have any more physical strength。nevertheless、I was convinced that my father would come back to us.。It seemed like I didn't want to eat lunch on the third day.、When I asked, “Isn’t it delicious?”、I immediately replied, "It tastes bad!" as if to throw it away.。I can't hear it well, but、“The texture is also、It doesn't taste good either,'' I understood.。all jelly-like foods、For my father who used to eat first-class seafood on a daily basis, there was no way it would taste good.。i laughed。that was yesterday。  2011/10/11

 

Can not only be able to

Capsule F4 MX 2011 (unfinished)

I can only do what I can。That sounds like a stupid thing to say, but、In fact, even if you try to do something that is beyond your ability, you will never be able to do it.、Even things that are within your ability to do、In reality, it is said to be difficult to do.、very realistic meaning。

But on the other hand、how much my ability is、You can only know the result by trying it。Even if the results come out、I think there may be times when you feel like you might be able to do a little more.。

And、Absolute ability、I think there are both relative things.。What is absolute?、For example, like the World Athletics Championships that took place the other day.、100How many seconds can you run m?、etc.。Relative things are things like sumo, where there are wins and losses.。compose a poem、Which one is closer to drawing pictures?。

In an essay the other day、"If you think you're the same as the other person,、Most of the time, the other person is superior.''。I overestimate myself、他人のことは過小評価するものだという意味だろうか評価とはもともと自分でしてはならないものなのだけれど

Still、my own abilities、自分ができる限界とかを考えるのが凡人の常というものだ。even while driving、古今の画家たちの死亡年齢と傑作を描いた時期とを漠然と考えてみた。Leonardo da Vinci passed away at the age of 67、I started making the Annunciation when I was around 20 years old.。Raphael passed away at the age of 37、バチカンの大作「アテネの学堂」が26歳頃の制作。Similarly, Picasso was 92 years old.、20``The Whores of Avignon'', the beginning of the century's paintings, was created around the age of 26.。van gogh、Lautrec died at the age of 37 in both cases.。Egon Schiele 28 years old。I was only 17 years old when Klimt recognized me.。Considering that、The very fact that I and others use words such as my own abilities、I feel like I'm clueless。

But、Drawing a picture is still fun (though it's still painful)、There's no way I can stop it while I'm still alive.。given that、There's no point in thinking like that。Just doing what you love is enough、I have no choice but to think。Rather than thinking about the results、I thought I had no choice but to do the best I could right now.、I stepped on the accelerator without realizing it.。The only thing you can do while driving is to drive safely.。

人工衛星が自分の頭を直撃する確率

カプセル ムーン F4 mixed-madia 2011

NASA satellite (UARS) may or may not have crashed in Canada。There are currently more than 20,000 artificial satellites orbiting the earth (most of them military satellites).。More satellites will fall on our heads in the future.。This time, the probability of the debris hitting someone was 1/3200.、Suppose that 20,000 will fall from now on (although new ones will be launched in the meantime)、Leaving that aside), then、The probability is quite high、It will be necessary to consider the possibility of damage to people and buildings as a real problem.。

on the other hand、The moon is Earth's natural satellite、This one, on the other hand, seems to be moving away little by little.。If you move a certain distance away, the rotation of the earth will become unbalanced.、It is predicted that their movements will become unstable and unpredictable.。The impact could extend to the entire solar system。most、That will happen about 5 billion years from now.、Normally, it has no bearing on our lifespan.。

That's not what America is for, though.、Apparently they are seriously considering sending humans to Mars.。Space shuttle program ended、America's space program is on hiatus、The announcement of plans for Mars 10 years from now means、Developed in secret during that time、It just means to continue the simulation.。Japan's plans are all about the short term.、I want people to sit down and think about this (even if it means changing the Prime Minister every month).。

This year's "Mid-Autumn Harvest Moon" has already passed on September 12th (I remember that it was a good month)。Since the earthquake、I feel like I've only been looking at my feet.、Thanks to this problem, I was able to look up at the sky for the first time in a while.。 2011/9/24